ANOTHER BREAKAWAY… SURPRISE, TOO!!

Langkawi, aahhh… yes, a family holiday getaway is what I needed… the longer the better, haha =D just needed to relieve myself of all the work stress I'm currently facing… we left on Tuesday morn, took us about 5 and a half hours to arrive at the jetty, afterwhich it took us another 1 and a half to get across to the island… my parents were a teeny bit worried it might be inconvenient getting into the boat, but thank God it wasn’t a big problem after all!!

Hmm, somehow it kinda reminded me of the Camporama we had last year… or rather it reminded me of Corinne… dono lar, just somehow thought of her, of the times we spent 2gether, getting to know more of each other, hehe… hey gurl, cheers to u… all the best in everything ~ hugz ~

All in all, I had a great time there… some pics taken, but they’re still in the process… will be posting them up soon, eheh…

Ooh, yea… just a little sidetrack… I mentioned in the second and the third entry before this that I was being excited about the offer andrew told me about… ok, a brief lil explanation on this: i was chatting with andrew a couple weeks back about my job frustrations bla bla and as he was thinking of a solution to this, it suddenly just occurred to him that I fit in to the requirements for this Leadership Training in Japan: A Program for Persons with Disability where I’d be sent there to study and learn INDEPENDENCE and LEADERSHIP as well… he’d asked me if I was interested… wow, honestly, when I first heard that, I was nodding in agreement to it and was smiling ever so widely =D who’d be silly enuff to let this opportunity slip by? 机会, 失去了不在回来, 把握它吧!!

So, yea, I was all hyped up about it and obviously I began praying real hard about this… I wanted it to be from the Lord… I didn’t wanna let my own emotions and desires overcome me… then somehow, when he did not reply me, I told myself not to put my hopes too high; the higher I put my hopes, the greater the impact if it ever falls and breaks!! 希望越大, 失望越大!! But then, as I was in the boat, journeying back from Langkawi, I got a call from Elaine Sia, one of BG’s staff, telling me that she’d brought the form for me to fill in, asking me to collect it from BG… Lord, can that be considered a sign from you?

I asked for a sign, wanting to be sure that this is all from Him… so I told the Lord that if andrew replies me this time, it would be a confirmation!! True enuff, when I checked my mailbox the next day, he’d sent me a reply… yoohoo!! I didn’t wanna spread this out to everyone yet, just in case Andrew and Elaine didn’t get back to me, and it turned out to be a disappointment… so, the very first two persons to whom I shared this with were only pastor sam and wei… but now that andrew and elaine have gotten back to me with the reply, to all those who are reading this, please keep me in your prayers for I really truly wanna go for it =) pray that if it’s God's will, all will turn out well and I’d be short listed for the interview here in Malaysia before going over…

Lord, have your way in me… la la la la

GOD KNOWS BEST...

God just speaks/works in ways we least expect, really… I have a habit of playing songs randomly while working on my comp (just to keep me awake, haha), and as I was typing the last entry about my irritation and frustrations, these 2 songs were on… Coincidence or what? well, He knows what He’s doin, amen? no one except He Himself will know what is going to happen in the future…

Thank You, Jesus!!

DIA BUKA JALAN (translation from God Will Make A Way)

Korus:
Dia buka jalan
Saat tiada jalan
Dengan cara yang ajaib
Dia buka jalan bagiku

Dia menuntun ku
Dan memeluk diriku
Dengan kasih dan kuasa-Nya
Dia buka jalan
Dia buka jalan

Di belantara Dia tetap menuntun ku
Sungai di gurun ku temui
Syurga (seharusnya dinyanyikan: langit) bumi
Kan lenyap
Tapi firman-Nya tetap
Saat ini, Dia buka jalan

[solois: Bram Manusama]

TIADA S’PERTI KAU (translation from There Is None Like You)

Korus:
Tiada s’perti Kau
Yang t’lah menjamah
Segenap hatiku
Tak seorang pun di dalam hidup in
S’perti Kau Tuhan

Kasih-Mu s’perti sungai mengalir
Kuasa-Mu menyembuhkan
Air mata pun Engkau hapuskan
Tiada s’perti Kau

[solois: Tirza Sahertian]

IRRITATED, FRUSTRATED!!

Oh gosh… I'm just so not in the mood to work!! Ever since I received this email from my boss on the 11th, my mood to continue working just sky-rocketed downwards =\ imagine cutting our pay by 75%??!! from RM 1.50 per call to RM 0.50 per call? Wanna cut costs, konon!! I find it kinda ridiculous… not only that, he sent us that mail on the 11th, but the new payment adjustments was stated to be effective on the 1st… see that?? Mana boleh??!!

(just a bit of explanation here… I'm doin telemarketing, so my job requires me to make phone calls to companies, making sure their details in the database are accurate and up-to-date… and I'm paid RM 1.50 per full record, so to cover up for my phone bills as well)

I’ve been with this company (BG Information Services) for one year plus liao… I liked it working with them… but now that this has happened, I kinda want something better, if you know what I mean… I’ve always liked working outside though, the real office environment… but then again, it’s the facilities of the company that I gotta take into consideration… haihz…

So, anyways, after much discussion with my colleague, wai ling (who’s also working from her home) and my parents, we came to a conclusion that we remain paying our own phone bills (which we’ve always been doin, anyway), and now we are willing to pay for the streamyx as well, with request that they give us RM 1.50 per call… wai ling suggest that I talk to our boss, she just chip in here n there… ok, fine!! I proposed 2 options… either they pay us RM 1.00 plus our streamyx, or they remain paying us RM 1.50 and streamyx we “kau tim” ourselves…

She said to let her know latest by that week itself, but when we wanted to speak to her about it, she was rushing off to somewhere and obviously not free at that time, haihz… seriously, we’re not quite in the mood to work already la (hmm, but still have to, for income sake… haihz) so STRESSED!! Hrrghhh!!

Lord, i need your direction!! Honestly Lord, I want that offer Andrew told me about =D I want something new, hehe… ooh, I'm just so excited about the whole thing!!

Waiting… still waiting…

HAPPENINGS...

Ok, before I go any further, let me just send my wishes out to pastor sam… yeap, it’s his big day today!! Blessed birthday to you, Pastor Sam!! All the best in everything you set your heart to do… thanx for being such a great and wonderful friend, leader, mentor… well, i'm waiting for ur next big day, haha ><

Now down to the actual event… The 3rd part of the BG Let Love Grow (LLG) event has arrived again, but this time around I wasn’t involved in anything… even so, they'd actually put my name in for translation, but seriously, it was kinda last minute, and I was worried about how it would turn out without any practice, so I requested that I was being excused… well, maybe next time *winkz*

Hmm, let’s just say the whole thing went well, with God's help… on Saturday, we had some games which we played in pairs that consist of one able-bodied and one OKU… it shows team spirit as were doing our best to complete the task/game… kinda fun, hehe ><


Next up is my favourite speaker who frequents BG for their weekly cell meetings… name’s andrew… having sat in/heard 90% of his sharing, I truly admire his love for God (and missions, too) and the way he cares so much for the community, esp the orang asli’s and those less fortunate… both he and his wife have truly made a big difference in my life, seriously!! andrew, if u happen to be reading this, I just wanna say thanx a lot (tell your wife this as well) for believing in us =D

Hey andrew, honestly speaking, I'm excited about what you told me the other day, seriously, hehe… I take it as an open door from God for me to move on to greater heights, learning new things, and gaining new experiences… but regardless of how excited I am, it’s indeed a really big decision and I’ve gotta start seeking God and praying reeeal hard about this decision… Lord, intervene!! Wateva your plans for me, I pray that at the end of the day, it’ll glorify your name… amen!!

The following is some random pic of some guy from China, performing his martial arts or kung fu (or wateva you call it)…

TAGGED... (LONG OVERDUE)

This should have been done n posted long, long ago… but I just couldn’t think of what to write, so I kinda procrastinated, haha… Anyways, here goes:

7 things I wanna do before I die

· Be a role model, making an impact in the lives of the kids/children whom God brings into my life

· Get right and restore any and all broken friendships/relationships in my life and make sure there are no more hard feelings held

· Fulfill God's calling for my life… go on missions!! (yes, he has spoken)

· I'll make sure I tell “him” I love him (well, you know how nowadays people say it’s not too big a deal even if a girl makes the first move… NOT ME, THO… but if I’d already know I'm gonna die, then I WOULD open my mouth and get it out instead of dying with regrets)

· Meet up with all my friends (including those volunteers who have come and made a diff in my life)… An appreciation nite for all of them would be cool… basically, just hang out *winkz*

· Visit the old folks, orphanage or any other homes, to put smiles on their faces, spend time, bringing hope and making a difference in their lives

· Attend at least once of each HILLSONGS and PLANET SHAKERS concert… my first two all-time fave band!! Cool… They rawk, man…

7 things I could do now

· Lose weight!! Haha =p (hey, don’t laugh!! I'm SERIOUS!! I lost 2kg’s in three days, anyway… so, it’s quite a motivation for me to go on trying to lose sumore *lolx* ><)

· Learn up all the chinese [mandarin/canto] songs there is in the music industry (dono how come I'm kinda into it these days)

· Which means I could also improve on my mandarin vocab… gotta brush it up all over again

· Go buy a whole box of ice cream and enjoy it… ehehehe

· Look for a new job

· Save up for the trips & retreats that are coming up (very soon sumore, haha)

· Plan a birthday party/gathering just among close friends (seriously, THAT is something that’s running in my head now… haha)

7 celebrity crushes

[err, I'm not very into all this celebrity stuff, so don’t really know much… so, let’s just skip this whole part]



7 often repeated words

· Haaah??

· Apalah…

· Joker la u…

· Siau ar??

· Ya la…

· Cool, man

· Oi, nonsense fella!!

7 physical traits I look for in the opposite sex

· Smile (one that can make me melt, haha)

· Hmm, 6 footer… ok, I know I shouldn’t demand too much… as long as he’s taller than me, I'm happy, haha ><

· Eyes (not too small, please… haha)

· Hair (spiked, if possible… but then again, it has to suit him… otherwise it’s not necessary)

[physical traits are not that all important to me… what matters most is in the heart, so I think dats juz a few that I can think of]



7 people to tag

· Hong Yin

· Shin Yee

· Shin Wee

· Cindy

· Daniel

· Debbie

· Timothy

TIMES OF REFRESHING

Times of refreshing
Here in your presence
No greater blessing
Than being with you
My heart is restored,
My mind is renewed
There’s no greater joy, Lord
Than being with you.

Indeed, thank you, Lord for such a great time of refreshing… thanx for making me realize the things I never seemed to realize before…
(worship led by eddie quay)

1st service message:
A NEW WINE SKIN
Matt 9 : 16 - 17
V16 – “…and who would patch an old garment with unshrunk cloth? For the patch shrinks and pulls away from the old sloth, leaving an even bigger hole than before.
V17 – and no one puts new wine into old wineskins. The old skins would burst from the pressure, spilling the wine & ruining the skins. New wine must be stored in new wineskins. That way, both the wine and the wineskins are preserved.”

· The church is experiencing new things; new life, new ministries, new opportunities, new wine… as the years go by, there will be new things coming into our lives… it all depends on us to grab hold of the opportunity.

· It’s a total waste if you pour new wine into old wineskins. If you wanna experience new things, PREPARE YOURSELF, because old wine cannot contain the new wine that is coming. You cant advance into new things or a new level unless you change your thinking.

· What’s the point of us knowing the Word of God, but not putting it into pratice? Start THINKING DIFFERENTLY!!

1. GET RID OF OLD NEGATIVE MINDSETS
If we don’t change our negative mindsets, God cannot work a change in our lives. Not only should we change our mindsets about ourselves, but also about others.
What you perceive in your mind, you receive it in the natural. What do you see when you look at yourself? Why don’t we start looking at ourselves positively? Focus only on the positive side?

2. MAKE ROOM IN YOUR THINKING
Start thinking big… increase, promotion, move on ahead. God is a progressive God, he keeps on growing. God will keep on prospering you (amen!), so you gotta make room for the big God. Rise up your level of expectancy. If your level of expectancy is little, he will make it little. But if you expect much, then he will give you much. Jesus said, “Let it be done according to your faith.” Psalm 23:6 says, “…surely goodness & love will follow me all the days of my life. David expected the best for himself. God loves us not bcoz of what we do, but bcoz of who we are.

3. DEVELOP A HEALTHY SELF-IMAGE OF OURSELVES IN OUR MIND
Don worry about what others think of us. We should be sensitive to what God wants to speak to us, not be influenced by what others say about us. Begin to agree with God. Judges 6:15 says, “Gideon felt weak, but God still see him as someone strong.” Focus on God, not our weakness; on God, not ourselves. Don’t believe little, don’t expect little, don’t look down on ourselves.

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2nd service message:
BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU SEE
Jn 6 : 9-14
v9 – “there’s a young boy with 5 loaves & 2 fishes. But what good is it with this huge crowd?”
v10 – “tell everyone to sit down,” Jesus ordered. So all of them – the men alone numbered 5 thousand – sat down on the grassy slopes.
V11 – then Jesus took the loaves, gave thanx to God, and passed them out to the people. Afterward, he did the same with the fishes. And they all ate until they were full.
V12 – “now gather the leftovers,” Jesus told his disciples, “so that nothing is wasted.”
V13 – there were only 5 loaves to begin with, but 12 baskets were filled with the leftovers from the crowd!
V14 – when the people saw this miraculous sign, they exclaimed, “surely he is the Prophet we have been expecting!”

· God is not looking for an army. He is looking for only ONE person who is WILLING to RESPOND!

· When he asks, “who is willing to go?” it is a general call… so, the one who says, “here am I, Lord… send me” is the person who answered that call. Are we someone who will rise up & respond to that call?

· He is not bothered about what you do not have; rather he is more interested in WHAT YOU HAVE. Are we faithful in the little things he has given us? How can we handle big things when we cant be faithful in little things? The little things that we have, are we willing to bring it to Him & let him use it for his glory? Are we willing to sow our LIVES?

· Be that man/woman who will MAKE THE DIFFERENCE!! (haha… sounds familiar? ehehe)

· What you see is what you get!! If we see faith, we will be filled with faith, and vice versa… so, be wise & choose what we feed into our minds…

· When the disciples gave out the 5 loaves & 2 fishes, the miracle of abundance was evident (the multiplication)… similarly, when we start GIVING, we will also begin to receive… and he will flow a river of blessings into our lives!!
(message by ps frankie khoo)

OPEN DOORS...

hmm, was scheduled for a hospital appt yesterday and my mom was already hinting that she would not be there the whole time to wait til I finish my session, since she had some stuff to do at home… so, I had to handle myself, after where she left me (at the registration counter)… well, all in all, it was a good experience doing it all by myself, hehe… kinda sesat la, but at least it gives me a lil more exposure, and I’d say a preparation ground for me when December comes, haha… just cant wait… s’pore, here I come!! Yoohoo… nah, was just crapping… how could I compare s’pore, which has so much exploration waiting for me, to a frequently-visited hosp? haha ><

Now, as I was making the “transit” from physio therapy (PT) to occupational therapy (OT) [btw, those are terms referring to de various therapy i had to go thru to improve my physical condition], I met one of my ex kindergarten student, shafikah (when I was teaching in the Spastic Children’s Association a couple years back)… how could I not remember/recognize her, that adorable lil girl, haha… She didn’t seem to have any idea who I was and besides, there was a doctor attending to her, so I just said goodbye and left, not wanting to distract…

Then as I was waiting for my parents to come pick me up, met her parents while they were arranging for her next appt at the reg counter… so, I managed to catch up a lil with them and on how shafikah was doin… she’s grown so much now, in Standard 3 edi… but then, hearing the stories frm her parents really made me think back of my own schooling years and be thankful that I had real proper primary & sec education *smilez* yes, initially, it was tough for us too… my dad tried applying for me to enter a normal school, but there were some problems with the head of the school not wanting to take me in, reason being they were uncertain of what to expect with such a situation… but somehow, after my dad reaaally insisted for me to study there, they took me in, and I was having fun going to school and mixing around, haha… knowing me, i juz love making frens, so dat was the fun part *winkz*

The same happened to shafikah… parents took her out of the Centre, thinking that it would be a good chance for her to try mixing and learning in a normal sch, together with the rest of the other normal kids… putting her disability aside, she’s indeed a smart & intelligent girl, and can really do well, if there were proper guidance in her education… there and then, this tot came to mind… I cant be sure of whether or not it was from the Lord, but the idea was that I can start a tuition class, see if there’s anything at all I can do to help Shafikah… (haha, here again, I'm dealing with kids *winkz*) hmm, well… gotta pray hard for an answer frm Above!!

Someone suggested this to me some time ago, when I just quit my admin job in Tadika Grace Community a.k.a. TGC (a kindy supported by my church)… but somehow, it didn’t quite work out… I guess partly coz I wasn’t prepared, being a TOTAL freshie, and didn’t know what to expect… but after having a lil experience with my cousin somewhere during de hols last year, I'm kinda ok with the idea, so just see where He leads la, hehe… hmm, so that’s my new aim for the moment *smilez*

FOUR TYPES OF PEOPLE...

It’s more fun viewing the website itself directly coz there’s music and animation… either way, it’s your choice *winkz*

http://wang-yuan.nease.net/wygs.htm

originally in mandarin... translation provided... haha ><

人的一生会遇上的四个人…
Through our lives journey, we will meet four types of people...
人生就是为了找寻爱的过程，每个人的人生都要找到四个人。
Love is something we search for, and there are 4 kinds of people.
第一个是自己，
First is yourself,
第二个是你最爱的人，
Second, your loved ones,
第三个是最爱你的人，
Third, those who love you dearly,
第四个是共度一生的人。
Fourth, is the person you share your life with.
首先会遇到你最爱的人，然后体会到爱的感觉；
In order to feel what is love, you must first meet the person u love;
因为了解被爱的感觉，所以才能发现最爱你的人；
Because we know the feeling of being loved, only then do we realize the person who loves you dearly;
当你经历过爱人与被爱，学会了爱，才会知道什么是你需要的，
Once we’ve experienced giving and receiving love, having known what is love, then we will know what is it we really want,
也才会找到最适合你，能够相处一辈子的人。
And find the person best suited for you, with whom you can spend the rest of your life.
但很悲哀的，在现实生活中，这三个人通常不是同一个人；
But the sad thing is, in reality, these three person are usually not in the same body;
你最爱的，往往没有选择你；
Because the one you love most might not choose you;
最爱你的，往往不是你最爱的；
Or the one that loves you most might not be the person you love the most;
而最长久的，偏偏不是你最爱也不是最爱你的，
And the one you share your life with is usually not the one whom you love most, or love you the most,
只是在最适合的时间出现的那个人。
But the one person that comes at the right timing.
你，会是别人生命中的第几个人呢？
So, which person are you in someone’s life?
没有人是故意要变心的，他爱你的时候是真的爱你，
No one will change on purpose, (s)he meant it when (s)he really loves you,
可是他不爱你的时候也是真的不爱你了，
But when (s)he doesn’t love you, (s)he meant it as well,
他爱你的时候没有办法假装不爱你；
(S)he can’t pretend not to love you when (s)he really does love you;
同样的，他不爱你的时候也没有办法假装爱你。
Similarly, (s)he can’t pretend to love you when (s)he don’t.
当一个人不爱你要离开你，
When the love is no longer there, and your loved ones decide to leave you,
你要问自己还爱不爱他，
Ask yourself, do you still love him,
如果你也不爱他了，千万别为了可怜的自尊而不肯离开；
If the answer is “no”, don’t say no and still stay there because of your pride;
如果你还爱他，你应该会希望他过得幸福快乐，
If you still love him, the best you can do is wish him happiness,
希望他跟真正爱的人在一起，绝不会阻止，
And hope he finds the right person to spend their lives with, without stopping him,
你要是阻止他得到真正的幸福，就表示你已经不爱他了，
But if you stand in his way, that means you don’t love him anymore,
而如果你不爱他，你又有什么资格指责他变心呢？
And if you don’t, what right have you got to blame him for leaving?
爱不是占有，
Love does not mean belonging,
你喜欢月亮，不可能把月亮拿下来放在脸盆里，
It is like the Moon, there’s no way you can put it in a pail even though you like it,
但月亮的光芒仍可照进你的房间。
But the moonlight can still shine into your room.
换句话说，你爱一个人，也可以用另一种方式拥有，
In other words, there are different ways of loving someone,
让爱人成为生命里的永恒回忆，
Let it be an eternal memory,
如果你真爱一个人，就要爱他原来的样子 -- 爱他的好，也爱他的坏：
If you truly love someone, love the true him – his good, and his bad :
爱他的优点，也爱他的缺点，
Love all his good and short comings,
绝不能因为爱他，就希望他变成自己所希望的样子，
But do no attempt to turn him into someone of your dreams,
万一变不成就不爱他了。
And dislike him when he cannot become what you wish for.
真正爱一个人是无法说出原因的，
No words can explain why you really love someone,
你只知道无论何时何地、心情好坏，你都希望这个人陪着你；
You can only tell that, at whatever event or outcome, you want to be with him;
真正的感情是两人能在最艰苦中相守，也就是没有丝毫要求。
And true love is only when the couple can withstand all difficulties and make no complaints.
毕竟，感情必须付出，而不是只想获得；
After all, you have to give more than take in a relationship;
分开是一种必然的考验，
And separation is indeed a test,
如果你们感情不够稳固，只好认输，
If your relationship is not strong, you just have to give up,
真爱是不会变成怨恨的。
True love will not become hatred.
两人在谈情说爱的时候，
In a relationship,
最喜欢叫对方发誓，许下承诺我们为什么要对方发誓，
Asking the other person to make sworn promises,
就是因为我们不相信对方，我们根本不相信情人，
Is most likely because we don’t trust the person, our lover,
而这些山盟海誓又很不切实际：
And all these promises are not genuine:
海枯石烂、地老天荒，都不能改变我对你的爱!
And no matter what happens, it cannot change my love for you!
明知道海不会枯、石不会烂、地不会老、天不会荒；
I know the world wouldn’t become square;
就算会，也活不到那时候。
Even if it does, we will not live to see that time.
许下诺言的时候千万注意，不要许下可以实现的诺言，
But when swearing a promise, make sure the promise cannot turn into reality,
最好是承诺做不到的事，
It is better to promise something hard to achieve,
反正做不到的，随便说说也不要紧，
Because it doesn’t matter if you can’t achieve what u promise,
请记住：”不可能实现的诺言最动人”
And do remember: “a story is better acted than said”
在爱情里，说的是一套，做的是另一套；
In the context of love, speech is one thing, love is another;
讲的人不相信，听的人也不相信。
The person saying it and the person listening wouldn’t believe it anyway.
你呢？找到了第几个？
As for you, which one have you found?
茫茫人海中，你遇见了谁？谁又遇见了你？
In such a big world, whom have you met? And who met you?

THE TRUE MEANING...

Do you know what is family?
Do you really understand what is behind the word family?
It gives me a shock when I know the answer.
So long I never realize I don't know the real
Meaning of family..........
Here Is The Answer ........... FAMILY =

(F)ather
(A)nd
(M)other
(I)
(L)ove
(Y)ou

WHY does a man want to have a WIFE? Because:

(W)ashing
(I)roning
(F)ood
(E)ntertainment

WHY does a woman want to have a HUSBAND?
because:

(H)ousing
(U)nderstanding
(S)haring
(B)uying
(A)nd
(N)ever
(D)emanding

Do you know that a simple "HELLO" can be a sweet one?

Especially from your love one. (I mean not only from the boyfriend/girlfriend).
The word HELLO means :

(H)ow are you?
(E)verything all right?
(L)ike to hear from you
(L)ove to see you soon!
(O)bviously, I miss you ..

MOTHER'S GREATEST LOVE

INDEED A TOUCHING STORY:

My mom only had one eye. I hated her... she was such an embarrassment!! My mom ran a small shop at a flea market. She collected little weeds and such to sell... anything for the money we needed...
She was such an embarrassment.

There was this one day during elementary school...
It was field day, and my mom came. I was so embarrassed, "how could she do this to me?" I threw her a hateful look and ran out.

The next day at school...
"your mom only has one eye?!?!" and they taunted me.
I wished that my mom would just dissappear from this world
S o i said to my mom, "mom, why dont you have the other eye?!
If you're only gonna make me a laughingstock, why dont you just die?!!!"

My mom did not respond.. i guess i felt a little bad, but at the same time, it felt good
To think that i had said what i'd wanted to say all this time... maybe it was because my mom hadnt punished me, but i didnt think that i had hurt her feelings very badly.

That night... i woke up, and went to the kitchen to get a glass of water.
My mom was crying there, so quietly, as if she was afraid that she might wake me.
I took a look at her, then turned away.
Because of the thing i had said to her earlier, there was something pinching at me in the corner of my heart.
Even so, i hated my mother who was crying out of her one eye.

So i told myself that i would grow up and become successful.
Because i hated my one-eyed mom and our desperate poverty... then i studied real hard.
I left my mother and came to Seoul and studied,
and got accepted in the Seoul University with all the confidence i had.

Then, i got married. I bought a house of my own. Then i had kids, too.. now i'm living happily as a successful man. I like it here because it's a place that doesnt remind me of my mom. This happiness was getting bigger and bigger, when.. what?! who's this?! it was my mother, still with her one eye. It felt as if the whole sky was falling apart on me.

My little girl ran away, scared of my mom's eye. And i asked her, "who are you?!""I dont know you!!!"
as if trying to make that real. i screamed at her," how dare you come to my house and scare my daughter! GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!"

And to this, my mother quietly answered, "oh, i'm so sorry. i may have gotten the wrong address," and she dissappeared out of sight.
Thank goodness, she doesnt recognize me... i was quite relieved.
I told myself that i wasnt going to care, or think about this for the rest of my life.
Then a wave of relief came upon me... one day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house.

So, lying to my wife that i was going on a business trip, i went.
After the reunion, i went down to the old shack, that i used to call a house... just out of curiosity there, i found my mother fallen on the cold ground. but i did not shed a single tear.
She had a piece of paper in her hand.... it was a letter to me.

It read:
"My son, i think my life has been long enough now and i wont visit Seoul anymore...
But would it be too much to ask if i wanted you to come visit me once in a while? I miss you so much... and i was so glad when i heard you were coming for the reunion...

But i decided not to go to the school... for you... And i'm sorry that i only have one eye, and i was an embarrassment for you... You see, when you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost your eye... As a mom, i couldnt stand watching you having to grow up with only one eye... So i gave you mine...

I was so proud of my son that was seeing a whole new world for me, in my place, with that eye... I was never upset at you for anything you did... the couple times that you were angry with me, i thought to myself, 'It's because he loves me' my son... oh, my son...

Moral of the story: NEVER, EVER take our loved ones for granted!!

OH LORD, YOU’RE BEAUTIFUL

Oh Lord, you’re beautiful
Your face is all I seek
For when your eyes are on this child
Your grace abounds to me.

Chorus
I want to take your word and shine it all around
But first help me just to live it, Lord
And when I'm doing well
Help me to never seek a crown
For my reward is giving glory to you.

Oh Lord, please light the fire
That once burn bright and clear
Replace the lamp of my first love
That burns with holy fear.

SOME OF MY "ANGEL" FRENS

Now, this is also another fren sharing the same surname with me, eheh =p Looks like the name Teo(h) is a popular one, huh?

Left: Ms Teoh Hin Ling and on the right, we have Ms Lisa Yong *winkz*



We both have the same surname in mandarin, but in English, it's a big diff altogether...

Hers is a Cantonese name whereas mine is Hokkien... haha, how creative can God be? *winkz*

Left: 张琛如 (Chong Sam Yee) and me on the Right: 张依玲 (Elaine Teo Ee Leng)

Haha, cool...

Ms Cindy Tan Sin Yi

MORE PERFORMANCE? EHEH...

Shake it up, gurls... U have all eyes set on the stage already, so juz keep goin... thumbs up frm me, haha...

Those adorable ones, caught them after their dance, and managed a quick pics with them, yay!!

DANCE PERFORMANCE

ooh, look at the girl in blue... she's juz enjoying herself up there... hmm, is there a chance she'll get nominated for malaysian idol, and subsequently win the title? ><
Too many performances, i cant really be sure... but i guess this is a solo performance on the song "老鼠爱大米" translated into English... Cute one there, hehe =)

Little Bright Star dancers performing bravely & steadily... Go, darlings, i'm so proud of u *hugzz*

MORE PICS OF THE EVENT!!

wonderful performance!!

wonder how they can balance themselves juz on one single rope alone... Juz by looking at them even from below gives me the creeps as well *shivers*