Sunday, July 02, 2006

Risking it all...


Should I? Will I? What if? How? Is it worth it? Aaarrgghh!! Help me!! Hahaha… These questions have been repeatedly playing in my head lately… “But you will never know until and unless you try,” is the subsequent response to those thoughts… I have been, and still am, in a situation where I want to see something happen, but am afraid to move in with it… Afraid of what I don’t know…

Many a times I have taken it in on myself, never did anything drastic, never dared… Why? Fear is the word!! I think it all began with just a simple conversation with
Peter (I do appreciate that call very much Peter), afterwhich he left me pondering so much on it, sigh… AND as if to add salt to the wound, my sister started asking me questions pertaining to that, not that I blamed her for it… So began our sisterly chats where, in the midst of our girl talks, I began to realise a whole new picture as far as this issue is concerned… Believe it or not, there were some areas where as usual, full of opinions to offer, she kind of confirmed what Peter shared with me the night before… hey, thanx A LOT, you two *winkz*

What if such and such happened? Will I take the risk? What if I am face to face with the opportunity right now? Something that I have been smiling at, something that I know I would gladly welcome. Will I dare to grab hold of it? Or will I just let it pass & slip through my fingers just because I am afraid? What if someone were to come knocking at my heart’s door? Am I ready to swing it open for him? Am I ready to start a journey with the person who might one day end up as the one who will complete me? Is he willing enough to sacrifice his life for me? I have no right to demand anything, really… I shall just take things one at a time *winkz*

A mental note & self reminder: NEVER DO SOMETHING I WILL REGRET LATER!! And that something is to let the opportunity slip through my fingers, heh…

2 comments:

Peter said...

Ponder over this: Faint hearts never won a fair lady.

Elaine said...

Thanx Peter! I know where you're coming from :) appreciate them!