DOUBLE PORTIONS OF FAVOUR!! WOOHOO!!

Why I say double portion? Remember it was juz two days ago that news came from siew chin all the way from japan? Well, first things first… I started my KL job today!! Woohoo!! =D Guess it’s all God’s plan that He opened the door for me to this job (though distance could be a bit of an issue here, but i believe will be settled soon enuff!!) and closed that window leading to the Persatuan Mobility one *winkz* Boy, was I nervous!! I started having butterflies flip-flopping in my stomach all the way from home up til I got off the car, and wheeled myself through my office door… I’m FINALLY back to the REAL working environment, yoohoo!! Lord, here I am, where You have led me to, have Your way now!! And so kenji (my direct boss), started introducing me to my new responsibilities, and the things that I would have to do under his instructions… so far so good, quite fun, hehe… it’s really a favour from the Lord that I was selected after going through with the interview, hehe… I get to learn different things about OKU’s… kenji himself was an interestingly fun guy, considering I get to improve my Japanese prior to getting selected to japan, haha… a hidden agenda somewhere? Cool =p

Somehow I asked him if I’d ever mention about my japan application (called the Duskin Leadership Training aka DLT) to him during the interview that day… having said no, I started explaining to him about DLT, and seriously, he sounded so happy for me, and kept on telling me that he hope I will be selected for he sees potential in me… hmm, err, eheh *shy* now, here’s where the double portion part comes in… he was still hyped up about it even during lunch, but one thing he did which I was really grateful for was that he came up with a recommendation letter (another one? Haha) for me… Lord, You really are working at it, aren’t You? Hehe… I believe You have put me here with JICA for a DIVINE purpose, and I’m gonna take hold of it – by FAITH!!

Flashback: … Proclaim the New, Possess the Future!! See the significance of it? *winkz*

One after another, the traces go back to Andrew, who first told me about the whole DLT program… Andrew, if you’re reading this, thanx for believing in me =D I will do the best I can and not let you down, but most of all, I want the name of Jesus to be glorified at all times!!

NEWS FROM JAPAN!!

Konnichiwa!!

Surprised!! Overjoyed!! Excited!!

Got a call from elaine sia… said siew chin wanted to contact me… something to do with my japan application… yoohoo!! =D

So i mailed her… she got back to me with news that she could recommend me to the japan team, since she’s dealing with them right now... wow, god’s favor *winkz* I wonder how the other 4 are doing, tho, hehe (2 volunteers, 2 oku’s) So curious… Cant wait for their safe return… hmm…

Continue praying… watashi wa nihongo-o benkyoo shite imasu, hehe… Mata ashita, oyasumi nasai *winkz*

Okok, translation: I am learning Japanese, hehe… See you tomorrow, good night…

IT'S ALL ABOUT HIM!!

I WILL NEVER BE

I will never be the same again
I can never return, I’ve close the door
I will walk the path
I’ll run the race
And I will never be the same again

** Fall like fire, soak like rain
Flow like mighty waters
Again and again
Sweep away the darkness, burn away the chaff
And let the flame burn, to glorify Your name

There are higher heights
There are deeper seas
Whatever You need to do Lord, do in me
Glory of God fills my life
And I will never be the same again

Yes, I will never be the same again!! With the Glory (and favor, of course) of God upon my life, I’m heading FORWARD for greater things… Watever plans He has begun in my life, I believe will come to completion soon… the puzzle pieces which He is still working on will soon fit ever so nicely in the picture!! Juz cant wait *winkz* and watever You need to do in me – stretch, break, mould – have Your way… for I believe that at the end of the day, after all that shaping and molding from You, I will come out different than before… never the same person again… amen!!

“… may your WHOLE spirit, soul and body…”

On a side note, I felt a sense of reassurance when I heard this song being played in evie’s car when she came pick me up for another round of visitation at the Taman Megah Disabled Centre (TMDC)… I have always loved this song because of the reassuring promise of the Father to me… she came to pick me up after church for another round of monthly follow-up to the taman megah disabled centre, I juz cudnt help smiling when I heard this song… in life’s journey, there’s bound to be sunshine and rain, laughter and pain, but Jesus Himself said, “I want you to remember, I want you to KNOW: YOU WILL NEVER WALK ALONE!! All in all, it is the last sentence in fact the last word, that means so much to me!! Thank You, Jesus!!

YOU WILL NEVER WALK ALONE

Along life’s road
There will be sunshine and rain
Roses and thorns
Laughter and pain
Across the miles
You will face mountains so steep
Deserts so long and valleys so deep
Sometimes the journey’s gentle
Sometimes the cold winds blow
But I want you to remember
I want you to know

** You will never walk alone
As long as you have faith
Jesus will be right beside you all the way
You may feel you’re far from home
But home is where He is
And He’ll be there down every road
You will never walk alone.

The path will wind
And you will find wonders and fears
Labors of love and a few falling tears
Across the years
There will be some twists and turns
Mistakes to make and lessons to learn
Sometimes the journey’s gentle
Sometimes the cold winds blow
But I want you to remember
Wherever you may go

Jesus knows your joy
Jesus knows your need
He will go the distance with you
Faithfully

Jesus knows my joy, my needs, my heart’s cry!! No matter how hard the journey is, how far ahead the end is, He is my faithful Father who will take my hand in His… it’s even more encouraging to know that He is walking with me through every season of my life, carrying me through the dry desserts… remember the footprints story? *winkz*

WHY?? WHY?? WHY??

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It’s so vivid!! Hit me SO hard, it’s like a slap on the face!! Lord, only YOU know all about it… why stir the still waters again?? Esp after a peaceful “rest”?? I chose to obey You, yes I did!! burnt it at the altar… made a PROMISE to myself to let that be a chapter that goes into the history part, an artifact that’s nicely displayed behind museum’s glass doors… somehow it juz hit me hard this time!! Again!! WHY?? Question is, WHY??!!

I tried… then I failed… listened to some sensible advices… determined to try harder, for my own good (and also becoz the Lord says so)… finally succeeded, after much struggles… or so I thought… then I realize that it has SO MUCH been a part of me… that I still see ashes of it, despite having destroyed it in the fire… like when you go through a surgery, the cuts & wounds will eventually heal… but can anyone make the scars vanish for good??

Yes, I KNOW You’re teaching me something… Something for my own good!! Open my eyes to see REALITY!! Found only in Jesus!! In Jesus’ name, Amen!!

FAITHFUL IN EVERY WAY!!

With All I Am

Into Your hands I commit again
All I am for You Lord
You hold my world in the palm of Your hands
And I am Yours Forever

** Jesus, I believe in You
Jesus, I belong to You
You’re the reason that I live
The reason that I sing
With all I am

I walk with You wherever You go
Through tears and joy I’ll trust in You
And I will live in all of Your ways
And Your promises Forever

I will worship
I will worship, You

Many a times, we can never seem to understand how God works and only He knows why things happen the way they do… really, never will I understand His reason for choosing me over many others, but some have seen it as a blessing in disguise… well, maybe so, I dont know… probably He has foreseen that this is a way He could build me up spiritually, mentally and emotionally… very honestly, if things hadnt happened the way it did, I wudnt have been who I am today… yeaps, there are still (definitely) weak points which needs A LOT of correction, but there would’ve been more (and worse ones, I’d dare to say) obvious weak points if He hadnt allowed that bit of mishap…

I bet, by now, those of you who are reading this will be wondering what exactly am I talking about… never mind if you don’t get the point, as long as I know and God understands, haha… indeed if I was given a chance to turn back time, or if I was given a chance to make one wish, I would definitely go back and make that necessary change needed in my life… wishing for something that should be rightfully mine!! But it’s never worth exhausting myself, going against the will of the Father… disappointment, frustration, regrets, only God knows… and I really am thankful for such a loving Person who understands me in and out…

all I could do right now is to commit my life to my Father AGAIN (I know I’ve done it many times, but I believe this song is sung again for a purpose)… He holds my world together, making me His forevermore… and becoz of Him, I can still sing and rejoice in His name despite the odds… having been with me through it all, not forsaking me eventho I have failed Him many, many times, all I could do to show Him my gratitude is to LIVE for Him, walking with Him in partnership…

I am so encouraged after viewing this clip again, although i have seen it before… It's juz so comforting to knw that He will be right there waiting for us with open arms, and when we run back to his embrace again, everything will be fine… nothing else matters anymore!!

how many times has He reassured me that He will be there for me no matter what the situation may be and all I have to do is juz wait on Him… and all He asks for is my obedience to Him, and when He retuns again, I would be running into His open arms… it is never easy taking up the duty of carrying that post, especially having to go thru storms and hardships along the way… but even as He has been faithful to me, I will be faithful to Him… For He is waiting for me at the end of the journey to see me running back to His embrace where EVERYTHING will be made perfect again!!

In His Time

In His time, in His time
He makes all things beautiful in His time
Lord, please show me everyday
As You’re teaching me Your way
That You do just what You say in Your time

In Your time, in Your time
You make all things beautiful in Your time
Lord, my life to You I bring
May each song I have to sing
Be to You a lovely thing, in Your time

TRUE FRIENDSHIP!!

this is specially dedicated to ALL my friends out there, old and new alike... But there's someone i would like to particularly acknowledge, and she's none other than MY SISTER, ESTHER who has been there, to share life's ups and downs, happy and sad moments, secrets and hush-hush stories!! Thx for EVERYTHING, GIRL!! =D

the rest of you out there, thanx for being a part of my circle *winkz* may the wonderful blessings of the Father be upon each of your lives, that you may also be a blessing to all those who will cross your paths!!

~ cheers to our FRIENDSHIP ~

WELCOMING 2006!!

2005 has undoubtedly flown by so very quickly, in fact much faster than the previous couple of years, I would say… and I cannot deny the fact that so much has happened within this one year, real life experiences, good and bad… spiritual encounter with the Lord, bitter and sweet, which has definitely taught me a great deal in relation to my spiritual walk and growth in Him!! Things of the past which I have held on to, namely relationships (with people and places alike) and situations which I have been in… Not that I refused to let go… Looking back at it, all that I have been through, I just believe it happened because the Lord was teaching me and maturing me through all those incidents, emotionally and spiritually… if it wasn’t for His help and guidance all through, I think I would never have been able to stand strong in the midst of life’s raging storms…

Never have I thought about working on improving my spiritual walk with Him all these while… thinking that it was all about going to church, worshipping and listening to the Word being spoken? I was juz being satisfied with where I am spiritually… Very rarely would I stay still and start listening to what the Lord has to say, or even to listen to His heartbeat… until august this year where I went for calvin's cell retreat, that He has revealed so much to me regarding my spiritual walk with Him… and it was then that I found the TRUE meaning of MAINTAINING, not a luke-warm relationship but a hot one, which flames are burning bright for Him… it was then that I begin to reflect on the things that matters most to the Father!! I sense the word “reach out” very strongly… ok Lord, i will be willing to do as You say… give me the strength and let me REACH OUT with Your help and bring Your love to those who needs it “…love is not self-seeking, it always protects…trusts, hopes and perseveres!!”

In fact it was only towards the last half of 2005 that things started to come to light… prayer really works when we take an effort to put it into full use!! I wanted something more!! Not juz a deeper walk with Him, but I wanted to do what He came to do!! He came to this world to seek and save the lost… and that was juz what I wanted to do… to reach out to the unreached and not juz edifying the Body of Christ alone and having no place in mind for those much less fortunate than us… all glory to God, I found this very thing in the hearts of the PraiseGivers – a heart for the lost, needy and abandoned… another ministry discovered!! Making a difference in the lives of those He has placed in my life!!

Have I been reflecting the light of Christ like how a crystal so beautifully reflects its crafter’s skills? “When I think about it, about something that describes you, I think of a crystal… The pureness & clarity is one of it’s most encapturing qualities… It reflects the light in such a beautiful way, the same way you reflect God’s glory… It’s strong and hard, the way you stand for God, steady and uncompromising… But most of all, when we look at a crystal, it’s the Crafter’s skill that is shown!!” these were the words of a close friend dedicated to me on my 21st bday… I truly treasure what was said for it was the most meaningful message written, and ever since that day, when I look at a crystal, it always reminds me to stand for what I believe, and most importantly to stand for what is right!! Not forgetting to live a life of constant reflection of the Lord…

“RELEASE THE OLD, PROCLAIM THE NEW, POSSESS THE FUTURE” I have indeed gotten the whole picture, now that I have been through all three parts of it!! And with that I’m all set to welcome 2006!! With God’s help, I will do my best to make a difference, live life to the fullest and stand out for Christ… to live by the promises of God, and to make the Golden Rule my daily Rule.

The theme for 2006 was taken from 1 Thess 5:23 ~ May God Himself, the God of peace, sanctify you through and through. May your WHOLE spirit, soul and body be kept blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ.

Everything that the Lord has begun in us and has yet to be completed, He shall make it complete and whole!! This the year of completion!! Amen, Lord!! I take hold of what’s been said… May it be done according to Your will…

Side track a little bit… heard that the theme for dumc a very familiar one, nothing new, hehe… Hebrews 11:1 ~ Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and what we do not see.

Wow!! Indeed, it is so significant to me personally right this moment!! Yes, I really do not know what lies ahead ever since I made that decision of change… but I believe that if we have the faith enuff to trust in Him to work things out, it will all work out for the glory of His name, and here comes another one: Romans 8:28 ~ And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been CALLED according to His purpose.