A NEW BEGINNING!!

Xu Ruo Xuan Ai Xiao De Yan Jing Lyrics (The Eyes That Love To Smile)
爱笑的眼睛 by 徐若宣

1) 如果不是那镜子不象你 不藏秘密
If it wasn’t for the fact that the mirror, unlike you, don’t keep any secrets
我还不肯相信没有你
I still won’t believe that without you
我的笑更美丽
My smile will be more beautiful
那天听你在电话里略带 抱歉的关心
The other day, on the phone, I heard a little sense of sorry and concern from you
我嘟的一声切的比你说分手 彻底
I slam the phone, is more than you telling we are over

2) 泪湿的衣洗干净阳光里 晒干回忆
I washed my tear-soaked garment, and dry it along with my memories in the sun
折好了伤心明天起
Then I picked myself up
只和快乐出去
I would only go out with happiness
这爱的城市虽然拥挤 如果真的遇见你
Although this place of love is cramped, but I really do see you again
你不必讶异 我的笑她无发带替
Don’t be surprised if she cannot replace my smile

* 离开你我才发现自己 那爱笑的眼睛
It’s only when I left you that I noticed my eyes that love to smile
流过泪 象躲不过的暴风雨
Cried like a storm that I could not run away from
淋湿的作天删去
Which wet my memories and let me forget my yesterday
离开你我才找回自己 那爱笑的眼睛
It’s only when I left you that I found myself, and those eyes that love to smile
再见爱情 我一定让自己
Goodbye my love, for I must let myself
让自己决定
Come to a decision

** 离开你我才发现自己 那爱笑的眼睛
It’s only when I left you that I noticed my eyes that love to smile
流了泪 当一个人看久电影
I cried again when I watch old films
是我不小心而已
But it was only accidental
离开你我才找回自己 那爱笑的眼睛
It is only when I left you that I found my true self, and those eyes that love to smile
再见到你 我一定让自己
When I meet you again, I must
让自己坚定
Let myself be strong

*** 离开你我才发现自己 那爱笑的眼睛
It’s only when I left you that I noticed my eyes that love to smile
流过泪 象躲不过的暴风雨
Cried like a storm that I could not run away from
淋湿的作天忘记
Which wet my memories and let me forget my yesterday
离开你我才找回自己 那爱笑的眼睛
It is only when I left you that I found my true self, and those eyes that love to smile
再见爱情 我一定让自己
Goodbye my love, for I must let myself
让自己坚定
Let myself be strong
再见到你 我一定让自己
When I meet you again, I must make myself
假装很坚定
Pretend to look strong


Juz simply thru this song, i have found the answer i was looking for for the past 2 mths!! wai ling introduced this song to me, saying she loved it as it was very meaningful… i've been repeatedly listening to it, til my mom actually asked if i never got bored with the same old song… haha, not me, mom… now if u look at it, it is a love song, speaking of how the writer came to a decision of "letting go" And yes, letting go is never, i repeat, NEVER easy, really!! Becoz of the connection we have had with that person (or anything at all for that matter) for such a long time, letting go is indeed a tough thing to do… the song, or rather the lyrics, didn’t really mean anything much to me… juz that I like the song, that’s all… but that was only at the initial stage… little did I know that it carries the answer to my prayers… Yoohoo!!

I had to admit that I was very impatient and wanted to hear from God about a certain prayer request that I had… I wanted an answer, fast!! and for an impatient person like me, it doesn’t help to delay and drag the time for revelation… two whole months, gosh!! But I believe that 2 draggy months was REALLY worth the wait, becoz I do not want to jump to conclusions based on my own feelings & emotions… I wanted it to be from Him!! And that was juz what He did, showing me the answer I had been searching for… And to make it turn out well for the glory of His name, He reveals it only at THE RIGHT TIME!! “In His time, in his time… He makes ALL things beautiful…” okok, Lord You work in Your timing… it was already close to 1am in the morning when I came home, and yet my two sibs are still wide awake… anyways, as I entered my room, I heard this particular song up in my sister’s room… and for the very first time, this song really meant SO much to me!! I felt as if it was God revealing His answers to me, whoa!! And so, as i begin to seek Him again for a confirmation to this, i knew that He has spoken and THAT was the answer because i really felt the peace of God there and then… Thank You, Lord that prior to this revelation, I’ve gotten plenty of support from my parents (not forgetting ps sam and wei sern as well), and that was a sign in itself, which indeed makes it easier for me to grab this confirmation and to take that step of faith in making this decision… Indeed, Your hand is at work, PTL!!

This day, 23rd of December 2005, marks the day of a new beginning for me!! Like the song says, it is only when I left “you” (and it doesn’t literally mean a human in this case; for me, it only meant a certain situation that I have been in), that I took noticed of “my eyes that love to smile.” Although, of course, I did not cry like a storm, my heart truly ached to have to let go, of something that has indeed been a part of me for a very long time now… But then it is when I left “you” that I found the MOST IMPORTANT THING: MY TRUE SELF!! While at the bbq, I felt a strong tugging in my heart to make that major decision… And becoz of this, I will never regret that decision I made when I broke the news to j-son yesterday… before approaching j-son, though I was excited to grab that opportunity, I still felt afraid… probably becoz I do not know what to expect, what the future will throw at me, and how I will react to it… but then, the Lord assured me by showing me clear and obvious situations, not one but a few, that has happened for the past one month which I have always wanted in my spiritual growth & walk with Him… to me, Christianity is not juz about growing spiritually, having daily devotions with Him, and edifying one another in Him… it also means being WILLING to do things that nobody wants to do, going places where people rarely choose to go… reaching out to lives that need a touch, filling the emptiness of lives with the light of Christ that we have… basically juz REACHING OUT, TOUCHING LIVES is something that I found to be very meaningful to me… I found it all!!

Calvin knew about this whole thing, and it was him who has been there to offer encouragements and support all along, not forgetting that he has also backed me up in much prayer… Thanx, Calvin, for being so supportive of me!! And so, he did ask me about this on the way there, and honestly I told him that I was still praying about it… I want (and am still waiting) a confirmation from the Lord about it before I make the next move, and with that I guess he didn’t expect any announcement from j-son so soon, hehe… I mean, I personally didn’t really expect it to come so soon either… I guess only God knows wat He's doin, hehe… well calvin, I guess all your effort has been paid off? *winkz* thanx again!!

I know that the enemy will do watever it takes to confuse me and divert my attention from walking in the path that God has prepared for me, but I believe that if this is from You, Lord, no one can take it away from me… not frens, not family… not even LEADERS!! Help me to stay focus on You as I begin a new year with a new resolution… Lemme live for the glory of Your name, and to do as You please… 2006 is gonna be wonderful!! Excited!!