CHANCE TO FREEDOM!!

Freedom!! Freedom from home, haha. Not that I’ll be moving out anywhere. Just the possibility of going back into the working world. A good two-and-a-half years of working from the comfort of my home (my own room, to be exact) is enough to get me wishing for more of the outside world. Now it makes me really wonder if the Sanguine personality of love for people and avoidance of dull moment has slowly caved in on me, haha… Nah, looking at it as a whole, I’m still very much a Phlegmatic (58%) coupled with a 30% Melancholic, hehe… Having done the test TWICE now, the results still the same…

Anyways, back to the topic… There was a mail a couple days back from Siew Chin, the director of Beautiful Gate Foundation regarding a “career carnival” that will be held this Thursday and Friday at the Legend Hotel Kuala Lumpur by the Jabatan Tenaga Kerja Semenanjung Malaysia… it is said that employers from the various sectors including hospitality/hotel management, agriculture, finance and a few others would also be present… well, prayerfully & hopefully I will be able to find a suitable one for myself… for one I’d be able to earn some proper income, secondly it is the freedom out of the house that I am excited about, haha…

So, those who are reading this right now, do keep me in your prayers k? *winkz* that all favour comes from Above and everything will therefore run smoothly… walao, if I get it, let’s celebrate then… haha…

WHEN MY TIME IS UP ~~>

…I want to go to this place, just sit there and stare into the beauty of the blue green combination captured here!! I'm sure the real place will look ten times more beautiful than it already is in this picture =) this is taken in aussie, right wei? [anyways, this picture is courtesy of Wei Sern, a very good friend of mine!! He really takes wonderful shots(at least from my point of view)!! I just envy his photography skills sometimes, hehe… thanx alot, dude *winkz*]

…I will just have to give in to the fact that God loves me more than anyone here on earth does, and wants the best for me in eternerty!!

…I want to be sure that I have done the things I wanted to do!! The things that I am passionate about, things that will make me smile, things that bring a sense of pure satisfaction in my heart!! [visit the old folks' home or the orphanage one last time? ooh, and hold a party for all the kids in my life… those from the Selangor #7 Royal Rangers, cousins, nieces & nephews, friends' children]

…there is no time for regrets!! Just do it, like Peter says, quoting Nike!! (Peter, you know what I'm talkin' about *winkz* you sokong me right?) When I REALLY have to do that, I would bug Wei to accompany me for moral support, haha XD Peter, if that friend of mine is not available for company's sake, I'll drag you in ok? Hahaha…

Like what has been said in the article I wrote for SURGE: "When it is time to go home, I will go. Until then, it is about living for Him, every moment, for His glory."

Greener Pastures…

Is it time to move on in search for something better? A better opportunity elsewhere? It has been a while since I started this current job with the Super Pages… I got to know of this job through Beautiful Gate… They are like that of a mediator, sourcing and looking out for suitable jobs for their PWD residence who still have the ability to earn some income for themselves… Independent Living ma… Peter hor? Hehe :p it was slightly more than 2 years ago that I got to know them, and it was then that I started working with BG Information Services Sdn Bhd, a member of Infodata Group of Companies… It sure seemed like long ago, haha…

The only good thing about this job is that I’m working from home thus having the freedom to do as I like… sleep, watch tv… even go out for a movie at times, haha… other than that it sure doesn’t keep me long at home… I have foreseen that I would eventually get bored with a job that doesn’t give me interaction with real human friends… of course there’s always the privilege of MSN and Yahoo Messenger while at home chatting my butt off and working at the same time… but then again, I like it more having to meet REAL people, haha…

So, is it time that God closes this door that He once opened for me, and eventually lead me to greener pastures elsewhere? Also, then I wudnt need to worry about any interruption at work due to the company’s website facing technical problems all the time… ooh, not forgetting the stupid streamyx that contributed to the irritating connection problem… til I hear God’s leading again… for now it’s back to job hunting, haha

This or that? Or both?

Is it possible after all, to have the benefit of both worlds? Am I too greedy for wanting both? Or some would probably comment about my being discontented with what I already have at this very moment? Is God changing my destiny once and for all? Maybe I should decide fast and thereafter stay faithful throughout? Commitment… Two-way commitment… But how? And when? Giving up current responsibilities for future commitment?

It seems that responsibilities have changed a little, just with the wink of an eye… I have been appointed with a new assignment, just today, which I very well know that it is something I do not fully deserve because I havent made a TOTAL commitment as far as this new assignment is concerned, heh… but yet I gradually found myself zooming in on new things, concentrating & focusing on a fresh new start… What is He trying to tell me? What would it be? Is that my destiny?

Serving and obeying Him is what I wanna do, and I thought I would start small… on a fresh new note… so, is this assignment a small one? I shouldn’t think so for I have seen and knew pretty well how it works… Which makes me kinda nervous now, haha… and with that, all the more I should DECIDE… PRAY & DECIDE!! Which one now? This or that? Left or right? Is this assignment really truly from the Lord, or is it given to me just becoz human resource is lacking? If He has so decided the plans for me, may I be ready to make that change… That sacrifice!! All glory to God…

Luke 16:10 ~~> He that is faithful in that which is least is faithful also in much; and he that is unjust in the least is unjust oso in much.

A Baby Born One Blessed Nite…

Since this is the very first (and a very fast one, in fact) multiplication of the PraiseGivers I will witness, I chose to stay home when my parents were scheduled to “balik kampung” for my granddad’s one year death “anniversary”… Friends, both mine and that of my parents, were curious and started asking me what made me choose cell over holiday with family… Becoz it was a FIRST multiplication event, otherwise I would have followed my family back… Just love my hometown, so I wudnt miss the wonderful time if it wasn’t for the fact that it clashes with such a BIG event for the PraiseGivers…

[Side track a little… Having experienced four days of daily routine without my parents (of coz I had my grandma and her maid over just for the sake of safety and a little company at night), I would say that besides needing a little help with cooking lunch and dinner, I very much prefer to live alone rather than having another person in the house to tell me to do this and that, and to instruct me on petty petty things which I pretty well know how to manage myself, haha… I thought I could have a little freedom to do my own things, but I definitely thought wrong… Every now and then, I will be asked to give a call to my parents just to see how they were coping, where have they arrived, what were they doing and what time they would do wat… Grrrgghh!! Lord, grant me more patience!! Haha… Hmm :p All in all, other than having to bite my tongue and hold my irritation of being controlled, I had fun… Wahaha (wonder what will my parents reaction/response be if they happen to bump into this)]

Now the main point of this entry… Mixed feelings: A sad and happy day at the same time, haha… You must be thinking what crap am I talking about, sad and happy?? Sad becoz of the fact that we, my cell group, had to multiply again only after 8 mths, so fast… On the other hand, it’s a joyful occasion knowing that we could begin a new journey with new sets of cell members for each cell, the old and new… Looking forward to spurring one another to grow more in the Lord again *winkz* Anyways, quite a bit of procedures that we went through tho, like the “breaking of bread” in line with those Bible times, heh…

Then there’s also the explanation from our zone leader choon ean about the significance of the 4 different cups that they took together with the bread (roti canai and capati… hahaha)…

And bla bla :p Ooh, and the washing of hands by Pastor Seng Fei our zone pastor to signify that we are cleansed and thereafter choose to stay pure b4 God…


The humility of Jesus washing the feet of His disciples were replayed, depicting servanthood… it was a very humbling sight to see the leaders washing the feet of those called to be under their leadership, also as a sign that, being our shepherd, they are willing to serve us… Somehow, Pastor Seng Fei, wasn’t in the picture, but he was there to witness the whole event… Setting an example, it started off with choon ean washing the feet of both the cell leaders, j-son and connor…

Now comes the cell leaders doing that for their appointed sheeps (no pics la, shy… heheh…) we were not informed in advanced of whose leadership we would be following, but right then it would be obvious for whoever washes our feet would be our leader… Right then, my prayer was: “Lord, I submit to wherever You have called me, and whoever You have placed above me… but most of all I submit to You.” So, Connor, and the rest of you who are in the same cell, may we work hand in hand, serving the Lord as we serve one another and even others outside our circle *cheers*

Here are those who will remain with j-son as the PraiseGivers… and probably continue on their journey together as PraiseGivers part 2, someone said… hahaha :p

Ooh, I forgot… We have our very own name now, a beautiful one… And yes, a LightHouse we shall be, shining for Jesus… Walao, coincidentally it has the same meaning with my name, haha :p LightHouse, an 8-month-old premature baby, born of their mother de PraiseGivers, on the 9th june 2006… So from now on, you shall hear more of LightHouse and their happenings… Stay tuned!!

Happy Birthday Praise Givers & Light House… Wahaha XD

Rainbows...

…are such beauties!!

I love the sight of em for they truly remind me of many things such as the creativity of God and the existence of hope… A bridge between a widening gap in relationships, a twist of change when hopeless becomes hopeful… A symbol of hope, peace and unity… A promise that things will get better from the way it already is!!

“If you want the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain.” Ain’t it true? In other words, scientifically, you will not see a rainbow if you don’t experience the rain. In the same way, it is usually the trials and testings that God brings us through not to make life difficult for us but rather to show us that despite the tough times, there still is something better for us to look forward to at the end if we persevere enough to see it come to past… Most importantly when we look back at it, we can testify that it is through experiencing and persevering in the “rain” (and sometimes even “thunderstorms”) that we can now enjoy the “rainbow.”

To me, a rainbow symbolizes something good… A miracle, a promise… A covenant that says no matter how hard a situation may be, there still is hope… At times when I look at things that doesn’t seem reassuring, or even those that did not work out at all, the question tag in my mind is no longer “why?” but “who?” It is not “why are things not working out the way it should be?” but “Who makes it work out for our own benefit?” It is then that I choose to cling on to Him for He NEVER breaks His promise… Often times, when I see a rainbow, it reminds me of God’s faithfulness in my life throughout the years… it’s like as if the rainbow is there to be a constant reminder of how precious we all are to God and that we should never take our lives for granted… or God Himself for this matter…

Rainbow… A sign of greater things ahead, of greener pastures once we have walked through the dessert… Speaking of which, I have not seen a REAL rainbow for quite some time now, heh… Wonder when I get to see one, haha :p

More Pics... Just Irresistable!!

More pics for my eyes, haha… Courtesy of Wuan, Peter's darling *winkz* she really takes good, beautiful pictures *tsk tsk tsk* Thanx Wuan!! Oooh, nice to have finally met you, haha…

The Independent Living/Peer Counseling Seminar

No doubt attending the above seminar, co organized by Jabatan Kebajikan Masyarakat Malaysia and Japan International Cooperation Agency has indeed taught me a lot, especially on the peer counseling part, heh… although I did not get a chance to attend the full workshop, the seminar itself did me A LOT of good… managed to catch up with some old friends with whom I have lost touch for quite a while now, not forgetting that I made some new ones, too (does one whom I have often kept in touch with through the net count as “new?”)

Anyways, with all that I learnt, my aim is to equip myself for the unknown journey God will take me on, haha… For now, it’s picture time… kekeke