I WANT A BREAK!!

Sometimes I wish God would juz grant wishes when I ask of Him, haha. I want a break!! I need a break!! It’s just the beginning of the year, and I’m complaining already? You will know how it feels when there are so many things on your mind. As if not enough, I have a senior person at home who will keep such a close watch on me on almost every little thing that I do around the house… arrrgghh!!

Family, rangers, friendships & relationships… Ooh, and health issues too :p I want a break from all these!! I want a break from having people arnd me. I want a time where it is only me and Him. Not that I’m getting tired of serving, but I’d still want some time alone away even from ministry (which means my adorable kids in rangers). I want to get my mind off friendships not because I don’t appreciate my friends anymore, but because I want to re-prioritize them: From those that are edifying to those that are not, from those that bring joy instead of trouble and chaos. I want a break from the “guy-girl” issues as well, haha :))

YOU ALONE

You are the peace that guards my heart
My help in times of need
You are the hope that leads me on
And brings me to my knees

For there I find You waiting
And there I find release
So with all my heart I’ll worship
And unto I’ll sing

For You alone deserve all glory
For You alone deserve all praise
Father, we worship and adore You
Father, we long to see Your face
For You alone deserve all glory
For You alone deserve all praise
And we worship You this day.

CROSSING THE "RED SEA"

The story of The Red Sea experience in the Bible is no unfamiliar scene if we know our Scriptures well. It has never been so significant to me before than tonight. Evie’s sharing was short and sweet, yet powerfully projected. Crossing the red sea over to the promise land depicts a successful journey. But what about the Egyptians that came after them? Moses answered the people in verse 13 about not being afraid for the Egyptians that they see today they will see no more. With that I am believing that the “Egyptian” that I have in my life today, I will see no more.

Senior Pastor Henry’s favourite verse whenever it comes to the Holy Communion is that of Isaiah 53:4-5 and I’m claiming it.

It was truly God’s divine appointment that these 3 songs were chosen for worship. With Evie gracefully on the piano, I really felt such peace and comfort from the Lord, hehe.

YOU LAID ASIDE YOUR MAJESTY (click here for chords)

You laid aside Your majesty
Gave up everything for me
Suffered at the hands of those You have created
You took all my guilt and shame
When You died and rose again
Now today You reign in heaven and earth exalted.

I really want to worship You, my Lord
You have won my heart and I am Yours
Forever and ever I will love You
You are the only One who died for me
Gave Your life to set me free
So I lift my voice to You in adoration.

I STAND IN AWE

You are beautiful beyond description
Too marvelous for words
Too wonderful for comprehension
Like nothing ever seen or heard
Who can grasp Your infinite wisdom
Who can fathom the depths of Your love
You are beautiful beyond description
Majesty enthroned above.

And I stand, I stand in awe of You
I stand, I stand in awe of You
Holy God to whom all praise is due
I stand in awe of You.

THANK YOU FOR THE CROSS

Thank You for the cross, the mighty cross
That God Himself should die for such as us
And everyday we’re changed into Your image
More and more
Yes, by the cross we’re truly been transformed

We’re so amazed, and we give You praise
That You would save us, at such a cost
We’re so amazed, and we give You praise
For the power of the cross.

THE THOUGHTFULNESS OF A FRIEND…

…always puts a smile on my face :)

…brings warmth to my heart

…lets me know that God is constantly working in and through the friendship that we share

It has been a question mark as to what has happened to my dear friend Wei Sern, who has, ever since his sister’s wedding, gone back to Australia and subsequently [quoting josh]“disappeared from the face of this earth (or is it the cyber realm).” Josh buzzed me last night to see if I may have known what has happened to our friend WS. Just when I said I do not have a single clue, he instinctively came online, heh. [panjang umur, haha]

Again, he called me all the way from Aussie. Though the conversation was somewhat short, it is really the thought that counts. Sometimes little things like that can make your day. It definitely made mine, haha. Thanx dude!! p/s: ooh, I’ll bear in mind what you said about taking initiatives *winkz* see ya soon, hehe :)

TRANSITION IS GOOD...

[picture above courtesy of Alvin during DUMC’ s Young Adults’ retreat last year]

As the deer panteth for the waters so my soul longeth after Thee
You alone are my heart’s desire and I long to worship Thee
You alone are my strength my shield
To You alone may my spirit yield
You alone are my heart’s desire and I long to worship Thee.

I want You more than gold or silver only You can satisfy
You alone are the real joy giver and the apple of my eye
You alone are my strength my shield
To You alone may my spirit yield
You alone are my heart’s desire and I long to worship Thee.

You’re my Friend, and You are my Brother even though You are a King
You alone are my strength my shield
To You alone may my spirit yield
You alone are my heart’s desire and I long to worship Thee
I love You more than any other so much more than anything.

Many thoughts have been running through my head (the deep thinker strikes again!!) lately, but strangely enough the words don’t seem to flow as smoothly as before. Confusion also strikes when I cannot be sure myself whether or not to put it into words. I’ve changed. I know I have. But only the Lord knows how much, heh. Perhaps it is the group of friends. Perhaps it is my own experience. Perhaps it’s the Lord’s molding.

Received a call last Monday, set a date for dinner on Tuesday. That one date was, in many ways, an eye opener for me. It made me realize how much I have moved on from the way I was, or rather who I was, 5 yrs ago. It made me realize how childish I was when I did what I did. It made me realize where my heart truly belong. It took me slightly more than 10 years to realize that such an emptiness could be filled in just 1 year if my focus was right. All in all, it made me look back and realize, with a thankful heart, that it is truly the Lord that has guided me through.

Enough is enough!! This year, I want to fully focus only on the things that will make me fulfilled: 1) My adorable kids in Rangers 2) My cell 3) My daily devotion with the book MY UTMOST FOR HIS HIGHEST, highly recommended by Senior Pastor Daniel Ho *winkz*

On a different note, it is nice to listen to uplifting Sunday messages all over again. Once in a while, when our spirits need a lift, it is refreshing when the encouraging word of God speaks and pierce through like a double edged sword. So nice of Alvin to bless me with this particular message cd entitled THE POWER OF FAITH by Rev. Dr. Teoh Choong Leong when I wasn’t able to attend DUMC Sunday celebration due to Rangers duty. Truly one powerful message!!

P/s: ooh, in fact, I’m actually contemplating closing down this site since the flow in writing is not as smooth as before, haha :)) but that's not the main point. The main point is I'd prefer to be more focus in things that I know I would find fulfilment, heh..

FAITH ON FIRM FOUNDATION??

[picture above courtesy of Wei Sern] [ooh, just in case... he has personally given me the permission to use any of his pictures at all, at any time... so it is not considered stealing, haha]

When your faith is tested and you are struck with the worst news, how do you respond/react? People say it depends on what you build it on. How much more true can that statement get? Haha. Last Monday and Tuesday was the moment my anxiety sky-rocketed to it’s maximum level. I was shocked, but dwelling on it and letting worry set in really will not help improve the situation, so why fret and get all worked up about it? I’d say just leave it in God’s hands, amen?

I prefer not to go too detailed into it, but it is juz something to do with my health. Although of course, besides my family, my beloved cell mates and those in Rangers know about this. I really appreciate their care and concern in the form of prayers and encouragements *winkz* my dear prayer sec even initiated a daily prayer schedule so that they can each take a day to pray for me til we see healing *so touched* Someone asked, “Do you question God?” Haha.. What right do I have? I don’t do such thing, heh. Instead I can say that I have been really blessed and assured that despite such health condition, He has never left me. But He has also taught me FAITHFULNESS!!


REFUGE
I sing a love song to You Lord
Every day, every night
Tell of Your goodness and mercy
Tell the world how You rescued me
Pick me up from sin and shame
Your breathe gives me new life.

Where can I go from Your presence
Under Your wings, I take refuge
Your spirit lives within my heart
I know we’ll never be apart

Everyday I draw closer to You Lord
I long to see Your face, and hide in Your embrace
All my life dwelling in Your holy place
My heart oh Lord I’ve changed
I’ll never be the same
Oh I’ll never be the same.

Ooh yes, everyday I draw closer to Him, with my faith still firm on solid ground no matter what!! Thanx to my parents who were there to care enough to notice the changes in my health (when I dont even realise it myself, haha), to my beloved cell members who supports me in prayers & encouragements *winkz* and of course, everyone who has made my life sweeter with their friendship, hehe :)

TRANSITIONING by His spirit…

Grrggh!! Streamyx sucks big time!! Kononnya kabel dasar laut laluan antarabangsa internet sedang mengalami kerosakan disebabkan oleh gempa bumi yg melanda China & Taiwan serta HK & China. Cis!! That is juz to lepas geram :p Scroll down for the real post, haha.

Our God is an awesome God
He reigns from heaven above
With wisdom, pow’r and love
Our God is an awesome God.

This year’s watchnight was superb!! For a change, I was at DUMC’s. So I have both themes, from DUMC and Grace PJ as well. That’s how the title of this post came about: Transition. But the actual verse on the banner was taken from Isaiah 54:2. As for Grace’s, it is the year of the Cross, Sword and the Crown, with which the accompanying verse is from Zechariah 4:6. Now you see that the title of this post is the combination of both worlds, haha.

It’s been a year since I made one particular transition, and I’m just glad I made that decision. The word transition was very much a prominent term to me because personally, I have been wanting a little change physically, emotionally, spiritually, and even socially. Looking at it at a deeper level, only God knows what is in my heart and mind. A year of transition also means taking a step into new world and new heights. But only God will know the right time in guiding me in to those transition time. But still I’d wished it will come soon, haha.

Ooh, one member of the family left us for 3 months. But not long after, one more new member was added to us, haha. My brother left for his National Service yesterday. Wonder how is he coping there :p Beranang, Selangor is not too far away though, compared to Kuantan, Terengganu, heh.

I remembered the time when he anxiously checked the NS results the minute he arrived home from school. Was it disappointment or excitement when he saw his name and IC number exactly the way it is before his very eyes, haha. He had repeatedly checked it just in case there was a blunder, but there it still is whenever he checked the website. God’s will or what? Anyhow, I just hope he will be doing fine there la, hehe.

Now, this is the other new member of the family I was referring to: A two-month-old Golden Retriever, hehe. Say hie to ROXY, everyone *winkz* It's been a while since our previous dog died, it's even been a longer while since I played, stroked, patted and manja-ed a dog, haha. Golden Retrievers are known to be really good assistants to the disabled. So can I train her up to do things for me? Haha. She should be trained up to help me around the house soon :p Esther hor? Hahaha :))