Friday, March 31, 2006

I WANT A WIRA AEROBACK!!

I have been constantly wondering if there is a possibility of me being able to drive =D imagine the freedom that comes with it *winkz* not forgetting that life would be so much more fun compared to being dependent on people to chauffer me around… even then, I’d have to take into consideration their distance, availability and capability… wudnt it be much more convenient that I juz grab the car keys at any time and juz drive out without having to wait for the availability of other frens & family? Anyways, in response to that desire of mine, some commented “why not” and others voiced their objections in view of my disability…

“how can you drive with only one dominant hand??” [if someone WITHOUT A RIGHT HAND can, why not me??]

“Why not? There’s always auto, to make life easier.”

“What about the brakes and accelerator?”

“Don’t forget that a disabled’s car can be uniquely modified to suit each different disability. Things like hand brakes and “hand accelerator” DO exist, you know? Juz FYI”

“Okok, I know you juz can't wait to get behind those wheels, right??”

“Yes, that’s for sure!! And when that time comes, I wudnt mind chauffeuring you in return, haha…”

“Aiyah, juz make sure it comes to past first before dreaming too much about it la, please…”

Well, to prove them wrong, one of my PWD friend has gotten his license and is independently driving around!! Of course his wife would occasionally be the one who’d help him with getting his wheelchair in and out of the car… now, even my own parents were doubting de possibility of me behind the wheels, haha… well, there has been rumors that Cerebral Palsy (CP) persons are most of the time not approved to drive due to the signs of disability that would affect him, especially when on the road, involving other drivers as well… but of course, that depends on the level of severity the CP person has… and thank God the CP level I have is a very very mild one, that if I dont deliberately mention it, no one wud ever know that I'm a CP victim, haha…

It was when I started working in JICA that transport was an issue, so again I dug up the driving topic, which, for some reason, have been suppressed… Finally, they gave in to the suggestion of me commuting to work on my own (if I ever passed the test, that is)!! Juz to satisfy my bugging & pestering about driving, which he wasn’t very much in favour of initially, my dad gave me the greenlight to consult my therapist about it, and so consultation began in mid february recently… after one session of assessment, I was put in front of the steering wheels, juz to monitor how far a smooth rotation my left hand can do… t’was kinda difficult initially, but after 10 minutes of consistent rotation, the therapist was quite pleased with the progress I showed *yay*

after 3 sessions of doing the same thing, he now wanted to concentrate on my foot, which of course are the brakes & accelerator, stating that IF I could get used to them, it’s not necessary for modified hand ones… now the major part is how to get my wheelchair in to the car, haha (look at the complicated stuff a PWD has to go thru juz to get her license) Question is, once I get myself in the drivers’ seat, am I able to carry the wheelchair, bring it over to the passenger’s side? Thank God I have the choice of detaching the wheels and footrest, and arm rest if I wanted to, juz so I could get the whole thing in to the passenger side!! So, yea, those were things I had to learn, and still learning, in my occupational therapy sessions relating to driving…

ooh, I was also advised on what car would be most practical for me, haha… KENARI, can you imagine?? He’s gotta be kidding!! Of all the cars, Kenari is one that I dislike the most!! Esther, rber our inside joke abt Kenari? A di******ed car (take note of the spelling *lol*) Anyways, his reason was becoz it’s high and therefore it could fit the wheelchair… what?? Can't it fit in a wira?? Or a waja?? It’s not gonna make any diff since I’ll be putting it in the front passenger seat if I go out alone anyways, haha… well, at least those are my main two choices: WIRA AEROBACK!! If not, a WAJA would oso be fine (seems like both are Malaysian cars, ekeke)… Esther, stop laughing!! And dont u dare tease me about it *one hand on my waist and one finger pointing at you in a warning sign* wahahaha… Anyways, yes, it has got to be an aeroback for the Wira, wahaha =p yes, very fussy… but who cares?? It’s MY car, so MY taste *lol*

To all my friends (and faithful “drivers” out there), this is for you =D hopefully, the report from the therapist would be a positive one, so when I am approved of my license, it’ll be my turn to drive you around… to 2 of my close friends, anywhere you want, how far you want… at your service!! [you know who you are *winkz*] eheh =p

Thursday, March 30, 2006

EXPECTATIONS??

Is it too much to be expecting more than God has oredi blessed me with? I used to come to Him like a small kid with my requests, hoping that He will grant it to me… but some one argued with me saying, “How could you?? No matter what, shouldn't you be submitting to His will rather than expecting and demanding that He does it for you juz becoz you asked Him to?? I mean, like, He’s the One in control, not you.” Hmm, but didn’t He also say in Mark 11:24 that “watever we ask for in prayer, believe that we have received it, and it shall be ours.”

Was reading corinne’s blog, and the last sentence of her Tuesday’s entry really hit me right in my face… “Indeed, we must learn to live expectantly in God and He never fails to exceed expectations - in more ways than one!” My cousin had also hinted something similar, in her very recent entry, to what’s running in my head right now, and I can definitely relate to her… I mean those were the days where despite being immediate cousins, we use to be the shy and quiet girls, somewhat distant where communication is concerned… but I guess people do grow up and I’m glad we have quite a handful of stuff in common that made me relate so well to her (poserism is for sure, huh, Yin? *lol*) now, especially after she left (and then came back again) for canberra +D wow, it’s definitely much more fun now, babes, haha… err, when’s your next return to malaysia ar? Anyways, thanx for that post, girl =) even tho you didn’t exactly dedicate it to me, I could still understand how you feel about the whole thing, heehee… lemme assure you that you’re definitely not alone *high five*

Yes, I can never run from God, for He knows all things, even the unspoken thots & desires deep within. All He wants is for me to CONFESS it. My mom once threw this at me, “If you really want it, have you been constantly asking & seeking the Lord for it? Have you even ever thought about it??” At that point, I juz felt indifferent about the whole issue… what diff will it make whether or not I was blessed with it?? Am I gonna be a happier person? Is life gonna be more exciting then? But things seemed to have changed now, after what Json shared in cell a couple weeks back… Dude, you really “stirred” me mentally and emotionally, man, haha *winkz* I mean, you really made me think deeeeep, wahahaha... truth revealed, I constantly fall back on it and find myself pondering long hrs on it =p why I say truth revealed? That’s coz I’ve actually promised myself not to be too anxious about this whole issue and think about it anymore, but forgive me Lord, I’m human, and the truth is I found myself thinking back at it so much…

Was chatting with alvin about this same issue (in fact, we practically chat about anything at all when online, haha), and somehow, he might not realise it, but he was the one who indirectly inspired me to seek the Lord about it again, and for now, that’s juz what I’m gonna do – seek the Lord about it again… yes, expectations… which I believe He “is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us.” And Cor, thanx for that post which really encouraged me A LOT (in fact, it’s nothing from that post, it’s juz one simple sentence that did the trick) *hugz* ok, elaine, enuff of crapping!! Haha, yea, I’m still waiting, kekeke…

"ASK, AND IT WILL BE GIVEN TO YOU;
SEEK, AND YOU WILL FIND;
KNOCK, AND IT WILL BE OPENED UNTO YOU!"

Saturday, March 25, 2006

Tee Zhi Ler...

Ever since the announcement was made over the pulpit last Sunday to request prayer for this 7 year old boy, I juz cudnt stop thinking about him… it wasn’t until I heard about what he’s goin thru right now that I began to relate to him… so much in fact… becoz what he’s goin thru right now is EXACTLY what I personally went thru when I was merely a year old baby… the signs and symptoms very similar to mine 23 yrs back… as ps stancil was giving all other announcement before getting into this one, my mind was somewhere far away (thinking about what, I dono… hehe) Although I think I might have missed the initial info becoz of day dreaming, the moment he mentioned the word “ICU” and “viral fever”, I was zapped outta my deep thoughts *lol*

My mom received updates from ps lai leen about this little boy, so here’s abit about him :


I’ve asked my cell leader about this issue, so still waiting for response from him (or rather from the cell)… In the meantime, a short prayer for little Zhi Ler:

I commit Zhi Ler into Your hands. If You can do it for me, You can do it for him. If i overcame the devil in Your name, he can overcome the devil all the same, and come out even more victorious than he already is. Shield him away from the darts of the enemy, and may he be kept in your loving arms. Comfort the parents, shower them with Your love.
Amen.

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

RANDOM AGAIN...

Your Inner Child Is Naughty
Like a child, you tend to discount social rules.It's just too much fun to break the rules!You love trouble - and it seems that trouble loves you.And no matter what, you refuse to grow up!

Your Birth Month is November
Tolerant and inspirational, you are wise beyond your years.You are universally sympathetic and a great humanitarian.
Your soul reflects: Compassion, friendship, and secret love
Your gemstone: Citrine
Your flower: Chrysanthemum
Your colors: Dark blue, red, and yellow
The Keys to Your Heart
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.
In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.


You Should Be a Song Writer
You have the ability to evoke emotion, tell a story, and hook someone...In a very small amount of words, perhaps with some deft rhyming.Even if you can't write music, you can sure write compelling lyrics.Lyrics so good, people will have them stuck in their heads!


How You Are In Love
You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.
You give and take equally in relationships.
You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.
Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage
You've dated enough to know what you want.And that's marriage - with the right person.You're serious about settling down some time soon.Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!


Your Seduction Style: The Coquette
You are a pro at playing the age old game of hard to get.
Your flirting style runs hot and cold, giving just enough to keep them chasing you.
Independent and self-sufficient, you don't need any one person to make you compelte.
And that independence is exactly what makes people pursue you.


Your Candy Heart Says "Marry Me"
For you, love is serious business. You don't take dating lightly.And even if you haven't met the right person, getting married is something you expect to do soon.
Your ideal Valentine's Day date: a romantic picnic in the park
Your flirting style: subtle and calculating
What turns you off: short term flings
Why you're hot: you're a hopeless romantic with each new relationship

Friday, March 17, 2006

SIGNIFICANCE OF MATTHEW 7:12??

How often have we heard this?? Be it over the pulpit, or self conviction… Over and over again?? How has it played an important role in our lives? It purely states “do to others what YOU want others do to you.” As a link to that, why is it then that the truth of PWUP cudnt also be portrayed? Matthew 7:1 also pops in the picture, but if verse 12 doesn’t come first, how is it possible for verse 1 to find its way in between?? [don’t bother if you didn’t really get what I meant, or even if you understood, don’t bother digging for more… either way I shall juz keep mum] anyways, it's been 3 days…

Often times, we find that human kind tend to self impose rules that say, when I do better than the other, it means I have achieved more in life than them… yeah, right!! who said so?? How many, or is it how few, would actually acknowledge deep in their hearts in humility that all the achievements occur solely becoz of the hand of God upon their lives? Modest enuff to return the praise & glory to the One who gave us all the achievements we’ve been experiencing, which He rightfully deserves…

Just some stuff to ponder if ever significant enuff to be FOR us… Gold represents something very dear and precious to us, so we treasure and keep them safely… So why do you think it is called the Golden Rule?? Only we can answer that for ourselves if our hearts are right, and of course, heads not inflated… Lord intervene!!

Friday, March 10, 2006

THANK YOU!!

Nothing really in particular… juz felt REALLY grateful to the Lord for everything, and I really mean EVERYTHING!! Was waiting for my mom to pick me up from work yesterday and found myself thinking back at the day’s work at JICA… in fact even in the midst of work itself my mind was already running wild, hahaha (I’m very much of a thinker, so I think and ponder a lot on things)… As I look and think back of the things He has done for me, life’s progress He has guided me thru, doors He opened for me, and friends whom He has put in my life… even places from which He called me out and subsequently planted me in another spot where I could utilize my passions to serve better, not to mention it benefited me greatly *winkz* and most of all, for the endless favors He has granted me with, I juz really can't thank Him enuff for all of them…

I must admit that kenji has been such a wonderful superior, really… I’m truly so grateful for the many help and guidance in regards to my work that he has patiently showed me… very humble guy I know (peter tan, you said he’s a nice guy? I really can't agree more) =D yes, I can't deny the fact that I was very nervous the first day reporting to work, but managed to blend in fast enuff, since I have such a nice superior, not forgetting that it really helps to be loving every bit of what I am doing *winkz* my mom was advising me on the usual you-should-be-responsible-in-every-job-that-is-given-to-you-and-don’t-give-up-halfway-juz-coz-the-job-is-tough topic… it’s not surprising for her to “lecture” me on this job responsibility issue, since there WERE a couple of previous jobs that I complained about literally everyday, and subsequently hated it becoz of the things that happened at work!! I practically dragged myself to work back then!! One of the reasons: dreading having to face my superiors… Gosh, those were the days =p I guess being the “freshie” that I was in the working world back then, God was testing me and preparing me for things ahead… and I believe THIS is part or what He was preparing me for, therefore I WILL do my best, because I love this job, and becoz it relates so much to me as a PWD, haha…

someone shared this with evie, with which she was truly blessed, and in turn she shared it to bless the cell… she said, “we choose what we love, & we love what we chose.” (which reminds me about the lil activity about the rice and the corn that json did with the cell two weeks back =p something like, the rice represents LOVE and the corn depicts MARRIAGE, eeheehee… haih, cute and interesting cell leader of mine) Found it to be so true!! somehow, I loved jobs dealing with the admin side, so I kinda liked the things I do in JICA (especially since it REALLY deals A LOT with stuff relating to PWD’s aka Persons With Disabilities)… and besides it’s a good mental preparation ground if I got selected for DLT, hahahaha *winkz*

So it IS indeed His divine favor that I have experienced so much!! =D *Favor from man – favor from God = no favor* so, it has to be *prayer + divine favor & intervention from God = DIVINE favor with success* wahahahaha, i'm juz being lame and talking nonsense, haih =p

So, tada!! God blessed me with what I love, and no doubt I am loving EVERY bit of what He has blessed me with!! Currently reading the book “Heaven Is So Real” which speaks of the author’s divine encounters with the Lord, and I find that I really liked what the Lord told the her… “… I know in your heart that you always want to help the needy. I will bless you abundantly so you will be able to help anyone you want to help.” I find that to be of such assurance, hehe…

Well, thank God for EVERYTHING: my parents, my sibs, my friends old and new, the PraiseGivers i.e. my cell including my cell leader and the assistant… my job and of course kenji… my ministry i.e. the Royal Rangers, the Ranger Kids (RK) leaders and of course the children that make up the RK outpost… for the passion He constantly impresses upon my heart… thank God for sending His Son to fulfill the work on the Cross… and of course, thank God for MEEEEE!! Wahahaha *lol*

Friday, March 03, 2006

Down Memory Lane with the 80's Babies...

This is really long... but worth the read... Dedicated to the late 70's n early 80's babies...

Spend 5 min and read through the article. I am sure you will give yourself a smile after reading this =)

For your reading pleasure, some might be true. Hope you will all enjoy reading it. This might bring you down memory lane, especially during those school days.....

Signs that you are an 80s' baby:

You grew up watching G-Force, He-man, Transformers, Thundercats, Silver Hawk, Woody Woodpecker, Chipmunks and Mickey Mouse. Not to forget Ninja Turtles, Mask, Smurfs and Voltron too.

Girls watched Japanese cartoon like My Little Pony, "Xiao Tian Tian", "Hua Xian Zi" etc.

You grew up brushing your teeth with a mug in primary school after recess time.


You squatted by a drain with all your classmates beside you, and brushed your teeth with a colourful mug.

Remember the days when the school nurse, comes with a list for the! dentist appointment, the sound of the drilling when your friend has a fill in his tooth.

You remember the packets of milk we get in primary school to encourage us to drink more milk. (It only cost 30 cent per pack)

In secondary school, girls go to the library to borrow their favourite romance storybook. In secondary school, girls altered their school skirt to shorten it and guys will go to the school appointed school uniform tailor shop to tailor make their school trousers to the then fashionable "baggypants"!

During primary school days, the teacher will punish you using a ruler to hit your palm.

A bowl of noodles soup cost only 30 cents in primary school days.

When you were in primary school, girls like to go to the bookshop to buy cute stuff such as animal erasers, various shape sharpeners, colourful notebook etc.

Hankyu Jaya, Yaohan departmental stores used to be a favourite hangout for families during weekends.

In secondary school days, you buy the Bata BM Turbo or Pallas Jazz school shoes. Some guys like to wear those china made ankle high shoes. Some even like to wear those very thick socks with their school shoes.

Internet? E-mail? What the hell is that?

So you thought a decade or more ago, your friends don't have pagers or handphones in school.

CDs? What's that? Cassette tapes were the norm. Movie tickets used to cost less than $5 last time.

The goodies from Mama shop used to be Chickerdis, Mamee, Kum Kum, UFO, O-Ya, Ding Dang chocolate balls with toys in the box, colourful hard "egg","cigerette" bubble gum, KIKI Bubble Gum, pink bottle of bubbles c/w a small tubes with yellow sticks to blow "more lasting" bubbles that you can pop more air in or slam it on.

You never forget 'Ti Kam'. When exams are over, the board games (e.g Monopoly, Donkey, Transportation Comparison Card) & held video games will be all over the class room.

Your favourite sound is the bell! For it's the homemade ice cream man. The cream that tops Haagan Dazs!

And the other peddler you love is the old lady who sells juicy MuahChee and thick olden syrup rolled in a balloon the tip of a chopstick stick.

Another bell is the recess bell, a time to get away from school work and to eat. Another time when there is no bell but all guys will anxiously wait for it...The PJ (Pendidikan Jasmani), PE time (time for football).

Your favourite childhood games were playing "gu li"(marbles), fivestones, five bottle cover, zero-point, catching, "Pepsi-Cola one two three" and/or "Police & Sentry"!

The best thirst quencher of all times is the yummy colourful ice tubes you can buy from provision shops for only 10 cent. To eat them, break the tab and suck while holding the freezing tube!

All gals have a girl doll/strawberry shortcake/my little pony/pound puppy, while all boys have a soldiers figurine (combat) or a rubber band catapult that shoots folded paper!

Once was the era whereby ice-cream sticks were valuable items, then came the paper aircrafts, chalk fights.

Some boys made their own guns from wood, and used 'Bacali' as the bullets.

Some even used matches to shoot and burn kids' lanterns during Moon Cake Festival.

And your favourite holiday was Lunar New Year! New clothes, Ang Pows, shopping, junk food and family outings!

Let's see, the majority of students in universities today were born in 1987 / 88.... They are called "youth".

For them, they have never heard of the song "We are the World, we are the Children..." And the "Uptown Girl" they know is by 'West Life' but not 'Billy Joel'. For them, there have always been only one Germany and only one Vietnam.

AIDS exists since they were born. CD exists since they were born. Michael Jackson is already whitened. John Travolta is always round in shape and they can't imagine how this fat guy could be a god of dance.

They believe that Spiderman and Incredible Hulk are just new films.

They can never imagine a black and white screen for a computer.

They never know what is Atari or 'Game & Watch'.

They can't believe a black and white television ever existed and they don't even know how to switch on a TV without a remote control.

And they never understand how we can go out without a mobile phone when we were in university...

Let's check if we're getting old...

1. You understand what was written above and you smile.

2. Most of your secondary school friends are getting married.

3. You are always surprised to see small children playing comfortably with computer.

4. When you see teenagers with mobile phones, you shake your head.

5. You spend less and less time talking on phone with your friends daily.

6. When you meet your old friends from time to time, talking about the good old days, repeating again and again all funny stories you experienced together.

7. Lastly, having read this mail, you are thinking of forwarding it to some other old friends. You think they will like it too.....

Hahaha!.... Yes! We are getting old too........... Brings back old memories huh?

Cheers to the 80s babies!!!

Class of ’99 *lol*



CF-ers ’99 =D

BEAUTIFUL!!

BEAUTIFUL

Beautiful, beautiful
Jesus is beautiful
And Jesus makes beautiful
Things of my life

Touching me, changing me
Causing my eyes to see
That Jesus makes beautiful
Things
of my life

O LORD, YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL

O Lord, You’re Beautiful
Your face is all I seek
For when Your eyes are on this child
Your grace abounds to me

I want to take Your Word and shine it all around
But first help me just to live it, Lord
And when I’m doing well
Help me to never seek a crown
For my reward is giving glory to You

O Lord, please light the fire
That once burned bright and clear

Replace the lamp of my first love
That burns with holy fear

Such old songs, haha… ok la, not VERY old… probably juz a DECADE ago, sung in Vision Valley Centre (VVC), my old church (my very first church I grew up in since coming down from Kuala Terengganu… my hometown, juz in case you wondering) aiyo, now I really feel OLD =p okok, not OLD old la, but still can't deny the fact that I’m getting on with age, eheh… aiya, juz crapping only… since the first song was sung in cell last week and the second one came to mind while in the midst of quiet time, it brought along memories of my childhood years in VVC

The titles juz speak for itself – BEAUTIFUL!! No matter what happens in life, You are the author of every chapter of MY life, and I gratefully thank You for each and every ups… and of course the down’s… and when I’m doing well with all the blessing and favour from You, help me to never seek a crown, for my reward is giving glory to You!! Short & sweet *winkz* thank You, Lord =D