IN BIG TROUBLE!!

I’m in big trouble!! What did I get myself into? I now begin to realize how trapped and entangled I have been. I never thought I would end up in such a big mess when I started this “game.” I thought it looked innocent and safe to go on. Little did I know that I was heading in for trouble. But why? Did I just disappointed myself by putting my hopes too high?

Thinking of it really gives me sleepless nights. Having one foot stuck in this situation, I can’t seem to go forward nor can I turn back to the beginning. I guess the biggest mistake was to play with fire and accidentally setting it of in deadly flames. I try very hard to turn back, but I realize it is taking too much strength physically, mentally and emotionally.

To regret and cry over it, I find no tears falling. To be hopeful and smile at it, I see no light at the end of this tunnel. How long more will I be trapped in my own mistake? It breaks my heart, it just really do!! Lord, help me!! When will this torment ever end? I am just another ordinary human. I can’t take it anymore. Am I to blame for looking for trouble myself?

MALAYSIAN "ELVIS" COMES TO TOWN...

Yes!! The “Malaysian Elvis Presley” is coming to town. He sings great songs with his great voice to serve a great God. I have heard him sing, heard him minister, and he’s none other than H. T. Long. Some call him Elvis Long, haha.

Like the brochure says, he’ll be here to perform at DUMC’s Easter event. Usually their annual production play is held twice yearly, one for Easter and the other Christmas. But this time around it looks a little different. I would say it’s gonna be fun, haha.

IT ALL BEGINS WITH "ME"...

When will we learn to take on the humility of Jesus and begin to live right in His sight? Many a times, it is easier to play teacher or even counselor and begin prying into the lives of others rather than examining ourselves first. When will we stop to listen rather than just talk and talk? Remember the GOLDEN RULE? And Jesus gave us 2 ears and 1 mouth; to listen more and talk less… Hahaha :))

Humans are not perfect. Not me, not you. So why compare, why judge? If we say, we love God, shouldn’t we love our neighbours as well? And just what IS love?

* Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.

* It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.

* Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.

* It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

* Love never fails…

Are we, then, practising what we preach? Really, it all begins with “me”!! Search ourselves b4 we dig into others *winkz*

10 THINGS GOD WON'T ASK...

1) God won’t ask what kind of car you drove;
He’ll ask how many people you drove who didn’t have transportation.

2) God won’t ask the square footage of your house;
He’ll ask how many people you welcomed into your home.

3) God won’t ask about the clothes you had in your closet;
He’ll ask how many people you helped to clothe.

4) God won’t ask what your highest salary was;
He’ll ask if you compromise your character to obtain it.

5) God won’t ask what your job title was;
He’ll ask if you performed your job to your best ability.

6) God won’t ask how many friends you had;
He’ll ask how many people to whom you were a friend.

7) God won’t ask in what neighborhood you lived;
He’ll ask how you treated your neighbors.

8) God won’t ask about the color of your skin;
He’ll ask about the content of your character.

9) God won’t ask why it took you so long to seek salvation;
He’ll lovingly take you to your mansion in heaven, and not to the gates of hell.

10) God won’t ask how many people you forwarded this to;
He’ll ask if you were ashamed to pass it on to your friends.

* Happy moments, praise God.
* Difficult moments, seek God.
* Quiet moments, worship God.
* Painful moments, trust God.
* Every moment, thank God.

Are we living God’s standards?

How Is It?

One, two, three, four, five
Once I caught a fish alive
Six, seven, eight, nine, ten,
Then I let it go again.

Why did you let it go?
Coz it bit my finger so
Which finger did it bite
The little finger on my right.

Things that I have let go, things that I still hold on to. How is it that she saw some improvement in this when I don’t see any progress myself? I caught them all, but I had to let them all go one by one? Will this last one slip right through as well? Will I never see them coming true? When? How? Why? Or rather why not? Do I really have to? What really is the factor? Me? You? Or Him? Us? Them?

I can’t help it!! But could I, really? For You, I will if I have to… Just for You!! I promise!!

DEEPER IN LOVE WITH YOU…

How could I go on loving Him when things were going rough and hardships were falling at me from all sides? 1 Corinthians 3:7 speaks for itself. After what He has done for me on the Cross, what right do I have to grumble and complain? And what’s worse ditch Him just because I was suffering there in the hospital? Instead, I really do realize that I am more in love with Him than before.

From day 1, things were really out of control, but yet I know HE is in control. Since the nephrostomy was a flop, the next best thing was to remove that stupid fibroid (that made me look 5 months pregnant :O) once and for all. After much unnecessary delay, the surgery was done; my main prayer request was answered. I may say it is “THE END” to a horrifying nightmare, but the Lord says it is “THE BEGINNING” to a new chapter into which He is leading me.

Throughout my stay in University Malaya Medical Centre, my mom and I have been through many ups and downs, encouragements and disappointments. Many thoughts have been running through my head as well when I had so many visitors come and go. It made me begin to think and think and think (as usual), in search for an answer. No doubt, it was all for Him. I wanted something new this time. Something that made Him smile.

What are my priorities? What is it that I truly want? Am I ready for what is ahead? I have been quietly watching and observing. Truly it has been so evident. Or is it just my mindset? That I am not going to change the way things were? Some situations were progressing, some remained stagnant. What is He trying to say? I am almost there, but yet I know there are some answers He is still holding back…

[Something that has definitely made Him smile, I know, is none other than the salvation of the “po po” opposite my bed *winkz* when Pastor Mark & Auntie Rose visited me, she challenged us to share the gospel with the po po. The opportunity came when my mom got to feed her her meals when the trainee nurses were on CNY break. The seed was sown, afterwhich Ps. Paul frm Grace USJ planted them.]

All these happened for a reason. Through this experience, friendships were formed. Existing ones were brought one level higher because of Him. Best friends care despite the distance between us. He cared enough to call and check on me all the way from holidaying in China. And “he” also cared enough to constantly check on my healing progress :”> Has this experience, then, closed the gap a little more than before? Only God knows! This experience has indeed revealed the “deeper” side of you. No doubt, it has impacted my impression on you all the more.

ne soul saved. Many more was and will be blessed as I had the privilege of sharing my experience in SURGE again. PTL!!

Love in your eyes...

25 years of ups and downs with each other yet still so much in love with each other. They look so pretty and handsome for the special occasion set up by my sis. Just for the two of them, my mom and dad, hehe. No one asks for this mishap to happen to me, but now that it has happened, they both have lost the mood for the celebration of their silver anniversary. But we insisted that they go and have some time together, having set up a dinner for them at TGI Friday’s.

Mi and Di, thanx for everything!! Especially this time of in and out of the hospital.

“Happy 25th anniversary!! May the two of you continue to grow deeper in love with each other as you sail thru many more years ahead.. But most importantly deeper in love the One who created this beautiful day.. Thanx for everything!”