Xu Ruo Xuan Ai Xiao De Yan Jing Lyrics (The Eyes That Love To Smile)
爱笑的眼睛 by 徐若宣
1) 如果不是那镜子不象你 不藏秘密
If it wasn’t for the fact that the mirror, unlike you, don’t keep any secrets
我还不肯相信没有你
I still won’t believe that without you
我的笑更美丽
My smile will be more beautiful
那天听你在电话里略带 抱歉的关心
The other day, on the phone, I heard a little sense of sorry and concern from you
我嘟的一声切的比你说分手 彻底
I slam the phone, is more than you telling we are over
2) 泪湿的衣洗干净阳光里 晒干回忆
I washed my tear-soaked garment, and dry it along with my memories in the sun
折好了伤心明天起
Then I picked myself up
只和快乐出去
I would only go out with happiness
这爱的城市虽然拥挤 如果真的遇见你
Although this place of love is cramped, but I really do see you again
你不必讶异 我的笑她无发带替
Don’t be surprised if she cannot replace my smile
* 离开你我才发现自己 那爱笑的眼睛
It’s only when I left you that I noticed my eyes that love to smile
流过泪 象躲不过的暴风雨
Cried like a storm that I could not run away from
淋湿的作天删去
Which wet my memories and let me forget my yesterday
离开你我才找回自己 那爱笑的眼睛
It’s only when I left you that I found myself, and those eyes that love to smile
再见爱情 我一定让自己
Goodbye my love, for I must let myself
让自己决定
Come to a decision
** 离开你我才发现自己 那爱笑的眼睛
It’s only when I left you that I noticed my eyes that love to smile
流了泪 当一个人看久电影
I cried again when I watch old films
是我不小心而已
But it was only accidental
离开你我才找回自己 那爱笑的眼睛
It is only when I left you that I found my true self, and those eyes that love to smile
再见到你 我一定让自己
When I meet you again, I must
让自己坚定
Let myself be strong
*** 离开你我才发现自己 那爱笑的眼睛
It’s only when I left you that I noticed my eyes that love to smile
流过泪 象躲不过的暴风雨
Cried like a storm that I could not run away from
淋湿的作天忘记
Which wet my memories and let me forget my yesterday
离开你我才找回自己 那爱笑的眼睛
It is only when I left you that I found my true self, and those eyes that love to smile
再见爱情 我一定让自己
Goodbye my love, for I must let myself
让自己坚定
Let myself be strong
再见到你 我一定让自己
When I meet you again, I must make myself
假装很坚定
Pretend to look strong
Juz simply thru this song, i have found the answer i was looking for for the past 2 mths!! wai ling introduced this song to me, saying she loved it as it was very meaningful… i've been repeatedly listening to it, til my mom actually asked if i never got bored with the same old song… haha, not me, mom… now if u look at it, it is a love song, speaking of how the writer came to a decision of "letting go" And yes, letting go is never, i repeat, NEVER easy, really!! Becoz of the connection we have had with that person (or anything at all for that matter) for such a long time, letting go is indeed a tough thing to do… the song, or rather the lyrics, didn’t really mean anything much to me… juz that I like the song, that’s all… but that was only at the initial stage… little did I know that it carries the answer to my prayers… Yoohoo!!
I had to admit that I was very impatient and wanted to hear from God about a certain prayer request that I had… I wanted an answer, fast!! and for an impatient person like me, it doesn’t help to delay and drag the time for revelation… two whole months, gosh!! But I believe that 2 draggy months was REALLY worth the wait, becoz I do not want to jump to conclusions based on my own feelings & emotions… I wanted it to be from Him!! And that was juz what He did, showing me the answer I had been searching for… And to make it turn out well for the glory of His name, He reveals it only at THE RIGHT TIME!! “In His time, in his time… He makes ALL things beautiful…” okok, Lord You work in Your timing… it was already close to 1am in the morning when I came home, and yet my two sibs are still wide awake… anyways, as I entered my room, I heard this particular song up in my sister’s room… and for the very first time, this song really meant SO much to me!! I felt as if it was God revealing His answers to me, whoa!! And so, as i begin to seek Him again for a confirmation to this, i knew that He has spoken and THAT was the answer because i really felt the peace of God there and then… Thank You, Lord that prior to this revelation, I’ve gotten plenty of support from my parents (not forgetting ps sam and wei sern as well), and that was a sign in itself, which indeed makes it easier for me to grab this confirmation and to take that step of faith in making this decision… Indeed, Your hand is at work, PTL!!
This day, 23rd of December 2005, marks the day of a new beginning for me!! Like the song says, it is only when I left “you” (and it doesn’t literally mean a human in this case; for me, it only meant a certain situation that I have been in), that I took noticed of “my eyes that love to smile.” Although, of course, I did not cry like a storm, my heart truly ached to have to let go, of something that has indeed been a part of me for a very long time now… But then it is when I left “you” that I found the MOST IMPORTANT THING: MY TRUE SELF!! While at the bbq, I felt a strong tugging in my heart to make that major decision… And becoz of this, I will never regret that decision I made when I broke the news to j-son yesterday… before approaching j-son, though I was excited to grab that opportunity, I still felt afraid… probably becoz I do not know what to expect, what the future will throw at me, and how I will react to it… but then, the Lord assured me by showing me clear and obvious situations, not one but a few, that has happened for the past one month which I have always wanted in my spiritual growth & walk with Him… to me, Christianity is not juz about growing spiritually, having daily devotions with Him, and edifying one another in Him… it also means being WILLING to do things that nobody wants to do, going places where people rarely choose to go… reaching out to lives that need a touch, filling the emptiness of lives with the light of Christ that we have… basically juz REACHING OUT, TOUCHING LIVES is something that I found to be very meaningful to me… I found it all!!
Calvin knew about this whole thing, and it was him who has been there to offer encouragements and support all along, not forgetting that he has also backed me up in much prayer… Thanx, Calvin, for being so supportive of me!! And so, he did ask me about this on the way there, and honestly I told him that I was still praying about it… I want (and am still waiting) a confirmation from the Lord about it before I make the next move, and with that I guess he didn’t expect any announcement from j-son so soon, hehe… I mean, I personally didn’t really expect it to come so soon either… I guess only God knows wat He's doin, hehe… well calvin, I guess all your effort has been paid off? *winkz* thanx again!!
I know that the enemy will do watever it takes to confuse me and divert my attention from walking in the path that God has prepared for me, but I believe that if this is from You, Lord, no one can take it away from me… not frens, not family… not even LEADERS!! Help me to stay focus on You as I begin a new year with a new resolution… Lemme live for the glory of Your name, and to do as You please… 2006 is gonna be wonderful!! Excited!!
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
ELAINE’S DAY OUT… WORTHWHILE, THEREFORE SATISFIED!!
Call me crazy, but I shall not deny the fact that I have been so excited about this day that I was actually counting down the days, eheh… It was indeed a jammed-packed Sunday!! Praise the Lord for His strength although I was out the whole day (not to mention a whole day of sitting), it was truly very satisfying to see souls saved (in fact there were a total of 4... 3 from church & 1 from calvin's cell harvest event) lives touched, perception changed… a whole new outlook in some major issues as well…
MORNING
18th December, the day I was anxiously anticipating, finally crept its way in!! Yay!! It was a day packed with activities from sunrise to sundown… they were all supposed to go to church 2gether for the first celebration (in dumc, they call it CELEBRATION sat & sun, not first service, second service, or watever… in fact I think it sounds nicer, eheh), then head for an early lunch before adjourning to the Taman Megah Disabled Centre… now since the Sunday celebrations clashes, dumc’s and grace’s, they suggested that I join them to dumc… cool!! It was my second time there… the first was, I think in 2002, for a healing rally… ooh, to me, that place was HUGE!! Imagine them having 4 celebrations, 2 on sats and 2 more on suns!!
Anyways, yesterday’s message was entitled MARY’S CMAS… the speaker, ps foo yung chean, first gave an example/illustration using a candy cane… cant rber how his story went exactly but there was once a candy maker who came up with this candy cane thingy, and this story had some meaningful explanation to it… “number one: if you look at that candy, it has the shape of the letter J… Now what does it represent? Why is it made in such a way? J wud obviously stand for Jesus, our Savior!! Number two: the J shaped candy also look like a staff, a shepherd’s staff that they used to draw their sheep back when they wander off too far… similarly, J represents the staff of Jesus that is used to draw back those of us who have gone off track from Him, or in the case of those pre believers, it is used to draw them into the kingdom of God and the knowledge of the saving power of Jesus Christ!! Number three: the candy is white in color, symbolizing the pureness of Jesus… then number four, seeing that it was kinda plain, the candy maker decided to add some color to it, therefore the red stripes, and of course it reminds us of the scars on the body of Jesus, the stripes that He suffered and our sins that He took upon Himself, juz so we cud be free from sin!! And lastly number five, the candy is HARD, representing Jesus Himself as our steadfast, rock-solid foundation!!
Ok, now into the sermon… that was juz an intro, haha… let’s look at 3 main characters, each with a different kind of heart: JOSEPH, MARY & THE INN KEEPER…
i) joseph with a HALF heart (matt 1:18-20)
he was in a state of confusion and a know-not-what-to-do situation when he found that mary, pledge to be married to him, had a son… he was afraid and confused all the same… but at this point, an angel of the Lord appeared to him telling him not to be afraid to take mary home to be his wife… though he was confused, he chose to obey what the Lord had said… with that, it also shows that he’d made a decision to surrender his half heart to the Lord, so that He cud make it whole again… [joseph was confused]
ii) mary with a WHOLE heart (luke 1:35-38)
when the angel of the Lord appeared to mary and told her that she was going to have a son, she answered, “I am the Lord’s servant. May it be to me as You have said.” She was obedient and submissive to the will of God [mary was willing]
iii) the inn keeper with an EMPTY heart (luke 2:1-7)
the time came when baby Jesus was to be born… but when they came to a village inn, the inn keeper rejected them saying he had no room for them… not knowing that it was the King who was to be born, he turned them away thinking that they weren’t any important people… and probably juz didn’t wanna lose a business to some ordinary-looking couple… but little did he know that he was missing out on the honor of having a King born in his inn [the inn keeper was reluctant]
in closing, ps foo threw us a challenge… to begin making room for Jesus, if we have not been doing so… he challenged us to begin to clear off any areas of our lives that are beginning to take the place of Jesus Himself!!
SO YOU WOULD COME
Before the world began, you were on His mind
And every tear you cry, is precious in His eyes
Because of His great love, He gave His only Son
Everything was done so you would come
** Come to the Father, though your gift is small
Broken hearts, broken lives
He will take them all
The power of the Word, the power of His Blood
Everything was done so you would come
Nothing you can do, could make Him love you more
And nothing that you’ve done would make Him close the door
Because of His great love, He gave His only Son
Everything was done so you would come
AFTERNOON
The visitation was fun!! An eye opener for me in many ways, I wud say… the taman megah handicapped & disabled children’s home was truly a place that brought back memories from my childhood… my heart melted with compassion when I look at them… they are all so different becoz of each of their own disabilities, but yet You have called each one of them by name, and they are indeed so precious in Your eyes… You love them all the same and were never different from anyone else…
Singing carols, playing games… Juz spending time with them… there were still some who couldn’t join us at the compound, but juz stayed indoors… so I decided to be with those who were unable to come out… entering the hall, I spotted this sweet-looking girl sitting all alone by herself on the stairs… as I was heading her way, I had to also be very careful not to run over a couple of them who were lying helplessly on the floor… soon, I realized that the girl was blind, so I reached out to touch her hand, but she begin to tense up, afraid I guess… but then with the help of her maid who explained that I was a “kakak” wanting to make friend with her, she begin to relax… taking my hand, she felt me all over… so as to make her more at ease with me, I started talking to her and having small chats with her… although I cudnt figure out what she was trying to say, at least she was talking… next thing I knew, she started singing… in tamil or hindi, I don’t know, but, wow, imagine that? She’s a Chinese, mind you… talented lil girl!! Lord, I juz pray that You be with her and comfort her, especially right now that she juz found out about the passing of one of her loved ones…
MORNING
18th December, the day I was anxiously anticipating, finally crept its way in!! Yay!! It was a day packed with activities from sunrise to sundown… they were all supposed to go to church 2gether for the first celebration (in dumc, they call it CELEBRATION sat & sun, not first service, second service, or watever… in fact I think it sounds nicer, eheh), then head for an early lunch before adjourning to the Taman Megah Disabled Centre… now since the Sunday celebrations clashes, dumc’s and grace’s, they suggested that I join them to dumc… cool!! It was my second time there… the first was, I think in 2002, for a healing rally… ooh, to me, that place was HUGE!! Imagine them having 4 celebrations, 2 on sats and 2 more on suns!!
Anyways, yesterday’s message was entitled MARY’S CMAS… the speaker, ps foo yung chean, first gave an example/illustration using a candy cane… cant rber how his story went exactly but there was once a candy maker who came up with this candy cane thingy, and this story had some meaningful explanation to it… “number one: if you look at that candy, it has the shape of the letter J… Now what does it represent? Why is it made in such a way? J wud obviously stand for Jesus, our Savior!! Number two: the J shaped candy also look like a staff, a shepherd’s staff that they used to draw their sheep back when they wander off too far… similarly, J represents the staff of Jesus that is used to draw back those of us who have gone off track from Him, or in the case of those pre believers, it is used to draw them into the kingdom of God and the knowledge of the saving power of Jesus Christ!! Number three: the candy is white in color, symbolizing the pureness of Jesus… then number four, seeing that it was kinda plain, the candy maker decided to add some color to it, therefore the red stripes, and of course it reminds us of the scars on the body of Jesus, the stripes that He suffered and our sins that He took upon Himself, juz so we cud be free from sin!! And lastly number five, the candy is HARD, representing Jesus Himself as our steadfast, rock-solid foundation!!
Ok, now into the sermon… that was juz an intro, haha… let’s look at 3 main characters, each with a different kind of heart: JOSEPH, MARY & THE INN KEEPER…
i) joseph with a HALF heart (matt 1:18-20)
he was in a state of confusion and a know-not-what-to-do situation when he found that mary, pledge to be married to him, had a son… he was afraid and confused all the same… but at this point, an angel of the Lord appeared to him telling him not to be afraid to take mary home to be his wife… though he was confused, he chose to obey what the Lord had said… with that, it also shows that he’d made a decision to surrender his half heart to the Lord, so that He cud make it whole again… [joseph was confused]
ii) mary with a WHOLE heart (luke 1:35-38)
when the angel of the Lord appeared to mary and told her that she was going to have a son, she answered, “I am the Lord’s servant. May it be to me as You have said.” She was obedient and submissive to the will of God [mary was willing]
iii) the inn keeper with an EMPTY heart (luke 2:1-7)
the time came when baby Jesus was to be born… but when they came to a village inn, the inn keeper rejected them saying he had no room for them… not knowing that it was the King who was to be born, he turned them away thinking that they weren’t any important people… and probably juz didn’t wanna lose a business to some ordinary-looking couple… but little did he know that he was missing out on the honor of having a King born in his inn [the inn keeper was reluctant]
in closing, ps foo threw us a challenge… to begin making room for Jesus, if we have not been doing so… he challenged us to begin to clear off any areas of our lives that are beginning to take the place of Jesus Himself!!
SO YOU WOULD COME
Before the world began, you were on His mind
And every tear you cry, is precious in His eyes
Because of His great love, He gave His only Son
Everything was done so you would come
** Come to the Father, though your gift is small
Broken hearts, broken lives
He will take them all
The power of the Word, the power of His Blood
Everything was done so you would come
Nothing you can do, could make Him love you more
And nothing that you’ve done would make Him close the door
Because of His great love, He gave His only Son
Everything was done so you would come
AFTERNOON
The visitation was fun!! An eye opener for me in many ways, I wud say… the taman megah handicapped & disabled children’s home was truly a place that brought back memories from my childhood… my heart melted with compassion when I look at them… they are all so different becoz of each of their own disabilities, but yet You have called each one of them by name, and they are indeed so precious in Your eyes… You love them all the same and were never different from anyone else…
Singing carols, playing games… Juz spending time with them… there were still some who couldn’t join us at the compound, but juz stayed indoors… so I decided to be with those who were unable to come out… entering the hall, I spotted this sweet-looking girl sitting all alone by herself on the stairs… as I was heading her way, I had to also be very careful not to run over a couple of them who were lying helplessly on the floor… soon, I realized that the girl was blind, so I reached out to touch her hand, but she begin to tense up, afraid I guess… but then with the help of her maid who explained that I was a “kakak” wanting to make friend with her, she begin to relax… taking my hand, she felt me all over… so as to make her more at ease with me, I started talking to her and having small chats with her… although I cudnt figure out what she was trying to say, at least she was talking… next thing I knew, she started singing… in tamil or hindi, I don’t know, but, wow, imagine that? She’s a Chinese, mind you… talented lil girl!! Lord, I juz pray that You be with her and comfort her, especially right now that she juz found out about the passing of one of her loved ones…
Some random ones abt the home...
EVENING
We did some caroling at three destinations… Practice makes perfect, so I guess by the time they sang for the last house, it was well done already, hehe… Juz a couple of pics taken during the caroling (with the kiddos, hehe)… hey, thumbs up to them!!
Friday, December 16, 2005
FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT, ENCOURAGEMENTS TO THE SOUL...
Wow, really felt so refreshed after reading a mail sent by evie (one of the members of the new grp)… ooh, I cud relate SO well to it it’s like as if God is speaking to me too, hehe =D this mail was actually forwarded to all her members in a form of encouragement to them, and she cc-ed it to me as well… I was truly blessed!! Thanx evie *winkz*
Shared 3 verses, which in her understanding, she went on to explain them further…
i) pro 3:5
Trust in the LORD and lean not on your own understanding;
ii) zech 4:6
“Not by might nor by power, but by My Spirit,” says the Lord Almighty.
iii) matt 5:46 - 48
If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.
Looking back at it all of these three verses, how much more significant cud they be in MY own life? Lord, thank You!!
PRO 3:5... While evie shared about how God works in touching her friend so that she responded and hungered for more of the Lord through their Sunday message, I felt that He was bringing back pictures of my own life (gosh, even in the midst of my work?? Haha) so I cud do some pondering as well… Yes, indeed it has taught me that in wateva I desire and yearn for, it’s best that I surrender everything and begin to trust in Him not a little bit, neither abit more, but FULLY for truly He, and only He alone, knows best!! At one point, I was so anxious in wanting a certain something that, yes I prayed, but I wasn’t praying the way I should have been praying… I was telling Him that such and such is what I want, pls grant it to me now that I’ve voiced it out in prayer!! But somehow this verse jumped out at me today, and finally I see the significance of it… in this particular area, of course… Lean not on my own, hmm…
ZECH 4:6... Evie said she learnt that she cud not lead them to Christ in her own timing, but it is God’s timing (that will bring forth the fruit, whatever the case)… She added that the Holy Spirit is the One that will do the work (in this case bringing her frens to Christ)… All we need to do is to juz pray… Simple, right?? *winkz* But earnestly and fervently, that is, of course!! Well said, evie *high five* No matter how much effort we put in, it’s all worthless and pointless if the hand of God is not upon it… Also, like proverbs 19:21 says, “Many are the plans in a man’s hearts, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.” Like I said earlier, at one point I was so anxious for it, but then realizing the fact that only God can work miracles, now, at THIS point, I have totally surrendered and told the Lord that, despite those desires STILL burning in me, I will CHOOSE to obey His will, even if it means giving that desire back to Him… Lord, help me as I live each day according to Your will!!
MATT 5:46 - 48... Speaks of the coming trip to the homes we’ll be visiting this Sunday (excitement boiling within me, hehe)… It says, “If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.” I like how the New Living Translation puts it: “If you love only those who love you, what good is that? Even corrupt tax collectors do that much. If you are kind only to your frens, how are you different from anyone else? Even pagans do that. But you are to be perfect even as your Father in heaven is perfect.” Love is not supposed to be showered only for the lovable but also the unlovely, the unwanted, the neglected… THAT was what Jesus came to do anyway, right? He came to seek and save the lost!! Since I’ve had some experience on dealing with OKU children a few years back, I know what it means to “handle” them with care… socially and emotionally… Lord, thank You for that experience (a preparation ground, I wud say) You gave me, having had the opportunity to be able to work closely with them, and understand them deeper… They might be different, very different if I may say so, on the outside… But deep down, nothing makes them more different than anyone of us becoz Jesus still loves them all the same!! Amen? And I believe He has a divine purpose for each and every one of them because their lives will one day reflect the glory of the Father Himself!!
Praying towards Sunday, asking for your Holy Spirit to go with us, and be our Guide!! May it all work out according to Your plans, so that Your name be glorified, amen!!
Shared 3 verses, which in her understanding, she went on to explain them further…
i) pro 3:5
Trust in the LORD and lean not on your own understanding;
ii) zech 4:6
“Not by might nor by power, but by My Spirit,” says the Lord Almighty.
iii) matt 5:46 - 48
If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.
Looking back at it all of these three verses, how much more significant cud they be in MY own life? Lord, thank You!!
PRO 3:5... While evie shared about how God works in touching her friend so that she responded and hungered for more of the Lord through their Sunday message, I felt that He was bringing back pictures of my own life (gosh, even in the midst of my work?? Haha) so I cud do some pondering as well… Yes, indeed it has taught me that in wateva I desire and yearn for, it’s best that I surrender everything and begin to trust in Him not a little bit, neither abit more, but FULLY for truly He, and only He alone, knows best!! At one point, I was so anxious in wanting a certain something that, yes I prayed, but I wasn’t praying the way I should have been praying… I was telling Him that such and such is what I want, pls grant it to me now that I’ve voiced it out in prayer!! But somehow this verse jumped out at me today, and finally I see the significance of it… in this particular area, of course… Lean not on my own, hmm…
ZECH 4:6... Evie said she learnt that she cud not lead them to Christ in her own timing, but it is God’s timing (that will bring forth the fruit, whatever the case)… She added that the Holy Spirit is the One that will do the work (in this case bringing her frens to Christ)… All we need to do is to juz pray… Simple, right?? *winkz* But earnestly and fervently, that is, of course!! Well said, evie *high five* No matter how much effort we put in, it’s all worthless and pointless if the hand of God is not upon it… Also, like proverbs 19:21 says, “Many are the plans in a man’s hearts, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.” Like I said earlier, at one point I was so anxious for it, but then realizing the fact that only God can work miracles, now, at THIS point, I have totally surrendered and told the Lord that, despite those desires STILL burning in me, I will CHOOSE to obey His will, even if it means giving that desire back to Him… Lord, help me as I live each day according to Your will!!
MATT 5:46 - 48... Speaks of the coming trip to the homes we’ll be visiting this Sunday (excitement boiling within me, hehe)… It says, “If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.” I like how the New Living Translation puts it: “If you love only those who love you, what good is that? Even corrupt tax collectors do that much. If you are kind only to your frens, how are you different from anyone else? Even pagans do that. But you are to be perfect even as your Father in heaven is perfect.” Love is not supposed to be showered only for the lovable but also the unlovely, the unwanted, the neglected… THAT was what Jesus came to do anyway, right? He came to seek and save the lost!! Since I’ve had some experience on dealing with OKU children a few years back, I know what it means to “handle” them with care… socially and emotionally… Lord, thank You for that experience (a preparation ground, I wud say) You gave me, having had the opportunity to be able to work closely with them, and understand them deeper… They might be different, very different if I may say so, on the outside… But deep down, nothing makes them more different than anyone of us becoz Jesus still loves them all the same!! Amen? And I believe He has a divine purpose for each and every one of them because their lives will one day reflect the glory of the Father Himself!!
Praying towards Sunday, asking for your Holy Spirit to go with us, and be our Guide!! May it all work out according to Your plans, so that Your name be glorified, amen!!
Thursday, December 15, 2005
LETTER FROM JESUS...
As you well know, we are getting closer to my birthday. Every year there is a celebration in my honor and I think that this year the celebration will be repeated.
During this time there are many people shopping for gifts, many radio announcements, TV commercials and in every part of the world everyone is talking that my birthday is getting closer and closer.
It is really very nice to know, that at least once a year, some people think of me. As you know, the celebration of my birthday began many years ago. At first people seemed to understand and be thankful of all that I did for them, but in these times, no one seems to know the reason for the celebration.
Family and friends get together and have a lot of fun, but they don't know the true meaning of the celebration. I remember that last year there was a great feast in my honor. The dinner table was full of delicious food, pastries, fruits, assorted nuts and chocolates. The decorations were exquisite and there were many, many beautifully wrapped gifts.
But do you want to know something? I wasn't invited. I was the guest of honor and yet they didn't remember to send me an invitation. The party was for me, but when that great day came, I was left outside, they closed the door on me!! All I wanted was to be with them and share their table.
In truth, that didn't surprise me because in the last few years all closed their doors on me. Since I wasn't invited, I decided to enter the party without making any noise. I went in and stood in a corner. They were all drinking; there were some who were drunk and telling jokes and laughing at everything. They were having a grand time.To top it all, this big fat man all dressed in red wearing a long white beard entered the room yelling Ho-Ho-Ho! He seemed drunk. He sat on the sofa and all the children ran to him, saying: "Santa Claus, Santa Claus" as if the party were in his honor!
At midnight all the people began to hug each other; I extended my arms waiting for someone to hug me and do you know, no one hugged me. Suddenly they all began to share gifts. They opened them one by one with great expectation. When all had been opened, I looked to see if, maybe, there was one for me. What would you feel if on your birthday everybody shared gifts and you did not get one? I then understood that I was unwanted at that party and quietly left.
Every year it gets worse. People only remember the gifts, the parties, to eat and drink and nobody remembers me. I would like this Christmas that you allow me to enter into your life. I would like that you recognize the fact that almost two thousand years ago I came to this world to give my life for you, on the cross, to save you.
Today, I only want that you believe this with all your heart. I want to share something with you. As many didn't invite me to their party, I will have my own celebration, a grandiose party that no one has ever imagined, a spectacular party. I'm still making the final arrangements.
Today I am sending out many invitations and there is an invitation for you. I want to know if you wish to attend and I will make a reservation for you and write your name with golden letters in my great guest book. Only those on the guest list will be invited to the party. Those who don't answer the invite, will be left outside. Be prepared because when all is ready you will be part of my great party.
See you soon, I love you!
Jesus
*~"Yesterday is but a vision, and tomorrow is only a dream. But today well lived makes every yesterday a dream of happiness, and every tomorrow a dream of hope"~*
During this time there are many people shopping for gifts, many radio announcements, TV commercials and in every part of the world everyone is talking that my birthday is getting closer and closer.
It is really very nice to know, that at least once a year, some people think of me. As you know, the celebration of my birthday began many years ago. At first people seemed to understand and be thankful of all that I did for them, but in these times, no one seems to know the reason for the celebration.
Family and friends get together and have a lot of fun, but they don't know the true meaning of the celebration. I remember that last year there was a great feast in my honor. The dinner table was full of delicious food, pastries, fruits, assorted nuts and chocolates. The decorations were exquisite and there were many, many beautifully wrapped gifts.
But do you want to know something? I wasn't invited. I was the guest of honor and yet they didn't remember to send me an invitation. The party was for me, but when that great day came, I was left outside, they closed the door on me!! All I wanted was to be with them and share their table.
In truth, that didn't surprise me because in the last few years all closed their doors on me. Since I wasn't invited, I decided to enter the party without making any noise. I went in and stood in a corner. They were all drinking; there were some who were drunk and telling jokes and laughing at everything. They were having a grand time.To top it all, this big fat man all dressed in red wearing a long white beard entered the room yelling Ho-Ho-Ho! He seemed drunk. He sat on the sofa and all the children ran to him, saying: "Santa Claus, Santa Claus" as if the party were in his honor!
At midnight all the people began to hug each other; I extended my arms waiting for someone to hug me and do you know, no one hugged me. Suddenly they all began to share gifts. They opened them one by one with great expectation. When all had been opened, I looked to see if, maybe, there was one for me. What would you feel if on your birthday everybody shared gifts and you did not get one? I then understood that I was unwanted at that party and quietly left.
Every year it gets worse. People only remember the gifts, the parties, to eat and drink and nobody remembers me. I would like this Christmas that you allow me to enter into your life. I would like that you recognize the fact that almost two thousand years ago I came to this world to give my life for you, on the cross, to save you.
Today, I only want that you believe this with all your heart. I want to share something with you. As many didn't invite me to their party, I will have my own celebration, a grandiose party that no one has ever imagined, a spectacular party. I'm still making the final arrangements.
Today I am sending out many invitations and there is an invitation for you. I want to know if you wish to attend and I will make a reservation for you and write your name with golden letters in my great guest book. Only those on the guest list will be invited to the party. Those who don't answer the invite, will be left outside. Be prepared because when all is ready you will be part of my great party.
See you soon, I love you!
Jesus
*~"Yesterday is but a vision, and tomorrow is only a dream. But today well lived makes every yesterday a dream of happiness, and every tomorrow a dream of hope"~*
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
RANDOMLY PICKED!!
Which Pirates of the Caribbean character are you?
| Your Hair Should Be White |
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| You Are a Good Student of Men |
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| Your Reputation Is: Sweet Girl |
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| You are White Chocolate |
 Whether your girlish ways are an act or not, men like to take care of you. You are an understated beauty, and your power is often underestimated! |
| You Are a Down to Earth Doll |
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| Men See You As Choosy |
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p/s: thanx to sarah (and becoz my curiosity got the best of me, eheh) i have my own version of this lil test... hmm, shall i say the results/feedback are quite true abt me? hehe =D err, no... correction: it's so very true, really!! hehe...
Saturday, December 03, 2005
A NEW ENVIRONMENT...
i was all hyped up, looking forward to this day (that'd be yesterday by now)... not juz for the sake of hangin' out, but the fact that we'd be practising our yet-to-be-perfected carols, eheh =p oh how i juz love carols... woohoo!! in fact this was juz my second visit there and i find myself actually lovin' it already *winkz* hmmm... now wat happend was that calvin brought me to visit his fren's cell, one that consist of young adults and since they juz multiplied, plus now being the cmas season, the meeting was sweet and simple... with carolling practice as their main agenda now, everyone is seen putting an effort in trying their very best to synchronise to the tune and tempo...
having sung it countless times now ever since i was a kid, i thought that it was something i wouldnt need to worry about... well, let's juz say i thought wrong, eheh... with nichole and evie as the so called conductor guiding us with how to sing the songs, we'd have to be VERY sure of where to come in (guys and girls each have our own parts - meaning the added echos and effects), which stanza to switch to a higher key note and wateva else... hmm, interesting, eheh... ooh, and in addition to that, the guitarist really did a great job in helping us with hitting the right note and stuff... great job alvin!! all in all, i was enjoying myself with my new found friends *winkz* (not that i've forgotten the old ones la, of course) and i do hope that all will turn out well on the actual day... in front of all the children sumore, hehe...
sharing time... topic was THE THINGS THAT INTIMIDATE US & HOW WE DEALT WITH IT referring to a portion of the scripture, of course... to be honest, i never knew it before, and i thank God for revealing it to me now... it has somehow got to do with my ministry, and when i shared my portion of thoughts and wat i had in mind yesterday, it juz occured to me that all those were the past and i no longer felt that way anymore... knowing for sure that it was indeed He who helped me in the process of overcoming that which i felt years back, when i first came to grace assembly... grace pj, indeed a place where i have grown spiritually, mentally and emotionally... ooh, not forgetting, a place where i FOUND MY MINISTRY and REALISED MY POTENTIALS!!
with wat i've shared, it prompted them to throw some questions at me (abt my ministry - where i'm involved, wat i do... i guess they juz wanna know me better, hehe), plus comments and suggestions were such that i should try the prayer & intercession ministry and stuff like that... wow!! they barely know me and yet such comments were made? i mean, that's cool =D and somehow it led me thinking back to the sel #7 leaders' retreat in mid nov recently where auntie ooi (and a lil bit from ps frankie) prayed and ministered to me, saying that i'll be a woman of prayer, being used in the area of encouragement & counselling (these were two words that came from auntie ooi)!! gosh, BIG word lar!! Lord, wat are You trying to tell me? is it a coincidence that the words PRAYER and INTERCESSION are used twice?? or could it juz be that people see these two words, bcoz somehow my mom is the one involved in it and somehow we got linked somewhere? hmm... time to start seeking the ever-knowing God, altho i still feel strongly that areas with kids & young children are where i do better in *smilez widely*
having sung it countless times now ever since i was a kid, i thought that it was something i wouldnt need to worry about... well, let's juz say i thought wrong, eheh... with nichole and evie as the so called conductor guiding us with how to sing the songs, we'd have to be VERY sure of where to come in (guys and girls each have our own parts - meaning the added echos and effects), which stanza to switch to a higher key note and wateva else... hmm, interesting, eheh... ooh, and in addition to that, the guitarist really did a great job in helping us with hitting the right note and stuff... great job alvin!! all in all, i was enjoying myself with my new found friends *winkz* (not that i've forgotten the old ones la, of course) and i do hope that all will turn out well on the actual day... in front of all the children sumore, hehe...
sharing time... topic was THE THINGS THAT INTIMIDATE US & HOW WE DEALT WITH IT referring to a portion of the scripture, of course... to be honest, i never knew it before, and i thank God for revealing it to me now... it has somehow got to do with my ministry, and when i shared my portion of thoughts and wat i had in mind yesterday, it juz occured to me that all those were the past and i no longer felt that way anymore... knowing for sure that it was indeed He who helped me in the process of overcoming that which i felt years back, when i first came to grace assembly... grace pj, indeed a place where i have grown spiritually, mentally and emotionally... ooh, not forgetting, a place where i FOUND MY MINISTRY and REALISED MY POTENTIALS!!
with wat i've shared, it prompted them to throw some questions at me (abt my ministry - where i'm involved, wat i do... i guess they juz wanna know me better, hehe), plus comments and suggestions were such that i should try the prayer & intercession ministry and stuff like that... wow!! they barely know me and yet such comments were made? i mean, that's cool =D and somehow it led me thinking back to the sel #7 leaders' retreat in mid nov recently where auntie ooi (and a lil bit from ps frankie) prayed and ministered to me, saying that i'll be a woman of prayer, being used in the area of encouragement & counselling (these were two words that came from auntie ooi)!! gosh, BIG word lar!! Lord, wat are You trying to tell me? is it a coincidence that the words PRAYER and INTERCESSION are used twice?? or could it juz be that people see these two words, bcoz somehow my mom is the one involved in it and somehow we got linked somewhere? hmm... time to start seeking the ever-knowing God, altho i still feel strongly that areas with kids & young children are where i do better in *smilez widely*
A FRIEND WILL ALWAYS BE A FRIEND NO MATTER WHAT!!
A friend is still a friend regardless of the closeness or distance between us...
A friend of mine, charles passed away tuesday morning... it was really a shocker!! i mean, it's not that we were close friends... to be very honest, i dont think we're anywhere near "close"... but it was juz his bubbly and friendly personality that i took notice of... that friendly "hey, wat's up, man? how've u been?" it is those little gestures that i will treasure and remember... someone whom i knew since he was in the children's church back then... calls himself 'coconut', and i wonder why... haha... well, i think that nickname will not only be juz another ordinary verb, but a word that carries memories and smiles with it...
Lord, in all things, You are there... we will never know the reason behind all these... only You know what's best!! i guess it's juz another way of teaching and helping us mature and learn to appreciate things... people - friends, loved ones, even the not-so-lovable... and not forgetting, to also love and appreciate our very own lives...
To my dear friend (coconut!! haha) who has gone ahead to be with the Lord, thank you for everything!! You will always be dearly remembered...
A friend of mine, charles passed away tuesday morning... it was really a shocker!! i mean, it's not that we were close friends... to be very honest, i dont think we're anywhere near "close"... but it was juz his bubbly and friendly personality that i took notice of... that friendly "hey, wat's up, man? how've u been?" it is those little gestures that i will treasure and remember... someone whom i knew since he was in the children's church back then... calls himself 'coconut', and i wonder why... haha... well, i think that nickname will not only be juz another ordinary verb, but a word that carries memories and smiles with it...
Lord, in all things, You are there... we will never know the reason behind all these... only You know what's best!! i guess it's juz another way of teaching and helping us mature and learn to appreciate things... people - friends, loved ones, even the not-so-lovable... and not forgetting, to also love and appreciate our very own lives...
To my dear friend (coconut!! haha) who has gone ahead to be with the Lord, thank you for everything!! You will always be dearly remembered...
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