Xu Ruo Xuan Ai Xiao De Yan Jing Lyrics (The Eyes That Love To Smile)
爱笑的眼睛 by 徐若宣
1) 如果不是那镜子不象你 不藏秘密
If it wasn’t for the fact that the mirror, unlike you, don’t keep any secrets
我还不肯相信没有你
I still won’t believe that without you
我的笑更美丽
My smile will be more beautiful
那天听你在电话里略带 抱歉的关心
The other day, on the phone, I heard a little sense of sorry and concern from you
我嘟的一声切的比你说分手 彻底
I slam the phone, is more than you telling we are over
2) 泪湿的衣洗干净阳光里 晒干回忆
I washed my tear-soaked garment, and dry it along with my memories in the sun
折好了伤心明天起
Then I picked myself up
只和快乐出去
I would only go out with happiness
这爱的城市虽然拥挤 如果真的遇见你
Although this place of love is cramped, but I really do see you again
你不必讶异 我的笑她无发带替
Don’t be surprised if she cannot replace my smile
* 离开你我才发现自己 那爱笑的眼睛
It’s only when I left you that I noticed my eyes that love to smile
流过泪 象躲不过的暴风雨
Cried like a storm that I could not run away from
淋湿的作天删去
Which wet my memories and let me forget my yesterday
离开你我才找回自己 那爱笑的眼睛
It’s only when I left you that I found myself, and those eyes that love to smile
再见爱情 我一定让自己
Goodbye my love, for I must let myself
让自己决定
Come to a decision
** 离开你我才发现自己 那爱笑的眼睛
It’s only when I left you that I noticed my eyes that love to smile
流了泪 当一个人看久电影
I cried again when I watch old films
是我不小心而已
But it was only accidental
离开你我才找回自己 那爱笑的眼睛
It is only when I left you that I found my true self, and those eyes that love to smile
再见到你 我一定让自己
When I meet you again, I must
让自己坚定
Let myself be strong
*** 离开你我才发现自己 那爱笑的眼睛
It’s only when I left you that I noticed my eyes that love to smile
流过泪 象躲不过的暴风雨
Cried like a storm that I could not run away from
淋湿的作天忘记
Which wet my memories and let me forget my yesterday
离开你我才找回自己 那爱笑的眼睛
It is only when I left you that I found my true self, and those eyes that love to smile
再见爱情 我一定让自己
Goodbye my love, for I must let myself
让自己坚定
Let myself be strong
再见到你 我一定让自己
When I meet you again, I must make myself
假装很坚定
Pretend to look strong
Juz simply thru this song, i have found the answer i was looking for for the past 2 mths!! wai ling introduced this song to me, saying she loved it as it was very meaningful… i've been repeatedly listening to it, til my mom actually asked if i never got bored with the same old song… haha, not me, mom… now if u look at it, it is a love song, speaking of how the writer came to a decision of "letting go" And yes, letting go is never, i repeat, NEVER easy, really!! Becoz of the connection we have had with that person (or anything at all for that matter) for such a long time, letting go is indeed a tough thing to do… the song, or rather the lyrics, didn’t really mean anything much to me… juz that I like the song, that’s all… but that was only at the initial stage… little did I know that it carries the answer to my prayers… Yoohoo!!
I had to admit that I was very impatient and wanted to hear from God about a certain prayer request that I had… I wanted an answer, fast!! and for an impatient person like me, it doesn’t help to delay and drag the time for revelation… two whole months, gosh!! But I believe that 2 draggy months was REALLY worth the wait, becoz I do not want to jump to conclusions based on my own feelings & emotions… I wanted it to be from Him!! And that was juz what He did, showing me the answer I had been searching for… And to make it turn out well for the glory of His name, He reveals it only at THE RIGHT TIME!! “In His time, in his time… He makes ALL things beautiful…” okok, Lord You work in Your timing… it was already close to 1am in the morning when I came home, and yet my two sibs are still wide awake… anyways, as I entered my room, I heard this particular song up in my sister’s room… and for the very first time, this song really meant SO much to me!! I felt as if it was God revealing His answers to me, whoa!! And so, as i begin to seek Him again for a confirmation to this, i knew that He has spoken and THAT was the answer because i really felt the peace of God there and then… Thank You, Lord that prior to this revelation, I’ve gotten plenty of support from my parents (not forgetting ps sam and wei sern as well), and that was a sign in itself, which indeed makes it easier for me to grab this confirmation and to take that step of faith in making this decision… Indeed, Your hand is at work, PTL!!
This day, 23rd of December 2005, marks the day of a new beginning for me!! Like the song says, it is only when I left “you” (and it doesn’t literally mean a human in this case; for me, it only meant a certain situation that I have been in), that I took noticed of “my eyes that love to smile.” Although, of course, I did not cry like a storm, my heart truly ached to have to let go, of something that has indeed been a part of me for a very long time now… But then it is when I left “you” that I found the MOST IMPORTANT THING: MY TRUE SELF!! While at the bbq, I felt a strong tugging in my heart to make that major decision… And becoz of this, I will never regret that decision I made when I broke the news to j-son yesterday… before approaching j-son, though I was excited to grab that opportunity, I still felt afraid… probably becoz I do not know what to expect, what the future will throw at me, and how I will react to it… but then, the Lord assured me by showing me clear and obvious situations, not one but a few, that has happened for the past one month which I have always wanted in my spiritual growth & walk with Him… to me, Christianity is not juz about growing spiritually, having daily devotions with Him, and edifying one another in Him… it also means being WILLING to do things that nobody wants to do, going places where people rarely choose to go… reaching out to lives that need a touch, filling the emptiness of lives with the light of Christ that we have… basically juz REACHING OUT, TOUCHING LIVES is something that I found to be very meaningful to me… I found it all!!
Calvin knew about this whole thing, and it was him who has been there to offer encouragements and support all along, not forgetting that he has also backed me up in much prayer… Thanx, Calvin, for being so supportive of me!! And so, he did ask me about this on the way there, and honestly I told him that I was still praying about it… I want (and am still waiting) a confirmation from the Lord about it before I make the next move, and with that I guess he didn’t expect any announcement from j-son so soon, hehe… I mean, I personally didn’t really expect it to come so soon either… I guess only God knows wat He's doin, hehe… well calvin, I guess all your effort has been paid off? *winkz* thanx again!!
I know that the enemy will do watever it takes to confuse me and divert my attention from walking in the path that God has prepared for me, but I believe that if this is from You, Lord, no one can take it away from me… not frens, not family… not even LEADERS!! Help me to stay focus on You as I begin a new year with a new resolution… Lemme live for the glory of Your name, and to do as You please… 2006 is gonna be wonderful!! Excited!!
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
ELAINE’S DAY OUT… WORTHWHILE, THEREFORE SATISFIED!!
Call me crazy, but I shall not deny the fact that I have been so excited about this day that I was actually counting down the days, eheh… It was indeed a jammed-packed Sunday!! Praise the Lord for His strength although I was out the whole day (not to mention a whole day of sitting), it was truly very satisfying to see souls saved (in fact there were a total of 4... 3 from church & 1 from calvin's cell harvest event) lives touched, perception changed… a whole new outlook in some major issues as well…
MORNING
18th December, the day I was anxiously anticipating, finally crept its way in!! Yay!! It was a day packed with activities from sunrise to sundown… they were all supposed to go to church 2gether for the first celebration (in dumc, they call it CELEBRATION sat & sun, not first service, second service, or watever… in fact I think it sounds nicer, eheh), then head for an early lunch before adjourning to the Taman Megah Disabled Centre… now since the Sunday celebrations clashes, dumc’s and grace’s, they suggested that I join them to dumc… cool!! It was my second time there… the first was, I think in 2002, for a healing rally… ooh, to me, that place was HUGE!! Imagine them having 4 celebrations, 2 on sats and 2 more on suns!!
Anyways, yesterday’s message was entitled MARY’S CMAS… the speaker, ps foo yung chean, first gave an example/illustration using a candy cane… cant rber how his story went exactly but there was once a candy maker who came up with this candy cane thingy, and this story had some meaningful explanation to it… “number one: if you look at that candy, it has the shape of the letter J… Now what does it represent? Why is it made in such a way? J wud obviously stand for Jesus, our Savior!! Number two: the J shaped candy also look like a staff, a shepherd’s staff that they used to draw their sheep back when they wander off too far… similarly, J represents the staff of Jesus that is used to draw back those of us who have gone off track from Him, or in the case of those pre believers, it is used to draw them into the kingdom of God and the knowledge of the saving power of Jesus Christ!! Number three: the candy is white in color, symbolizing the pureness of Jesus… then number four, seeing that it was kinda plain, the candy maker decided to add some color to it, therefore the red stripes, and of course it reminds us of the scars on the body of Jesus, the stripes that He suffered and our sins that He took upon Himself, juz so we cud be free from sin!! And lastly number five, the candy is HARD, representing Jesus Himself as our steadfast, rock-solid foundation!!
Ok, now into the sermon… that was juz an intro, haha… let’s look at 3 main characters, each with a different kind of heart: JOSEPH, MARY & THE INN KEEPER…
i) joseph with a HALF heart (matt 1:18-20)
he was in a state of confusion and a know-not-what-to-do situation when he found that mary, pledge to be married to him, had a son… he was afraid and confused all the same… but at this point, an angel of the Lord appeared to him telling him not to be afraid to take mary home to be his wife… though he was confused, he chose to obey what the Lord had said… with that, it also shows that he’d made a decision to surrender his half heart to the Lord, so that He cud make it whole again… [joseph was confused]
ii) mary with a WHOLE heart (luke 1:35-38)
when the angel of the Lord appeared to mary and told her that she was going to have a son, she answered, “I am the Lord’s servant. May it be to me as You have said.” She was obedient and submissive to the will of God [mary was willing]
iii) the inn keeper with an EMPTY heart (luke 2:1-7)
the time came when baby Jesus was to be born… but when they came to a village inn, the inn keeper rejected them saying he had no room for them… not knowing that it was the King who was to be born, he turned them away thinking that they weren’t any important people… and probably juz didn’t wanna lose a business to some ordinary-looking couple… but little did he know that he was missing out on the honor of having a King born in his inn [the inn keeper was reluctant]
in closing, ps foo threw us a challenge… to begin making room for Jesus, if we have not been doing so… he challenged us to begin to clear off any areas of our lives that are beginning to take the place of Jesus Himself!!
SO YOU WOULD COME
Before the world began, you were on His mind
And every tear you cry, is precious in His eyes
Because of His great love, He gave His only Son
Everything was done so you would come
** Come to the Father, though your gift is small
Broken hearts, broken lives
He will take them all
The power of the Word, the power of His Blood
Everything was done so you would come
Nothing you can do, could make Him love you more
And nothing that you’ve done would make Him close the door
Because of His great love, He gave His only Son
Everything was done so you would come
AFTERNOON
The visitation was fun!! An eye opener for me in many ways, I wud say… the taman megah handicapped & disabled children’s home was truly a place that brought back memories from my childhood… my heart melted with compassion when I look at them… they are all so different becoz of each of their own disabilities, but yet You have called each one of them by name, and they are indeed so precious in Your eyes… You love them all the same and were never different from anyone else…
Singing carols, playing games… Juz spending time with them… there were still some who couldn’t join us at the compound, but juz stayed indoors… so I decided to be with those who were unable to come out… entering the hall, I spotted this sweet-looking girl sitting all alone by herself on the stairs… as I was heading her way, I had to also be very careful not to run over a couple of them who were lying helplessly on the floor… soon, I realized that the girl was blind, so I reached out to touch her hand, but she begin to tense up, afraid I guess… but then with the help of her maid who explained that I was a “kakak” wanting to make friend with her, she begin to relax… taking my hand, she felt me all over… so as to make her more at ease with me, I started talking to her and having small chats with her… although I cudnt figure out what she was trying to say, at least she was talking… next thing I knew, she started singing… in tamil or hindi, I don’t know, but, wow, imagine that? She’s a Chinese, mind you… talented lil girl!! Lord, I juz pray that You be with her and comfort her, especially right now that she juz found out about the passing of one of her loved ones…
MORNING
18th December, the day I was anxiously anticipating, finally crept its way in!! Yay!! It was a day packed with activities from sunrise to sundown… they were all supposed to go to church 2gether for the first celebration (in dumc, they call it CELEBRATION sat & sun, not first service, second service, or watever… in fact I think it sounds nicer, eheh), then head for an early lunch before adjourning to the Taman Megah Disabled Centre… now since the Sunday celebrations clashes, dumc’s and grace’s, they suggested that I join them to dumc… cool!! It was my second time there… the first was, I think in 2002, for a healing rally… ooh, to me, that place was HUGE!! Imagine them having 4 celebrations, 2 on sats and 2 more on suns!!
Anyways, yesterday’s message was entitled MARY’S CMAS… the speaker, ps foo yung chean, first gave an example/illustration using a candy cane… cant rber how his story went exactly but there was once a candy maker who came up with this candy cane thingy, and this story had some meaningful explanation to it… “number one: if you look at that candy, it has the shape of the letter J… Now what does it represent? Why is it made in such a way? J wud obviously stand for Jesus, our Savior!! Number two: the J shaped candy also look like a staff, a shepherd’s staff that they used to draw their sheep back when they wander off too far… similarly, J represents the staff of Jesus that is used to draw back those of us who have gone off track from Him, or in the case of those pre believers, it is used to draw them into the kingdom of God and the knowledge of the saving power of Jesus Christ!! Number three: the candy is white in color, symbolizing the pureness of Jesus… then number four, seeing that it was kinda plain, the candy maker decided to add some color to it, therefore the red stripes, and of course it reminds us of the scars on the body of Jesus, the stripes that He suffered and our sins that He took upon Himself, juz so we cud be free from sin!! And lastly number five, the candy is HARD, representing Jesus Himself as our steadfast, rock-solid foundation!!
Ok, now into the sermon… that was juz an intro, haha… let’s look at 3 main characters, each with a different kind of heart: JOSEPH, MARY & THE INN KEEPER…
i) joseph with a HALF heart (matt 1:18-20)
he was in a state of confusion and a know-not-what-to-do situation when he found that mary, pledge to be married to him, had a son… he was afraid and confused all the same… but at this point, an angel of the Lord appeared to him telling him not to be afraid to take mary home to be his wife… though he was confused, he chose to obey what the Lord had said… with that, it also shows that he’d made a decision to surrender his half heart to the Lord, so that He cud make it whole again… [joseph was confused]
ii) mary with a WHOLE heart (luke 1:35-38)
when the angel of the Lord appeared to mary and told her that she was going to have a son, she answered, “I am the Lord’s servant. May it be to me as You have said.” She was obedient and submissive to the will of God [mary was willing]
iii) the inn keeper with an EMPTY heart (luke 2:1-7)
the time came when baby Jesus was to be born… but when they came to a village inn, the inn keeper rejected them saying he had no room for them… not knowing that it was the King who was to be born, he turned them away thinking that they weren’t any important people… and probably juz didn’t wanna lose a business to some ordinary-looking couple… but little did he know that he was missing out on the honor of having a King born in his inn [the inn keeper was reluctant]
in closing, ps foo threw us a challenge… to begin making room for Jesus, if we have not been doing so… he challenged us to begin to clear off any areas of our lives that are beginning to take the place of Jesus Himself!!
SO YOU WOULD COME
Before the world began, you were on His mind
And every tear you cry, is precious in His eyes
Because of His great love, He gave His only Son
Everything was done so you would come
** Come to the Father, though your gift is small
Broken hearts, broken lives
He will take them all
The power of the Word, the power of His Blood
Everything was done so you would come
Nothing you can do, could make Him love you more
And nothing that you’ve done would make Him close the door
Because of His great love, He gave His only Son
Everything was done so you would come
AFTERNOON
The visitation was fun!! An eye opener for me in many ways, I wud say… the taman megah handicapped & disabled children’s home was truly a place that brought back memories from my childhood… my heart melted with compassion when I look at them… they are all so different becoz of each of their own disabilities, but yet You have called each one of them by name, and they are indeed so precious in Your eyes… You love them all the same and were never different from anyone else…
Singing carols, playing games… Juz spending time with them… there were still some who couldn’t join us at the compound, but juz stayed indoors… so I decided to be with those who were unable to come out… entering the hall, I spotted this sweet-looking girl sitting all alone by herself on the stairs… as I was heading her way, I had to also be very careful not to run over a couple of them who were lying helplessly on the floor… soon, I realized that the girl was blind, so I reached out to touch her hand, but she begin to tense up, afraid I guess… but then with the help of her maid who explained that I was a “kakak” wanting to make friend with her, she begin to relax… taking my hand, she felt me all over… so as to make her more at ease with me, I started talking to her and having small chats with her… although I cudnt figure out what she was trying to say, at least she was talking… next thing I knew, she started singing… in tamil or hindi, I don’t know, but, wow, imagine that? She’s a Chinese, mind you… talented lil girl!! Lord, I juz pray that You be with her and comfort her, especially right now that she juz found out about the passing of one of her loved ones…
Some random ones abt the home...
EVENING
We did some caroling at three destinations… Practice makes perfect, so I guess by the time they sang for the last house, it was well done already, hehe… Juz a couple of pics taken during the caroling (with the kiddos, hehe)… hey, thumbs up to them!!
Friday, December 16, 2005
FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT, ENCOURAGEMENTS TO THE SOUL...
Wow, really felt so refreshed after reading a mail sent by evie (one of the members of the new grp)… ooh, I cud relate SO well to it it’s like as if God is speaking to me too, hehe =D this mail was actually forwarded to all her members in a form of encouragement to them, and she cc-ed it to me as well… I was truly blessed!! Thanx evie *winkz*
Shared 3 verses, which in her understanding, she went on to explain them further…
i) pro 3:5
Trust in the LORD and lean not on your own understanding;
ii) zech 4:6
“Not by might nor by power, but by My Spirit,” says the Lord Almighty.
iii) matt 5:46 - 48
If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.
Looking back at it all of these three verses, how much more significant cud they be in MY own life? Lord, thank You!!
PRO 3:5... While evie shared about how God works in touching her friend so that she responded and hungered for more of the Lord through their Sunday message, I felt that He was bringing back pictures of my own life (gosh, even in the midst of my work?? Haha) so I cud do some pondering as well… Yes, indeed it has taught me that in wateva I desire and yearn for, it’s best that I surrender everything and begin to trust in Him not a little bit, neither abit more, but FULLY for truly He, and only He alone, knows best!! At one point, I was so anxious in wanting a certain something that, yes I prayed, but I wasn’t praying the way I should have been praying… I was telling Him that such and such is what I want, pls grant it to me now that I’ve voiced it out in prayer!! But somehow this verse jumped out at me today, and finally I see the significance of it… in this particular area, of course… Lean not on my own, hmm…
ZECH 4:6... Evie said she learnt that she cud not lead them to Christ in her own timing, but it is God’s timing (that will bring forth the fruit, whatever the case)… She added that the Holy Spirit is the One that will do the work (in this case bringing her frens to Christ)… All we need to do is to juz pray… Simple, right?? *winkz* But earnestly and fervently, that is, of course!! Well said, evie *high five* No matter how much effort we put in, it’s all worthless and pointless if the hand of God is not upon it… Also, like proverbs 19:21 says, “Many are the plans in a man’s hearts, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.” Like I said earlier, at one point I was so anxious for it, but then realizing the fact that only God can work miracles, now, at THIS point, I have totally surrendered and told the Lord that, despite those desires STILL burning in me, I will CHOOSE to obey His will, even if it means giving that desire back to Him… Lord, help me as I live each day according to Your will!!
MATT 5:46 - 48... Speaks of the coming trip to the homes we’ll be visiting this Sunday (excitement boiling within me, hehe)… It says, “If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.” I like how the New Living Translation puts it: “If you love only those who love you, what good is that? Even corrupt tax collectors do that much. If you are kind only to your frens, how are you different from anyone else? Even pagans do that. But you are to be perfect even as your Father in heaven is perfect.” Love is not supposed to be showered only for the lovable but also the unlovely, the unwanted, the neglected… THAT was what Jesus came to do anyway, right? He came to seek and save the lost!! Since I’ve had some experience on dealing with OKU children a few years back, I know what it means to “handle” them with care… socially and emotionally… Lord, thank You for that experience (a preparation ground, I wud say) You gave me, having had the opportunity to be able to work closely with them, and understand them deeper… They might be different, very different if I may say so, on the outside… But deep down, nothing makes them more different than anyone of us becoz Jesus still loves them all the same!! Amen? And I believe He has a divine purpose for each and every one of them because their lives will one day reflect the glory of the Father Himself!!
Praying towards Sunday, asking for your Holy Spirit to go with us, and be our Guide!! May it all work out according to Your plans, so that Your name be glorified, amen!!
Shared 3 verses, which in her understanding, she went on to explain them further…
i) pro 3:5
Trust in the LORD and lean not on your own understanding;
ii) zech 4:6
“Not by might nor by power, but by My Spirit,” says the Lord Almighty.
iii) matt 5:46 - 48
If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.
Looking back at it all of these three verses, how much more significant cud they be in MY own life? Lord, thank You!!
PRO 3:5... While evie shared about how God works in touching her friend so that she responded and hungered for more of the Lord through their Sunday message, I felt that He was bringing back pictures of my own life (gosh, even in the midst of my work?? Haha) so I cud do some pondering as well… Yes, indeed it has taught me that in wateva I desire and yearn for, it’s best that I surrender everything and begin to trust in Him not a little bit, neither abit more, but FULLY for truly He, and only He alone, knows best!! At one point, I was so anxious in wanting a certain something that, yes I prayed, but I wasn’t praying the way I should have been praying… I was telling Him that such and such is what I want, pls grant it to me now that I’ve voiced it out in prayer!! But somehow this verse jumped out at me today, and finally I see the significance of it… in this particular area, of course… Lean not on my own, hmm…
ZECH 4:6... Evie said she learnt that she cud not lead them to Christ in her own timing, but it is God’s timing (that will bring forth the fruit, whatever the case)… She added that the Holy Spirit is the One that will do the work (in this case bringing her frens to Christ)… All we need to do is to juz pray… Simple, right?? *winkz* But earnestly and fervently, that is, of course!! Well said, evie *high five* No matter how much effort we put in, it’s all worthless and pointless if the hand of God is not upon it… Also, like proverbs 19:21 says, “Many are the plans in a man’s hearts, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.” Like I said earlier, at one point I was so anxious for it, but then realizing the fact that only God can work miracles, now, at THIS point, I have totally surrendered and told the Lord that, despite those desires STILL burning in me, I will CHOOSE to obey His will, even if it means giving that desire back to Him… Lord, help me as I live each day according to Your will!!
MATT 5:46 - 48... Speaks of the coming trip to the homes we’ll be visiting this Sunday (excitement boiling within me, hehe)… It says, “If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.” I like how the New Living Translation puts it: “If you love only those who love you, what good is that? Even corrupt tax collectors do that much. If you are kind only to your frens, how are you different from anyone else? Even pagans do that. But you are to be perfect even as your Father in heaven is perfect.” Love is not supposed to be showered only for the lovable but also the unlovely, the unwanted, the neglected… THAT was what Jesus came to do anyway, right? He came to seek and save the lost!! Since I’ve had some experience on dealing with OKU children a few years back, I know what it means to “handle” them with care… socially and emotionally… Lord, thank You for that experience (a preparation ground, I wud say) You gave me, having had the opportunity to be able to work closely with them, and understand them deeper… They might be different, very different if I may say so, on the outside… But deep down, nothing makes them more different than anyone of us becoz Jesus still loves them all the same!! Amen? And I believe He has a divine purpose for each and every one of them because their lives will one day reflect the glory of the Father Himself!!
Praying towards Sunday, asking for your Holy Spirit to go with us, and be our Guide!! May it all work out according to Your plans, so that Your name be glorified, amen!!
Thursday, December 15, 2005
LETTER FROM JESUS...
As you well know, we are getting closer to my birthday. Every year there is a celebration in my honor and I think that this year the celebration will be repeated.
During this time there are many people shopping for gifts, many radio announcements, TV commercials and in every part of the world everyone is talking that my birthday is getting closer and closer.
It is really very nice to know, that at least once a year, some people think of me. As you know, the celebration of my birthday began many years ago. At first people seemed to understand and be thankful of all that I did for them, but in these times, no one seems to know the reason for the celebration.
Family and friends get together and have a lot of fun, but they don't know the true meaning of the celebration. I remember that last year there was a great feast in my honor. The dinner table was full of delicious food, pastries, fruits, assorted nuts and chocolates. The decorations were exquisite and there were many, many beautifully wrapped gifts.
But do you want to know something? I wasn't invited. I was the guest of honor and yet they didn't remember to send me an invitation. The party was for me, but when that great day came, I was left outside, they closed the door on me!! All I wanted was to be with them and share their table.
In truth, that didn't surprise me because in the last few years all closed their doors on me. Since I wasn't invited, I decided to enter the party without making any noise. I went in and stood in a corner. They were all drinking; there were some who were drunk and telling jokes and laughing at everything. They were having a grand time.To top it all, this big fat man all dressed in red wearing a long white beard entered the room yelling Ho-Ho-Ho! He seemed drunk. He sat on the sofa and all the children ran to him, saying: "Santa Claus, Santa Claus" as if the party were in his honor!
At midnight all the people began to hug each other; I extended my arms waiting for someone to hug me and do you know, no one hugged me. Suddenly they all began to share gifts. They opened them one by one with great expectation. When all had been opened, I looked to see if, maybe, there was one for me. What would you feel if on your birthday everybody shared gifts and you did not get one? I then understood that I was unwanted at that party and quietly left.
Every year it gets worse. People only remember the gifts, the parties, to eat and drink and nobody remembers me. I would like this Christmas that you allow me to enter into your life. I would like that you recognize the fact that almost two thousand years ago I came to this world to give my life for you, on the cross, to save you.
Today, I only want that you believe this with all your heart. I want to share something with you. As many didn't invite me to their party, I will have my own celebration, a grandiose party that no one has ever imagined, a spectacular party. I'm still making the final arrangements.
Today I am sending out many invitations and there is an invitation for you. I want to know if you wish to attend and I will make a reservation for you and write your name with golden letters in my great guest book. Only those on the guest list will be invited to the party. Those who don't answer the invite, will be left outside. Be prepared because when all is ready you will be part of my great party.
See you soon, I love you!
Jesus
*~"Yesterday is but a vision, and tomorrow is only a dream. But today well lived makes every yesterday a dream of happiness, and every tomorrow a dream of hope"~*
During this time there are many people shopping for gifts, many radio announcements, TV commercials and in every part of the world everyone is talking that my birthday is getting closer and closer.
It is really very nice to know, that at least once a year, some people think of me. As you know, the celebration of my birthday began many years ago. At first people seemed to understand and be thankful of all that I did for them, but in these times, no one seems to know the reason for the celebration.
Family and friends get together and have a lot of fun, but they don't know the true meaning of the celebration. I remember that last year there was a great feast in my honor. The dinner table was full of delicious food, pastries, fruits, assorted nuts and chocolates. The decorations were exquisite and there were many, many beautifully wrapped gifts.
But do you want to know something? I wasn't invited. I was the guest of honor and yet they didn't remember to send me an invitation. The party was for me, but when that great day came, I was left outside, they closed the door on me!! All I wanted was to be with them and share their table.
In truth, that didn't surprise me because in the last few years all closed their doors on me. Since I wasn't invited, I decided to enter the party without making any noise. I went in and stood in a corner. They were all drinking; there were some who were drunk and telling jokes and laughing at everything. They were having a grand time.To top it all, this big fat man all dressed in red wearing a long white beard entered the room yelling Ho-Ho-Ho! He seemed drunk. He sat on the sofa and all the children ran to him, saying: "Santa Claus, Santa Claus" as if the party were in his honor!
At midnight all the people began to hug each other; I extended my arms waiting for someone to hug me and do you know, no one hugged me. Suddenly they all began to share gifts. They opened them one by one with great expectation. When all had been opened, I looked to see if, maybe, there was one for me. What would you feel if on your birthday everybody shared gifts and you did not get one? I then understood that I was unwanted at that party and quietly left.
Every year it gets worse. People only remember the gifts, the parties, to eat and drink and nobody remembers me. I would like this Christmas that you allow me to enter into your life. I would like that you recognize the fact that almost two thousand years ago I came to this world to give my life for you, on the cross, to save you.
Today, I only want that you believe this with all your heart. I want to share something with you. As many didn't invite me to their party, I will have my own celebration, a grandiose party that no one has ever imagined, a spectacular party. I'm still making the final arrangements.
Today I am sending out many invitations and there is an invitation for you. I want to know if you wish to attend and I will make a reservation for you and write your name with golden letters in my great guest book. Only those on the guest list will be invited to the party. Those who don't answer the invite, will be left outside. Be prepared because when all is ready you will be part of my great party.
See you soon, I love you!
Jesus
*~"Yesterday is but a vision, and tomorrow is only a dream. But today well lived makes every yesterday a dream of happiness, and every tomorrow a dream of hope"~*
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
RANDOMLY PICKED!!
Which Pirates of the Caribbean character are you?
| Your Hair Should Be White |
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| You Are a Good Student of Men |
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| Your Reputation Is: Sweet Girl |
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| You are White Chocolate |
 Whether your girlish ways are an act or not, men like to take care of you. You are an understated beauty, and your power is often underestimated! |
| You Are a Down to Earth Doll |
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| Men See You As Choosy |
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p/s: thanx to sarah (and becoz my curiosity got the best of me, eheh) i have my own version of this lil test... hmm, shall i say the results/feedback are quite true abt me? hehe =D err, no... correction: it's so very true, really!! hehe...
Saturday, December 03, 2005
A NEW ENVIRONMENT...
i was all hyped up, looking forward to this day (that'd be yesterday by now)... not juz for the sake of hangin' out, but the fact that we'd be practising our yet-to-be-perfected carols, eheh =p oh how i juz love carols... woohoo!! in fact this was juz my second visit there and i find myself actually lovin' it already *winkz* hmmm... now wat happend was that calvin brought me to visit his fren's cell, one that consist of young adults and since they juz multiplied, plus now being the cmas season, the meeting was sweet and simple... with carolling practice as their main agenda now, everyone is seen putting an effort in trying their very best to synchronise to the tune and tempo...
having sung it countless times now ever since i was a kid, i thought that it was something i wouldnt need to worry about... well, let's juz say i thought wrong, eheh... with nichole and evie as the so called conductor guiding us with how to sing the songs, we'd have to be VERY sure of where to come in (guys and girls each have our own parts - meaning the added echos and effects), which stanza to switch to a higher key note and wateva else... hmm, interesting, eheh... ooh, and in addition to that, the guitarist really did a great job in helping us with hitting the right note and stuff... great job alvin!! all in all, i was enjoying myself with my new found friends *winkz* (not that i've forgotten the old ones la, of course) and i do hope that all will turn out well on the actual day... in front of all the children sumore, hehe...
sharing time... topic was THE THINGS THAT INTIMIDATE US & HOW WE DEALT WITH IT referring to a portion of the scripture, of course... to be honest, i never knew it before, and i thank God for revealing it to me now... it has somehow got to do with my ministry, and when i shared my portion of thoughts and wat i had in mind yesterday, it juz occured to me that all those were the past and i no longer felt that way anymore... knowing for sure that it was indeed He who helped me in the process of overcoming that which i felt years back, when i first came to grace assembly... grace pj, indeed a place where i have grown spiritually, mentally and emotionally... ooh, not forgetting, a place where i FOUND MY MINISTRY and REALISED MY POTENTIALS!!
with wat i've shared, it prompted them to throw some questions at me (abt my ministry - where i'm involved, wat i do... i guess they juz wanna know me better, hehe), plus comments and suggestions were such that i should try the prayer & intercession ministry and stuff like that... wow!! they barely know me and yet such comments were made? i mean, that's cool =D and somehow it led me thinking back to the sel #7 leaders' retreat in mid nov recently where auntie ooi (and a lil bit from ps frankie) prayed and ministered to me, saying that i'll be a woman of prayer, being used in the area of encouragement & counselling (these were two words that came from auntie ooi)!! gosh, BIG word lar!! Lord, wat are You trying to tell me? is it a coincidence that the words PRAYER and INTERCESSION are used twice?? or could it juz be that people see these two words, bcoz somehow my mom is the one involved in it and somehow we got linked somewhere? hmm... time to start seeking the ever-knowing God, altho i still feel strongly that areas with kids & young children are where i do better in *smilez widely*
having sung it countless times now ever since i was a kid, i thought that it was something i wouldnt need to worry about... well, let's juz say i thought wrong, eheh... with nichole and evie as the so called conductor guiding us with how to sing the songs, we'd have to be VERY sure of where to come in (guys and girls each have our own parts - meaning the added echos and effects), which stanza to switch to a higher key note and wateva else... hmm, interesting, eheh... ooh, and in addition to that, the guitarist really did a great job in helping us with hitting the right note and stuff... great job alvin!! all in all, i was enjoying myself with my new found friends *winkz* (not that i've forgotten the old ones la, of course) and i do hope that all will turn out well on the actual day... in front of all the children sumore, hehe...
sharing time... topic was THE THINGS THAT INTIMIDATE US & HOW WE DEALT WITH IT referring to a portion of the scripture, of course... to be honest, i never knew it before, and i thank God for revealing it to me now... it has somehow got to do with my ministry, and when i shared my portion of thoughts and wat i had in mind yesterday, it juz occured to me that all those were the past and i no longer felt that way anymore... knowing for sure that it was indeed He who helped me in the process of overcoming that which i felt years back, when i first came to grace assembly... grace pj, indeed a place where i have grown spiritually, mentally and emotionally... ooh, not forgetting, a place where i FOUND MY MINISTRY and REALISED MY POTENTIALS!!
with wat i've shared, it prompted them to throw some questions at me (abt my ministry - where i'm involved, wat i do... i guess they juz wanna know me better, hehe), plus comments and suggestions were such that i should try the prayer & intercession ministry and stuff like that... wow!! they barely know me and yet such comments were made? i mean, that's cool =D and somehow it led me thinking back to the sel #7 leaders' retreat in mid nov recently where auntie ooi (and a lil bit from ps frankie) prayed and ministered to me, saying that i'll be a woman of prayer, being used in the area of encouragement & counselling (these were two words that came from auntie ooi)!! gosh, BIG word lar!! Lord, wat are You trying to tell me? is it a coincidence that the words PRAYER and INTERCESSION are used twice?? or could it juz be that people see these two words, bcoz somehow my mom is the one involved in it and somehow we got linked somewhere? hmm... time to start seeking the ever-knowing God, altho i still feel strongly that areas with kids & young children are where i do better in *smilez widely*
A FRIEND WILL ALWAYS BE A FRIEND NO MATTER WHAT!!
A friend is still a friend regardless of the closeness or distance between us...
A friend of mine, charles passed away tuesday morning... it was really a shocker!! i mean, it's not that we were close friends... to be very honest, i dont think we're anywhere near "close"... but it was juz his bubbly and friendly personality that i took notice of... that friendly "hey, wat's up, man? how've u been?" it is those little gestures that i will treasure and remember... someone whom i knew since he was in the children's church back then... calls himself 'coconut', and i wonder why... haha... well, i think that nickname will not only be juz another ordinary verb, but a word that carries memories and smiles with it...
Lord, in all things, You are there... we will never know the reason behind all these... only You know what's best!! i guess it's juz another way of teaching and helping us mature and learn to appreciate things... people - friends, loved ones, even the not-so-lovable... and not forgetting, to also love and appreciate our very own lives...
To my dear friend (coconut!! haha) who has gone ahead to be with the Lord, thank you for everything!! You will always be dearly remembered...
A friend of mine, charles passed away tuesday morning... it was really a shocker!! i mean, it's not that we were close friends... to be very honest, i dont think we're anywhere near "close"... but it was juz his bubbly and friendly personality that i took notice of... that friendly "hey, wat's up, man? how've u been?" it is those little gestures that i will treasure and remember... someone whom i knew since he was in the children's church back then... calls himself 'coconut', and i wonder why... haha... well, i think that nickname will not only be juz another ordinary verb, but a word that carries memories and smiles with it...
Lord, in all things, You are there... we will never know the reason behind all these... only You know what's best!! i guess it's juz another way of teaching and helping us mature and learn to appreciate things... people - friends, loved ones, even the not-so-lovable... and not forgetting, to also love and appreciate our very own lives...
To my dear friend (coconut!! haha) who has gone ahead to be with the Lord, thank you for everything!! You will always be dearly remembered...
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
A FRIEND...
One day, when i was a freshman in high school, i saw a kid from my class was walking home from school. His name was kyle. It looked like he was carrying all of his books. I thought to myself, "why would anyone bring home all his books on a friday? He must really be a nerd."
I had quite a weekend planned (parties and a football game with my friends tomorrow afternoon), so i shrugged my shoulders and went on. As i was walking, i saw a bunch of kids running towards him. They ran at him, knocking all of his books out of his arms and tripping him so he landed in the dirt. His glasses went flying and i saw them land in the grass about 10 feet from him. He looked up and i saw this terrible sadness in his eyes. My heart went out to him. So i jogged over to him and as he crawled around looking for his glasses, i saw a tear in his eyes.
As i handed him his glasses, i said, "Those guys are jerks. They really should get lives." He looked at me and said, "Hey, thanks!" There was a big smile on his face. It was one of those smiles that showed gratitude. I helped him pick up his books, and asked him where he lived. As it turned out, he lived near me, so i asked him why i had never seen him before. He said he had gone to private school before now. I would never have hung out with a private school kid before. We talked all the way as i helped him carry some of his books. He turned out to be a pretty cool kid.
I asked him if he wanted to play a little football with my friends. He said yes. We hung out all weekend and the more i got to know kyle, the more i liked him, and my friends thought the same of him.
Monday morning came and there was kyle, with the huge stack of books again. I stopped him and said, "Boy, you are really gonna build som serious muscles with this pile of books everyday!" he just laughed and handed me some of the books. Over the next four years, kyle and i became best friends. When we were seniors, we began to think abt college. Kyle was going to georgetown and i was goin to duke. I knew that we would always be friends, that the miles would never be a problem. He was going to be a doctor, and i was going for business on a football scholarship.
Kyle was valedictorian of our class. I teased him all the time about being a nerd. He had to prepare a speech for graduation. I was so glad it wasnt me having to go up there and speak. Graduation day, i saw kyle. He lookde great. He was one of those guys that reallt found himself during high school. He filled out and actually looked good in glasses. He had more dates than i had and all the girls loved him. Boy, sometimes i was jealous.
Today was one of those days. I could see that he was nervous about his speech. So, i smacked him on the back and said, "Hey big guy, you'll be great!!" He looked at me with one of those looks (the really grateful one) and smiled. "Thanks," he said. As he started his speech, he cleared his throat and began, "Graduation is a time to thank those who helped you make it through those tough years. Your parents, your teachers, your siblings, maybe a coach... But mostly your friends... I am here to tell all of you that being a friend to someone is the best gift you can give them. I am going to tell you a story."
I just looked at my friend in disbelief as he told the story of the first day we met. He had planned to kill himself over the weekend. He talked of how he had cleaned out his locker so his mom wouldnt have to do it later and was carrying his stuff home. He looked hard at me and gave me a little smile. "Thankfully, i was saved. My friend saved me from doing the unspeakable." I heard the gasp go through the crowd as this handsome popular boy told us about his weakest moment. I saw his mom and dad looking at me and smiling that same grateful smile.
Not until that moment did i realise the depths of it. Never underestimate the power of ur actions. With one small gesture, you can change a person's life. For better or for worse. There is no beginning or end. Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is mystery. Today is a gift. Live it to the fullest.
I had quite a weekend planned (parties and a football game with my friends tomorrow afternoon), so i shrugged my shoulders and went on. As i was walking, i saw a bunch of kids running towards him. They ran at him, knocking all of his books out of his arms and tripping him so he landed in the dirt. His glasses went flying and i saw them land in the grass about 10 feet from him. He looked up and i saw this terrible sadness in his eyes. My heart went out to him. So i jogged over to him and as he crawled around looking for his glasses, i saw a tear in his eyes.
As i handed him his glasses, i said, "Those guys are jerks. They really should get lives." He looked at me and said, "Hey, thanks!" There was a big smile on his face. It was one of those smiles that showed gratitude. I helped him pick up his books, and asked him where he lived. As it turned out, he lived near me, so i asked him why i had never seen him before. He said he had gone to private school before now. I would never have hung out with a private school kid before. We talked all the way as i helped him carry some of his books. He turned out to be a pretty cool kid.
I asked him if he wanted to play a little football with my friends. He said yes. We hung out all weekend and the more i got to know kyle, the more i liked him, and my friends thought the same of him.
Monday morning came and there was kyle, with the huge stack of books again. I stopped him and said, "Boy, you are really gonna build som serious muscles with this pile of books everyday!" he just laughed and handed me some of the books. Over the next four years, kyle and i became best friends. When we were seniors, we began to think abt college. Kyle was going to georgetown and i was goin to duke. I knew that we would always be friends, that the miles would never be a problem. He was going to be a doctor, and i was going for business on a football scholarship.
Kyle was valedictorian of our class. I teased him all the time about being a nerd. He had to prepare a speech for graduation. I was so glad it wasnt me having to go up there and speak. Graduation day, i saw kyle. He lookde great. He was one of those guys that reallt found himself during high school. He filled out and actually looked good in glasses. He had more dates than i had and all the girls loved him. Boy, sometimes i was jealous.
Today was one of those days. I could see that he was nervous about his speech. So, i smacked him on the back and said, "Hey big guy, you'll be great!!" He looked at me with one of those looks (the really grateful one) and smiled. "Thanks," he said. As he started his speech, he cleared his throat and began, "Graduation is a time to thank those who helped you make it through those tough years. Your parents, your teachers, your siblings, maybe a coach... But mostly your friends... I am here to tell all of you that being a friend to someone is the best gift you can give them. I am going to tell you a story."
I just looked at my friend in disbelief as he told the story of the first day we met. He had planned to kill himself over the weekend. He talked of how he had cleaned out his locker so his mom wouldnt have to do it later and was carrying his stuff home. He looked hard at me and gave me a little smile. "Thankfully, i was saved. My friend saved me from doing the unspeakable." I heard the gasp go through the crowd as this handsome popular boy told us about his weakest moment. I saw his mom and dad looking at me and smiling that same grateful smile.
Not until that moment did i realise the depths of it. Never underestimate the power of ur actions. With one small gesture, you can change a person's life. For better or for worse. There is no beginning or end. Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is mystery. Today is a gift. Live it to the fullest.
Saturday, November 26, 2005
JUZ ANOTHER INSPIRING STORY...
TITLE: THE MISSING RIB
A girl in love asked her boyfriend:
"Tell me, to whom do you love most in this world?"
"You, of course," he replied.
"In your heart, what do you see me as?" she continued to ask.
The boy thought for a moment, looking intently into her eyes, and said, "You are my rib. In the Bible, it was said that God saw that adam was lonely, so He decided to create Eve out of Adam's ribs. He put Adam to sleep and begin working on His new mission. Every man has been searching for his missing rib. Wen you find the woman of your life, only then will you no longer feel the lingering ache in your heart."
After their wedding, the couple had a sweet and happy life for a while. However, the youthful couple beganto drift apart due to the busy schedule of life ahd the never-ending worries of daily problems. Their life became mundane. All the challenges posed by the harsh realities of life began to gnaw away their dreams and love for each other. The couple began to have more quarrels and each quarrel became more heated.
One day, after the quarrel, the girl ran out of the house. At the opposite side of the road, she shouted, "You dont love me!" The boy hated her childishness, and out of impulse, he retorted, "Maybe it was a mistake for us to be together! You were never my missing rib!" Suddenly, she turned quiet and stood there for a while. He regretted what he said but words spoken are like thrown-away water, you can never take it back. With tears, she went home to pack her things and was determined on breaking up.
Before she left the house, "If i'm really not your missing rib, please let me go." In between sobs,
she continued, "It is less painful this way. Let us go on our seperate ways and search for our own partners."
Five years went by...
He never re-married, but he had tried to find out about her life indirectly. She had left the country and came back again. She had married a foreigner and divorced. He felt anguished that she never waited for him. In the dark and lonely night, he lit his cigarette and felt the lingering ache in his heart. He couldnt bring himself to admit that he was missing her. One day, they finally met at the airport, a place where there were many reunions and good byes. He was going away on a business trip.
She was standing there alone, with only the security door seperating them. She smiled at him gently.
"How are you?" the boy began.
"I'm fine. How about you? Have you found your missing rib?"
"No," he replied plainly.
"I'll be flying to New York in the next flight."
"I'll be back in two weeks time. Give me a call when you are back... You know my number. Nothing has changed." With a smile, she turned around and waved good-bye.
Good bye...
One week later, news of her death reached him. She had died in New York. In the event that shocked the world. Midnight, once again, he lit his cigarrete, and like before, he felt the lingering ache in his heart. He finally knew she WAS the missing rib that he had carelessly broken.
Sometimes, we, humans, say things out of moments of fury. Most often than not the outcome could be disastrous and detrimental. We vent our frustrations at our loved ones 99 percent of the time, but it is often easier said than done despite knowing that we ought to "think twice and act wisely". Things happen each day, many of which are beyond our control. Let us treasure every moment and everyone in our lives.
Tomorrow may never come. Give and accept what you have today. The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman must be seen in her EYES, becoz that is the doorway to her HEART - the place where LOVE resides!!
Another touching story from a friend... May all you people be blessed by it... I WAS!!
A girl in love asked her boyfriend:
"Tell me, to whom do you love most in this world?"
"You, of course," he replied.
"In your heart, what do you see me as?" she continued to ask.
The boy thought for a moment, looking intently into her eyes, and said, "You are my rib. In the Bible, it was said that God saw that adam was lonely, so He decided to create Eve out of Adam's ribs. He put Adam to sleep and begin working on His new mission. Every man has been searching for his missing rib. Wen you find the woman of your life, only then will you no longer feel the lingering ache in your heart."
After their wedding, the couple had a sweet and happy life for a while. However, the youthful couple beganto drift apart due to the busy schedule of life ahd the never-ending worries of daily problems. Their life became mundane. All the challenges posed by the harsh realities of life began to gnaw away their dreams and love for each other. The couple began to have more quarrels and each quarrel became more heated.
One day, after the quarrel, the girl ran out of the house. At the opposite side of the road, she shouted, "You dont love me!" The boy hated her childishness, and out of impulse, he retorted, "Maybe it was a mistake for us to be together! You were never my missing rib!" Suddenly, she turned quiet and stood there for a while. He regretted what he said but words spoken are like thrown-away water, you can never take it back. With tears, she went home to pack her things and was determined on breaking up.
Before she left the house, "If i'm really not your missing rib, please let me go." In between sobs,
she continued, "It is less painful this way. Let us go on our seperate ways and search for our own partners."
Five years went by...
He never re-married, but he had tried to find out about her life indirectly. She had left the country and came back again. She had married a foreigner and divorced. He felt anguished that she never waited for him. In the dark and lonely night, he lit his cigarette and felt the lingering ache in his heart. He couldnt bring himself to admit that he was missing her. One day, they finally met at the airport, a place where there were many reunions and good byes. He was going away on a business trip.
She was standing there alone, with only the security door seperating them. She smiled at him gently.
"How are you?" the boy began.
"I'm fine. How about you? Have you found your missing rib?"
"No," he replied plainly.
"I'll be flying to New York in the next flight."
"I'll be back in two weeks time. Give me a call when you are back... You know my number. Nothing has changed." With a smile, she turned around and waved good-bye.
Good bye...
One week later, news of her death reached him. She had died in New York. In the event that shocked the world. Midnight, once again, he lit his cigarrete, and like before, he felt the lingering ache in his heart. He finally knew she WAS the missing rib that he had carelessly broken.
Sometimes, we, humans, say things out of moments of fury. Most often than not the outcome could be disastrous and detrimental. We vent our frustrations at our loved ones 99 percent of the time, but it is often easier said than done despite knowing that we ought to "think twice and act wisely". Things happen each day, many of which are beyond our control. Let us treasure every moment and everyone in our lives.
Tomorrow may never come. Give and accept what you have today. The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman must be seen in her EYES, becoz that is the doorway to her HEART - the place where LOVE resides!!
Friday, November 25, 2005
STIR IT UP, LORD!!
RELEASE THE OLD, PROCLAIM THE NEW, POSSESS THE FUTURE!! yes, this is our church theme for 2005, having heard much of it, be it over the pulpit, in cell, or even personal conviction, now that the year is coming to an end, is it still in the process of sinking in? or has it sunk DEEP enuff into my spirit to take root, make an impact and bring forth a difference? has the puzzle pieces fitted nicely to form a better picture yet? true, it has conveniently been on our lips, proudly proclaiming it and telling others wat the visions of our senior pastor are, but are we applying it not only in the body of Christ but in our own lives as well? in all the different areas of our lives? is it juz merely lip service or does it mean anything enough for us to be DOING something about it?
exactly 10 years have passed since i made this transition of maturity in Him (into this church), and i can honestly say that it has indeed taught me ALOT!! From community to ministry (ooh, how i love my ministry... or more so the children i'm handling *winkz*), from spiritual growth to serving... i only have my leaders to thank God for... those who have made an impact upon my life, really!! Even friendships, which have been formed and broken... Hard lessons learnt!! But its all for my own good!! Lord, thank You for Your faithfulness to me despite the fact that i have failed u many times... Thank You for seeing me thru good and bad times, high and low moments... i'm juz so excited about 2006!!
have You revealed Your plans for me? is there something You're trying to tell me? Lord, wateva new things You have in store for me, i'm willing to take hold of it because i wanna taste the fruit of my labor... i HAVE indeed seen the fruits of my labor... Being willing enuff to release ALL the old, and look ahead for greater things... here i am, Lord... i place my life in Your hands, use me for the glory of Your kingdom!! AMEN!! (hmm, now i really see the significance of the theme, eheh =p)
Beautiful Lord, Wonderful Saviour
I know for sure all of my days are
Held in Your hands
Crafted into Your perfect plans
You gently call me into Your presence
Guiding me by Your Holy Spirit
Teach me dear Lord
To live all of my life
Through Your eyes
I'm captured by Your holy calling
Set me apart
I know You're drawing me to Yourself
Lead me Lord, i pray
** Take me, mould me
Use me, fill me
I give my life to the Potter's Hands
Call me, You guide me
Lead me, walk beside me
I give my life to the Potter's Hands
exactly 10 years have passed since i made this transition of maturity in Him (into this church), and i can honestly say that it has indeed taught me ALOT!! From community to ministry (ooh, how i love my ministry... or more so the children i'm handling *winkz*), from spiritual growth to serving... i only have my leaders to thank God for... those who have made an impact upon my life, really!! Even friendships, which have been formed and broken... Hard lessons learnt!! But its all for my own good!! Lord, thank You for Your faithfulness to me despite the fact that i have failed u many times... Thank You for seeing me thru good and bad times, high and low moments... i'm juz so excited about 2006!!
have You revealed Your plans for me? is there something You're trying to tell me? Lord, wateva new things You have in store for me, i'm willing to take hold of it because i wanna taste the fruit of my labor... i HAVE indeed seen the fruits of my labor... Being willing enuff to release ALL the old, and look ahead for greater things... here i am, Lord... i place my life in Your hands, use me for the glory of Your kingdom!! AMEN!! (hmm, now i really see the significance of the theme, eheh =p)
Beautiful Lord, Wonderful Saviour
I know for sure all of my days are
Held in Your hands
Crafted into Your perfect plans
You gently call me into Your presence
Guiding me by Your Holy Spirit
Teach me dear Lord
To live all of my life
Through Your eyes
I'm captured by Your holy calling
Set me apart
I know You're drawing me to Yourself
Lead me Lord, i pray
** Take me, mould me
Use me, fill me
I give my life to the Potter's Hands
Call me, You guide me
Lead me, walk beside me
I give my life to the Potter's Hands
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
SHATTERED?? CRUSHED??
希望越大， 失望越大!! Translation: the higher ur hopes, the greater ur disappointment!! Is it really true? some may ask, "why wud u need to be disappointed if u have the amount of faith enuff to trust and believe in Him?" others may say, "do only the will of God!! Obedience is better than sacrifice!!" No one knows or understands the DEEP DESIRES of my heart except the Father Himself... but why does this HAVE to happen? and so You said, "Do not question, juz TRUST!!" A really big word here...
Lord, my wishes and dreams suffer a major crackline right now *sob sob* (tissue!! i need tissue!! err, no one sees this right? haha) which, if it's not handled with care, will shatter into pieces at this particular point of time... no one else but YOU and YOU alone can prevent it from giving way further!! You said in matthew 21:22 that if i believe, i will receive watever i ask for in prayer... You know how much i have been holding on to that promise for myself...
Thank You Father for sending frens at the right time... juz while i was writing this entry, a fren previously from cell, jason, buzzed me online without even greeting me first, said this: "the Lord will not want to see you sad... Just remeber that... He wants you to be Happy!!" (i had some nickname stated there, which prompted him to say these things) Afterwhich i had a very long chat with him on the fone... Connecting with each other juz like that, thank God at least someone could relate to de things i'm currently goin thru, not only in this particular area, but the issue of a friendly gathering as well... GOSH, HOW CUD U HAVE KNOWN ALL THESE, jason? all those things that u saw deep down in me, those unspoken hurts, u said and revealed the TRUTH!! is God juz trying to tell me something thru you, my friend? ENOURAGEMENTS after ENCOURAGEMENTS flooded in juz from the stuff we shared with each other... oh, how we juz clicked... gosh, hehe =D thanx again, Lord... u juz know the right timing!! praise You for that!!
out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks... and so, these words, like bullets, juz shoot out before i even realised it, and i was SHOCKED myself, that it actually came from me: "i dont understand Him, only He understands me!!" gosh, where did THAT come from? but yea, it's SOOO true!! we will never be able to understand HIM, and the things He has in mind... only HE understands US, and knows wat He's doin!! Thank U, Lord!!
people (no names mentioned, altho i'm really tempted to expose u) have sweet-talked me, given me hopes, and have even spoken promises right in my face... but the same person can also twist, distort and deny wat has been said, and afterwards break it again like nobody's business... well, all i can say is that this is, and will be, the last time i shall trust you, and i will never take that risk of depositing faith and trust in u anymore!! have been hearing LOTS abt you but i chose to juz listen and be cautious... little did i knw that the next prey who will get herself stuck in your web is none other than elaine teo!! thanx tho for opening my eyes to see and realise wat i ought to know about u...
now, whether or not i will receive wat i have been praying for, it doesnt matter anymore, really!! the tears have dried... so, it's all utterly up to You, Lord!! AMEN!!
Lord, my wishes and dreams suffer a major crackline right now *sob sob* (tissue!! i need tissue!! err, no one sees this right? haha) which, if it's not handled with care, will shatter into pieces at this particular point of time... no one else but YOU and YOU alone can prevent it from giving way further!! You said in matthew 21:22 that if i believe, i will receive watever i ask for in prayer... You know how much i have been holding on to that promise for myself...
Thank You Father for sending frens at the right time... juz while i was writing this entry, a fren previously from cell, jason, buzzed me online without even greeting me first, said this: "the Lord will not want to see you sad... Just remeber that... He wants you to be Happy!!" (i had some nickname stated there, which prompted him to say these things) Afterwhich i had a very long chat with him on the fone... Connecting with each other juz like that, thank God at least someone could relate to de things i'm currently goin thru, not only in this particular area, but the issue of a friendly gathering as well... GOSH, HOW CUD U HAVE KNOWN ALL THESE, jason? all those things that u saw deep down in me, those unspoken hurts, u said and revealed the TRUTH!! is God juz trying to tell me something thru you, my friend? ENOURAGEMENTS after ENCOURAGEMENTS flooded in juz from the stuff we shared with each other... oh, how we juz clicked... gosh, hehe =D thanx again, Lord... u juz know the right timing!! praise You for that!!
out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks... and so, these words, like bullets, juz shoot out before i even realised it, and i was SHOCKED myself, that it actually came from me: "i dont understand Him, only He understands me!!" gosh, where did THAT come from? but yea, it's SOOO true!! we will never be able to understand HIM, and the things He has in mind... only HE understands US, and knows wat He's doin!! Thank U, Lord!!
people (no names mentioned, altho i'm really tempted to expose u) have sweet-talked me, given me hopes, and have even spoken promises right in my face... but the same person can also twist, distort and deny wat has been said, and afterwards break it again like nobody's business... well, all i can say is that this is, and will be, the last time i shall trust you, and i will never take that risk of depositing faith and trust in u anymore!! have been hearing LOTS abt you but i chose to juz listen and be cautious... little did i knw that the next prey who will get herself stuck in your web is none other than elaine teo!! thanx tho for opening my eyes to see and realise wat i ought to know about u...
now, whether or not i will receive wat i have been praying for, it doesnt matter anymore, really!! the tears have dried... so, it's all utterly up to You, Lord!! AMEN!!
Monday, November 21, 2005
PREPARE THE WAY...
AS WE WORSHIP YOU
Verse 1:
As we worship You, let all the world come and see
How the mercy we receive from You can set them free
As we worship You, let all this joy that fills our hearts
Bring a hunger and a hope to those who staryed so far.
Chorus:
As we bow in adoration, and stand in reverent awe
Show Your majesty and glory, let Your anointing fall
As we declare Your name Lord Jesus as the only name who saves
May the pow'r of your salvation fill each heart we pray.
Verse 2:
As we worship You, let all the nation hear our song
Song of Jesus and His blood that proved His love for all
As we worship You, may all the lost and broken come
May they hear Your still small voice call out their names each one.
IT'S YOU
Chorus:
It's You, You who have won my heart
Taken me into Your arms
Comforted me like a friend
Your love surrounded me from the start
I never want to be apart
From You ever again.
Verse:
I want to sing, til i am lost in Your love
Til i am found in Your presence
Worshipping before Your throne
Filled with Your spirit, entering into Your flow
How precious this moment
Lord, i want You to know.
Sermon's Topic: Prepare the Way by ps james foo
* we MUST learn to be willing to SERVE, and begin to have A SERVANT'S HEART. (Lord, gimme that kind of heart... to serve those whom You have put in my life)
* jn 1:19-34 says that John KNEW his calling... and it is a result of his OBEDIENCE that many came to know the Lord. it is IMPORTANT that we find out wat He wants us to do in terms of ministry
1) PREPARE THE WAY for Him to move/work in us
as long as we are WILLING to be used, great miracles will happen... we must be willing to be CONSECRATED/SET APART by the glory of God before beginning to serve Him...
if we want something more powerful from God, GIVE UP all things that's not of Him!! MAKE THAT DIFF!! Begin to dress differently, speak differently, act differently!!
as long as we're still holding on to the past, the new cant come in... RELEASE THE OLD, PROCLAIM THE NEW, POSSES THE FUTURE!!
2) FAITHFULLY CARRY OUT THE TASK He has called us to do
no giving up... be faithful in the lil things first, the He will be able to release bigger and greater responsibilities to us...
3) WALKING IN HUMILITY before Him
giving ALL glory back to Him... never be prideful to take it all on ourselves... STAY FAITHFUL!! Dont try to be ahead... IN HIS TIME, He makes all things beautiful!! He will help us overtake and soon be at the top!!
In closing, as if like a confirmation, he ask that the musicians play the song "I Offer My Life"... All i cud do was enjoy His presence and juz let Him minister and work in me... Thank You, Lord!! AMEN!!
Verse 1:
As we worship You, let all the world come and see
How the mercy we receive from You can set them free
As we worship You, let all this joy that fills our hearts
Bring a hunger and a hope to those who staryed so far.
Chorus:
As we bow in adoration, and stand in reverent awe
Show Your majesty and glory, let Your anointing fall
As we declare Your name Lord Jesus as the only name who saves
May the pow'r of your salvation fill each heart we pray.
Verse 2:
As we worship You, let all the nation hear our song
Song of Jesus and His blood that proved His love for all
As we worship You, may all the lost and broken come
May they hear Your still small voice call out their names each one.
IT'S YOU
Chorus:
It's You, You who have won my heart
Taken me into Your arms
Comforted me like a friend
Your love surrounded me from the start
I never want to be apart
From You ever again.
Verse:
I want to sing, til i am lost in Your love
Til i am found in Your presence
Worshipping before Your throne
Filled with Your spirit, entering into Your flow
How precious this moment
Lord, i want You to know.
Sermon's Topic: Prepare the Way by ps james foo
* we MUST learn to be willing to SERVE, and begin to have A SERVANT'S HEART. (Lord, gimme that kind of heart... to serve those whom You have put in my life)
* jn 1:19-34 says that John KNEW his calling... and it is a result of his OBEDIENCE that many came to know the Lord. it is IMPORTANT that we find out wat He wants us to do in terms of ministry
1) PREPARE THE WAY for Him to move/work in us
as long as we are WILLING to be used, great miracles will happen... we must be willing to be CONSECRATED/SET APART by the glory of God before beginning to serve Him...
if we want something more powerful from God, GIVE UP all things that's not of Him!! MAKE THAT DIFF!! Begin to dress differently, speak differently, act differently!!
as long as we're still holding on to the past, the new cant come in... RELEASE THE OLD, PROCLAIM THE NEW, POSSES THE FUTURE!!
2) FAITHFULLY CARRY OUT THE TASK He has called us to do
no giving up... be faithful in the lil things first, the He will be able to release bigger and greater responsibilities to us...
3) WALKING IN HUMILITY before Him
giving ALL glory back to Him... never be prideful to take it all on ourselves... STAY FAITHFUL!! Dont try to be ahead... IN HIS TIME, He makes all things beautiful!! He will help us overtake and soon be at the top!!
In closing, as if like a confirmation, he ask that the musicians play the song "I Offer My Life"... All i cud do was enjoy His presence and juz let Him minister and work in me... Thank You, Lord!! AMEN!!
AT RANDOM...
Mimpi...
Ingin ku lukiskan nota-nota
Lagu ku mengikut rentak kita
Dengarkan suara
Mimpi ku bertemakan
Namamu senantiasa selalu
Sedalam tinggi
Seluas jauh
Begitulah cita-cita ku
Sekiranya kau ingin tahu
Selama ini
Hingga ke akhirnya
Suka-duka senyum selalu
Kita bersama punya satu..
Mimpi
Jika Kau Bercinta Lagi
Jika kau bercinta lagi
Cintalah sepenuhnya
Jika kau bercinta lagi
Jagalah kau hatinya
Engkau yang memilihnya
Tanpa memikirkan tentang diriku
Kini ku hanya dapat berdoa
Agar berbahagia kau di sampingnya
Jika kau bercinta lagi
Cintalah sepenuhnya
Jika kau bercinta lagi
Jagalah kau hatinya
Aku tak dapat menghalang
Engkau punya kemahuan sendiri
Biarku hidup hanya mengenang
Peristiwa yang tak dapat ku lupa
Kini aku hanya dapat berdoa
Agar berbahagia kau di sampingnya
Selamat tinggal
Aku mengundurkan diri
Nyanyian Daniel Lee (Malaysian Idol ke-2)
How true the lyrics are!! Esp the second song... Go Daniel!!
Ingin ku lukiskan nota-nota
Lagu ku mengikut rentak kita
Dengarkan suara
Mimpi ku bertemakan
Namamu senantiasa selalu
Sedalam tinggi
Seluas jauh
Begitulah cita-cita ku
Sekiranya kau ingin tahu
Selama ini
Hingga ke akhirnya
Suka-duka senyum selalu
Kita bersama punya satu..
Mimpi
Jika Kau Bercinta Lagi
Jika kau bercinta lagi
Cintalah sepenuhnya
Jika kau bercinta lagi
Jagalah kau hatinya
Engkau yang memilihnya
Tanpa memikirkan tentang diriku
Kini ku hanya dapat berdoa
Agar berbahagia kau di sampingnya
Jika kau bercinta lagi
Cintalah sepenuhnya
Jika kau bercinta lagi
Jagalah kau hatinya
Aku tak dapat menghalang
Engkau punya kemahuan sendiri
Biarku hidup hanya mengenang
Peristiwa yang tak dapat ku lupa
Kini aku hanya dapat berdoa
Agar berbahagia kau di sampingnya
Selamat tinggal
Aku mengundurkan diri
Nyanyian Daniel Lee (Malaysian Idol ke-2)
How true the lyrics are!! Esp the second song... Go Daniel!!
Friday, November 18, 2005
ANOTHER YEAR IN THE LORD!!
Another year has passed!! Looking back upon all these years of the wonderful blessings He has faithfully showered me with, it is indeed His mercy and grace that i would thank Him for!! As i ente into another year of spiritual maturity in Him, my prayer is that He wud continue to use me as a vessel to be a blessing to the people who will cross my path...
1) All that i am, all that i have
I lay them down before You, O Lord
All my regrets, all my acclaims
The joy and the pain
I'm making them Yours
CH: Lord, i offer my life to You
Everything i've been thru
Use it for Your glory
Lord, i offer my days to You
Lifting my praise to You
As a pleasing sacrifice
Lord, i offer You my life
2) Things in the past, things yet unseen
Visions and dreams that are yet to come true
All of my hopes, and all of my plans
My heart and my hands
Are lifted to You
Every part of this song has really ministered to me in it's very own way, and i thank You Lord for showing me the truth!! First, He asks me to surrender and lay all of myself before Him at the cross... the good and the bad, give it to Him!! the old has to go before the new can come in, amen? eheh... Lord, i offer my life to You, use it for Your glory, that Your name may be glorified!! things in the past, only You see and know all of it... and those unseen, no one wud be able to tell, except You alone... i surrender it all to You becoz i know You will carry it with me... everything that i have gone thru, experiences good or bad, i hand it over to You and i choose not to let it affect me, focusing only to look ahead... i may not knw wat is yet to come, wat You have in store for me, but i'm willing to obey You (only You and Your will), trusting You for the best!!
To my dearest family (mom, dad, est and ed), thanks for making this day a truly wonderful and memorable one =D honestly, i was kinda surprised by dad's prayer, if u know exactly which one i meant *winkz* dont worry, i do know what's right and what's wrong... and i DEFINITELY want His BEST for myself, amen? remember phil 4:8? RIGHT CHOICE + RIGHT TIME = GOD'S PERFECT WILL!!
Thanx for the gift, although it is really not the matter of gifts, but the thoughts that count, doesnt matter big or small... haha, i seriously didnt expect that... God sees and hears unspoken thoughts, amen? speaking of which, i received a lil something from auntie elly a.k.a. my godmother (haha!!) and family, which was also an unspoken thought, really!! very sweet of u =D honestly, i have been eyeing that book for a long time now... juz that i told myself i'd have to hold on, be patient and get it later...
well, i guess my patience is paid off, haha... thanx again to the Teng family... love u all!! esp to ray, thanx for being there for me, thanx for being such a great and wonderful friend, a great listener when i shared my heart out to u... u dont need to come out with solutions for me, but juz the fact that u availed yourself to LISTEN!! that's good enuff, dear... thanx again... appreciate it LOTS, really!!
all in all, thank God for such a wonderful day... Lord, i thank You for this life You have given to me... teach me to live it to the fullest for Your glory!! AMEN!!
I AM SORRY...
i would never know if these 3 words could ever make up for the mistakes i've done, esp the things i've said... i was juz speaking my heart, not knowing that it has somehow affected u (or did it?)... or probably i wasnt specific enuff in my explanation about wat i had to say...
when i read ur reply to the mail i sent, it sounded as if u were offended by the things i said... i cant be sure tho, unless i hear it from u... again, sorry if this is an assumption made...
if u happen to be reading this (u know who u are), lemme say this again... that i truly didnt mean to offend u in any way, really!! i'm SORRY!! but thanx for listening, tho... hope our frenship will not be affected by this incident...
take care, dear friend... god bless!!
when i read ur reply to the mail i sent, it sounded as if u were offended by the things i said... i cant be sure tho, unless i hear it from u... again, sorry if this is an assumption made...
if u happen to be reading this (u know who u are), lemme say this again... that i truly didnt mean to offend u in any way, really!! i'm SORRY!! but thanx for listening, tho... hope our frenship will not be affected by this incident...
take care, dear friend... god bless!!
Friday, November 11, 2005
JUZ A LIL STORY...
Got this (an email, actually) from a friend... find it really encouraging, so i tot it wud be good to post it up here, too *winkz* Read this story slowly. You will be richly rewarded.
Jenny was a bright-eyed, pretty five-year-old girl. One day when she and her mother were checking out at the grocery store, Jenny saw a plastic pearl necklace priced at $2.50. How she wanted that necklace and when she asked her mother if she would buy it for her, her mother said, "Well, it is a pretty necklace, but it costs an awful lot of money. I'll tell you what. I'll buy you the necklace, and when we get home we can make up a list of chores that you can do to pay for the necklace. And don't forget that for your birthday, Grandma just might give you a whole dollar bill, too. Okay?" Jenny agreed, and her mother bought the pearl necklace for her.
Jenny worked on her chores very hard everyday, and sure enough, her Grandma gave her a brand new dollar bill for her birthday. Soon Jenny had paid off the pearls. How Jenny loved those pearls. She wore them everywhere - to kindergarten, bed, and when she went out with her mother to run errands. The only time she didn't wear them was in the shower - her mother had told her that they would turn her neck green.
Now Jenny had a very loving daddy. When Jenny went to bed, he would get up from his favorite chair every night and read Jenny her favorite story. One night when he finished the story, he said, "Jenny, do you love me?" "Oh yes, Daddy, you know I love you," the little girl said. "Well, then, give me your pearls." "Oh daddy, please don’t take my pearls!" Jenny said!. "But you can have Rosie, my favorite doll. Remember her? You gave her to me last year for my birthday. And you can have her tea party outfit, too. Okay?" "Oh no, darling, that's okay." Her father brushed her cheek with a kiss. "Goodnight, little one." A week later, her father once again asked Jenny after her story, "Do you love me?" "Oh yes, Daddy, you know I love you." "Well, then, give me your pearls." "Oh, Daddy, not my pearls! But you can have Ribbons, my toy horse. Do you remember her? She's my favorite. Her hair is so soft, and you can play with it and braid it and everything. You can have Ribbons if you want her, Daddy," the little girl said to her father. "No, that's okay," her father said and brushed her cheek again with a kiss. "God bless you, little one. Sweet dreams."
Several days later, when Jenny's father came in to read her a story, Jenny was sitting on her bed and her lip was trembling. "Here, Daddy," she said, and held out her hand. She opened it and her beloved pearl necklace was inside. She let it slip into her father's hand. With one hand her father held the plastic pearls and with the other he pulled out of his pocket a blue velvet box. Inside of the box were real, genuine, beautiful pearls. He had them all along. He was waiting for Jenny to give up the cheap stuff so he could give her the real thing.
So it is with our Heavenly Father. He is waiting for us to give up the cheap things in our lives so that he can give us beautiful treasure. Isn't God good? Are you holding onto things God wants you to let go of? Are you holding onto harmful or unnecessary partners, relationships, habits and activities you have become so attached to that it seems impossible to let go? Sometimes it is so hard to see what is in the other hand but do believe this one thing................. God will never take away something without giving you something better in its place.
Yea, take note of that last sentence... How comforting & true is that? *winkz* Remember that the greatest gifts happen when you share love and touch other's hearts. God bless!!
Jenny was a bright-eyed, pretty five-year-old girl. One day when she and her mother were checking out at the grocery store, Jenny saw a plastic pearl necklace priced at $2.50. How she wanted that necklace and when she asked her mother if she would buy it for her, her mother said, "Well, it is a pretty necklace, but it costs an awful lot of money. I'll tell you what. I'll buy you the necklace, and when we get home we can make up a list of chores that you can do to pay for the necklace. And don't forget that for your birthday, Grandma just might give you a whole dollar bill, too. Okay?" Jenny agreed, and her mother bought the pearl necklace for her.
Jenny worked on her chores very hard everyday, and sure enough, her Grandma gave her a brand new dollar bill for her birthday. Soon Jenny had paid off the pearls. How Jenny loved those pearls. She wore them everywhere - to kindergarten, bed, and when she went out with her mother to run errands. The only time she didn't wear them was in the shower - her mother had told her that they would turn her neck green.
Now Jenny had a very loving daddy. When Jenny went to bed, he would get up from his favorite chair every night and read Jenny her favorite story. One night when he finished the story, he said, "Jenny, do you love me?" "Oh yes, Daddy, you know I love you," the little girl said. "Well, then, give me your pearls." "Oh daddy, please don’t take my pearls!" Jenny said!. "But you can have Rosie, my favorite doll. Remember her? You gave her to me last year for my birthday. And you can have her tea party outfit, too. Okay?" "Oh no, darling, that's okay." Her father brushed her cheek with a kiss. "Goodnight, little one." A week later, her father once again asked Jenny after her story, "Do you love me?" "Oh yes, Daddy, you know I love you." "Well, then, give me your pearls." "Oh, Daddy, not my pearls! But you can have Ribbons, my toy horse. Do you remember her? She's my favorite. Her hair is so soft, and you can play with it and braid it and everything. You can have Ribbons if you want her, Daddy," the little girl said to her father. "No, that's okay," her father said and brushed her cheek again with a kiss. "God bless you, little one. Sweet dreams."
Several days later, when Jenny's father came in to read her a story, Jenny was sitting on her bed and her lip was trembling. "Here, Daddy," she said, and held out her hand. She opened it and her beloved pearl necklace was inside. She let it slip into her father's hand. With one hand her father held the plastic pearls and with the other he pulled out of his pocket a blue velvet box. Inside of the box were real, genuine, beautiful pearls. He had them all along. He was waiting for Jenny to give up the cheap stuff so he could give her the real thing.
So it is with our Heavenly Father. He is waiting for us to give up the cheap things in our lives so that he can give us beautiful treasure. Isn't God good? Are you holding onto things God wants you to let go of? Are you holding onto harmful or unnecessary partners, relationships, habits and activities you have become so attached to that it seems impossible to let go? Sometimes it is so hard to see what is in the other hand but do believe this one thing................. God will never take away something without giving you something better in its place.
Yea, take note of that last sentence... How comforting & true is that? *winkz* Remember that the greatest gifts happen when you share love and touch other's hearts. God bless!!
CRAP!!
Finally, they came up with the solution after putting us on hold for almost a whole month!! All in all, their intention was to cut our pay, isn’t it? Gosh, it's irritating!! Yea, u might be saying, “at least it’s not RM 0.50 per record, right? U shud be thankful enuff…” Come on, it’s gonna be a big diff in our salary if we’re gonna earn that peanuts!! Not only that, they’re also making it hard for us by stating that the rule was that we’d have to achieve 50 complete records per day… we’d have to work doubly hard to make up to the previous RM 1.50, right? For example, previously, with RM 1.50 per record, we’d have to make 10 calls to earn RM 15.00, but now we’d have to get 15 calls thru to be able to get that same amount… Why must they make life difficult for us??
That night wai ling called me to talk abt this and we thought of speaking to them again the next day to see if anything can be done… but honestly speaking, we’re juz gonna waste our time becoz it’s not gonna make them change their minds abt this anyway!! Since the beginning itself it was their intention to give us that pay cut, so I don’t think that it’s gonna make them reconsider even if we’d appeal… juz by looking at his second last sentence there tells it all… Haihz…
No mood to work on, but still have to (paksa-paksa lar) while waiting for that Japan application form to be filled up and sent over, and thereafter for the interview *winkz* God sees ALL things… he KNOWS ALL things, AMEN!!
i’d still have to get my doctor to write me a medical report to be attached to that application, and meeting her up for hospital appointment next tues… all those reading this, pray for me, ya? =D
TAKE YOU AT YOUR WORD by avalon
Your Word is life...
Your Word is love...
Your Word is true...
1) Everybody's lookin' for somethin' to believe in
Lord, i find the faithful are few and far between
The more i read about You, the less i'm cause to doubt You
What You say Lord, You mean
And now i've seen
ch: i can take You at Your Word (but i know it, Lord You know i know it)
And my heart can rest assured (i knw it, Lord i do believe it)
Lord, i love u, Oh, i trust You
As i live i've learned to trust Him that
i can take You at Your word
2) Your name is written here on my life in love and kindness
Your Word is hidden here in my heart to guard my soul
I've heard the gospel of, Your redeeming love
What You say Lord, You do
I know it's true
Your Word is life
Your Word is love
Your Word is true
Say You, say Your Word to me
Lord, Your Word is a lamp to my feet
And Your Word is a light to my path
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
TOUCHED
It's been a long time since i felt the touch of God upon my life... dont get me wrong, not that i've been far away from God or spiritually dry, juz that i dont usually HEAR from him... He's been constantly working in my life, tho... yes, it is evident... AMEN!! *winkz* i juz admire how some people always say they hear God speaking to them bla bla... well, i guess He juz has different ways of communicating with us =p Somehow worship last sunday was wonderful, was truly touched by the worship, and thereafter the message shared... amazing love, how can this be? that u, my King wud die for me... i cannot thank u enuff for that Big sacrifice u made, letting ur one and only Son come down to earth to die in my place, bearing all my sin and shame... thank u for reinforcing the truth abt how much u value us (me, in this case) regardless of the many times that we (i) have failed u...
AMAZING LOVE
i'm 4given, becoz u were 4saken
i'm accepted, u were condemned
i'm alive and well, ur spirit lives within me
becoz u died and rose again
** Amazing love, how can this be
That You, my King, wud die for me?
Amazing love, I know it's true
It's my joy to honor You
In all I do, i honor You
You are my King
Jesus, You are my King
You are my King
Jesus, You are my King
voicing ALL my hearts desires to him that day during worship, i trust that he'll take care of ALL those needs and request... he knws that i want this particular thing very badly and i BELIEVE he'll attend to that soon and quick!!
i do not wanna rush into things, but there's something which has been in my heart and mind for quite a while, which i have been praying abt, so i hope that IN HIS TIMING, HE WILL BRING IT TO PAST!! Lord, open my eyes, so i can see and KNOW the truth - UR TRUTH!! for it is YOUR truth that will set me free!! one thing he is teaching me, to depend SOLELY on him and not be distracted by other things... waiting on him, basically juz soaking in his presence, with the reassurance that no matter wat the circumstances may be, HE WILL NEVER LEAVE ME NOR FORSAKE ME!!
* God SUBTRACTS the rubbish from us, ADDS value to us so that we can MULTIPLY it to others!!
* we can have all the plans and preparation, but at the end of the day, we need the GREENLIGHT from Him...
*God doesnt say "are u willing to serve me?" instead He says "do u love me?"... it's not the works i do for Him that will please Him, it is my RELATIONSHIP with Him that matters... which so happens this song juz came to mind, and i believe it's not by accident... it's to make me ponder on it:
JUZ LET ME SAY HOW MUCH I LOVE U
1) Juz let me say how much i love you
Let me speak of ur mercy & grace
Just let me live in the shadow of Your beauty
Let me see You face to face
And the earth will shake as your Word goes forth
And the heavens can tremble and fall
But let me say how much I love You,
Oh my Savior, my Lord and Friend.
2) Just let me hear Your finest whispers
As You gently call my name
And let me see Your power and Your glory
Let me feel Your Spirit's flame
Let me find You in the desert
'Til this sand is holy ground
And I am found completely surrendered
To You, my Lord and Friend.
3) So let me say how much I love You
With all my heart I long for You
For I am caught in this passion of knowing
This endless love I've found in You
And the depth of grace, the forgiveness found,
To be called a child of God
Just makes me say how much I love you,
O my Savior, my Lord and Friend.
EAGLES' WINGS
Here I am waiting
Abide in me, i pray
Here i am longing for You
Hide me in ur love
Bring me to my knees
May i know Jesus
More and more
* Come live in me, all my life
Take over
Come breathe in me, and
I will rise and eagles' wings
Come take control over my life, Lord with Ur will and plans, so that some day i will rise wif u to greater heights!! Thank U, Jesus... amen!!
AMAZING LOVE
i'm 4given, becoz u were 4saken
i'm accepted, u were condemned
i'm alive and well, ur spirit lives within me
becoz u died and rose again
** Amazing love, how can this be
That You, my King, wud die for me?
Amazing love, I know it's true
It's my joy to honor You
In all I do, i honor You
You are my King
Jesus, You are my King
You are my King
Jesus, You are my King
voicing ALL my hearts desires to him that day during worship, i trust that he'll take care of ALL those needs and request... he knws that i want this particular thing very badly and i BELIEVE he'll attend to that soon and quick!!
i do not wanna rush into things, but there's something which has been in my heart and mind for quite a while, which i have been praying abt, so i hope that IN HIS TIMING, HE WILL BRING IT TO PAST!! Lord, open my eyes, so i can see and KNOW the truth - UR TRUTH!! for it is YOUR truth that will set me free!! one thing he is teaching me, to depend SOLELY on him and not be distracted by other things... waiting on him, basically juz soaking in his presence, with the reassurance that no matter wat the circumstances may be, HE WILL NEVER LEAVE ME NOR FORSAKE ME!!
* God SUBTRACTS the rubbish from us, ADDS value to us so that we can MULTIPLY it to others!!
* we can have all the plans and preparation, but at the end of the day, we need the GREENLIGHT from Him...
*God doesnt say "are u willing to serve me?" instead He says "do u love me?"... it's not the works i do for Him that will please Him, it is my RELATIONSHIP with Him that matters... which so happens this song juz came to mind, and i believe it's not by accident... it's to make me ponder on it:
JUZ LET ME SAY HOW MUCH I LOVE U
1) Juz let me say how much i love you
Let me speak of ur mercy & grace
Just let me live in the shadow of Your beauty
Let me see You face to face
And the earth will shake as your Word goes forth
And the heavens can tremble and fall
But let me say how much I love You,
Oh my Savior, my Lord and Friend.
2) Just let me hear Your finest whispers
As You gently call my name
And let me see Your power and Your glory
Let me feel Your Spirit's flame
Let me find You in the desert
'Til this sand is holy ground
And I am found completely surrendered
To You, my Lord and Friend.
3) So let me say how much I love You
With all my heart I long for You
For I am caught in this passion of knowing
This endless love I've found in You
And the depth of grace, the forgiveness found,
To be called a child of God
Just makes me say how much I love you,
O my Savior, my Lord and Friend.
EAGLES' WINGS
Here I am waiting
Abide in me, i pray
Here i am longing for You
Hide me in ur love
Bring me to my knees
May i know Jesus
More and more
* Come live in me, all my life
Take over
Come breathe in me, and
I will rise and eagles' wings
Come take control over my life, Lord with Ur will and plans, so that some day i will rise wif u to greater heights!! Thank U, Jesus... amen!!
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