A good laugh we all had hearing their responses. I cudn't help but thought of how opposite mine was: ENEMIES!! Well, not that I haven’t gotten over the whole incident, but as spontaneous as it was, the flashback of past hurts and offences just came rushing in again. So, I shared on the experiences I had with a friend who betrayed my trust by “helping” me ruin my friendship with this guy I eyed for quite some time back then… I was being upfront when I said that it actually went to the extent of HATRED I had for this friend. I guess it was partly my fault for having trusted her without first understanding her true person.
One of them threw me the question on whether my friendship with her was affected? Definitely!! Especially since this had got to do with the “person”. I hated her so much that I did not want to have anything to do with her. It took me so long (and not forgetting many convictions from the Lord) to dress my wounded heart, but miraculously somewhere down the line, I managed to let go. Despite having sorted things out, I decided to let the line remain there, and that is just how far I can go with her now.
On an unrelated matter, as I was having lunch with Kenji and his other assistant Siti, the relationship subject surfaced. As usual, Kenji was all up for the idea of me at least putting an effort to get myself a potential, and Siti looked kinda surprised that I have never dated before. I mean yes, there have been times that I actually wonder if God has that someone prepared for me but other than that I do not let my single hood bother me. Even if I am currently interested in someone, I decided that worrying about whether or not I would end up with him does not help solve the problem. So why make things worse by worrying when I know that I can rest so assuredly in God for the best for me in time to come?
Believe it or not, when it comes to the subject on relationships and PWDs, it is not easy. Some PWDs may disagree, and that is just because they already have it going their way. Indeed, there are many things to think and consider before venturing into a relationship. Commitments, risks, responsibilities, sacrifices. All these for the benefit of both parties. Whether or not my future partner will be a disabled or a non disabled, God knows my desires. But then again, this is what He says in Isaiah 55:8-9, so I am submitted to His will!!
All I am interested in right now is to see that he gets God’s best. If we were ever meant to be, then so be it. Otherwise, I am happy for him all the same. Whoever you are, I dedicate this to you. This is indeed the best I can do for you. For now, this little princess (ahem! *winkz*) belongs wholly to the one & only Prince in my life - Jesus the Prince of Peace!
8 comments:
ya, i agree with u on the relationship part.. :D.. thanks.. really nice post.. :)
which part, my dear? i blabbered so much there, kekeke.. u're welcome, and thanx all the same ;) all these for my Jesus!
wooo.ENEMIES...
i can identify with your feelings of being betrayed by a 'close' friend....
God did convict me of the 'hatred' i had. Since then i have forgiven him/her but there would never be a possibility of me trusting him/her again. In relationships, God had taught me to be wise in choosing my friends, cuz there are many out there who are sheep in wolves clothing.... Woohhooooo ;)
ooh yes, exactly! i believ it all happened for a reason.. to teach us not to be too gullible & be deceived in the long run..
a hard lesson we learnt, didnt we? thru this experience we can now be a lil more matured in the sense that we dont act too hastily, keke.
haha.. the whhhoolle part.. keke.. :D
hmm.. good, good ;) i agree with myself too XD and i thank God for the revelation of His word in this area..
glory to God..
**dont be afraid to take risk! **
ekeke. dont ask me what i mean. you KNOW what i mean. =P
yes, i knw wat u mean, dear ;p i even knw which part that sentence is meant for too, kekeke.. but really, it will not be easy!
for now, i leave it to the Author to unravel my life story.. at the right time of coz ;) it's all abt Him!!
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