When I blogged about rainbows here, I mentioned that I have not seen a real rainbow for quite some time since don’t-know-when. When a mixture of doubt along with an emotional downturn come weighing down on me, all I wanna see is a RAINBOW – be it physically or mentally/emotionally. All I want is the assurance that in the midst of such a “raging storm”, I can still see a “rainbow,” the promise that if I persevere enough, I would see light in such a dark situation. It can only be a miracle from God then.
It really hit me hard! I was absolutely speechless when I heard the heart breaking news. It took me a whole lot of courage to hold back those emotions. I refused to believe it was true. But I knew pretty well that it has to be!! Why else would she lie? Gosh!! I couldn’t bring myself to sleep while those thoughts were still running wild and alive in my head. I was so groggy and sleepy but yet I couldn’t fall into deep sleep until about 4am the next morning. It was disturbing, alright. It was that bad!
John 14:27 is a verse of encouragement for me from the prayer log for this week. It was so timely! I have been seeking the Lord for answers & directions, and to get this verse for the week was definitely uplifting. Things happen without a warning. When it happens, it is too late to ask “why?”. I have seriously been thinking so much about it despite that reassuring verse from the prayer log. My parents might have felt the same (but then again, I can't be sure.) way, but perhaps their faith is way bigger than mine, haha. I was glad to be out of the house that night, so that my mind could be taken off from the certain concerns.
The moment we left our front gate and turned the corner, I noticed a rainbow in the sky. The image was very vague. I tried capturing it, but failed. Never mind, what is more important is that I saw it with my very own eyes and I knew God was trying to tell me something. The two areas in which I needed peace, He has granted it to me. Now it’s up to me how I chose to perceive those 2 situations. A turning point, a hope in the hopeless situation? A reassuring answer for a doubtful mind? Thank God for that rainbow!! Thank God that a decision has been made. Thank God (and hopefully) that it is settled once and for all!!
3 comments:
hei dear, i don't really know what's going on but may God be your shield and your strogn tower in times of need.
hey, thank uuuu *muaks* t'was then n there that the effect has shaken me, but i'm convinced that Jesus loves this person even more than i do ;)
someone very dear & near lo, so when something like that happen, altho i can't do much, i can still pray la, hehe.. so praying hard that he wont fall further in2 the enemy's traps..
thanx again yah!
You're most welcome.. :D
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