CHRISTMAS IN MY HEART!!

Christmas isn’t Christmas,
Til it happens in your heart
Somewhere deep inside you
Is where Christmas really starts…

So give your heart to Jesus
You’ll discover when you do
That it’s Christmas… Really Christmas, for you!!

Yes, Christmas isn’t really Christmas til it happens in our hearts. This Christmas brings various kinds of feelings and emotions. But I ask for love – God’s love!! Reflections of the past came flashing back, and I had wondered why He let it flood back in to my memory bank. Good ones are definitely worth smiling at, but what about the not-so-good ones? With all those experiences, I believe some way or another, He has built me up stronger and a lil more mature. One lesson I’ve definitely learnt: Silence lets you “see” things beyond the surface. And when the truth decides to reveal itself one day, the effect will not be as bad, haha. Therefore, one resolution for 2007: To go on adopting that quiet and gentle [if I was ever gentle at all to begin with, haha] spirit :))

I have always felt that Christmas will not be complete without this song. How much more true can the lyrics get? Indeed, we are the reason that He gave His life. I AM THE REASON THAT HE GAVE HIS LIFE.

As little children
We would dream of Christmas morn
Of all the gifts and toys we knew we’ll find
But we never realized a Baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives

We are the reason that he gave His life
We are the reason that He suffered and died
For a world that was lost He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

As the years went by
We learn more about gifts
The giving of ourselves and what that means
On a dark and cloudy day a man hung crying in the rain
Because if love, because of love

I’ve finally found the reason for living
It’s in giving every part of my heart to Him
In all that I do, every word that I say
I’ll be giving my all, just for Him
For Him

My Jesus did it for me, and now I’m doing it for HIM!!

WHEN LOVE & FRIENDSHIP GETS CONFUSED...

The truth can sometimes hurt. And I WAS hurt when the truth came unexpectedly yesterday, despite having known very well about it two years back. But I guess love, God’s love to be exact, washed and covered that whole bad experience. I guess that the many similar experiences that I went through helped matured me in one way or another. If this was thrown at me back then, I would have “crumbled”, haha.

Many people say or make promises. Yet not many can keep them. “I will never…” Now, u knw the phrase well: NEVER SAY NEVER!! The more u vow with the word NEVER, the more it will happen… I thought I was strong enough to face it, but I was wrong. Not because I have not gotten over the whole issue, but because of the fact that the truth was hidden from me. A promise never to let xxx come between our friendship? Haha. I guess I was hurt again when the whole story was re-lived. Realization of the hurt only sank in when I retire to bed last night. Couldn’t sleep until almost 3 a.m. I might have put on a strong front, but that was a mask. I might have acted “selamba” around u, but deep down……… Hahaha :p

Can I juz ask that the “bad experiences” stop/end here once and for all? I’m just afraid that I might not be able to take it any longer. Tired of wearing a mask, especially in this particular area. Set me free, pleeeease!! Hahahaha :)) but one thing I want you to know, I never drew any line in our friendship despite the painful truth…

[p/s: Just let this be a passing history and/or chapter. But if you ever decide to comment, you dun have to reveal yourself. Keep your identity to yourself k? I dun wanna complicate things further! Thanx.]

A PASSION…

…is something that, I would say, is inborn. That would mean something we do effortlessly, rather than struggling with something that we do not have a single idea about.


…because it is a gift from God, it comes naturally when we are in a position that will maximize that particular gift.


…is where we perform best!! Where we are passionate with what we do, and do best.


…REMAINS A PASSION NO MATTER WHAT!!

** I am not going to bear with it any longer. Once I found another root, I'm leaving this one!!

2 persons – no, make it 3 – take a very special place in my heart. Sometimes, we don’t need words to speak our hearts. Just that special look, a glance that we exchange. Thanx Esther, Wei and Evie!! You guys have really been tremendous blessings *muakz* I will never trade this friendship that we share for anything at all in this world :)

OF WEDDINGS, CHRISTMAS, AND WISHES…

Somehow this December sees many weddings: Friends’, relatives’… How sweet it is to see two different individuals become one… A marriage makes two fractional lives a whole… It gets even sweeter when the marriage is God-ordained *winkz* the love story of a couple whose relationship is solely centered on the Lord Jesus… Patience is virtue, therefore marriage becomes more beautiful when we are able to WAIT for the right person at the right time, hehe.

Yesterday was Lee Yen’s big day. She juz looked awesome!! The equation to such charm in an individual is, I would say, inner beauty + the wonderful hands of God = an admirable young lady (and of course the young man as well). Both the bride and the groom were respectable individuals who had qualities worth looking up to, and this is where I promised myself that I would wanna be like them, making them my role models…

To the newly weds, Chin Thye & Lee Yen: Thanx for having been tremendous blessings in my life. Distance will separate us physically but the love of God bonds us together in the spirit. Take care, all the best & love you lots!!

anxiously awaiting the arrival of the bride

a prayer of blessing for the couple

dont be shy, you may now kiss the bride *lol*


Me with Mr & Mrs Lee Chin Thye *lol*

Sweet Sue Sue... kekeke

Pretty Pauline, heheh...

Rachel Chan :)

Is there such a thing as groomsman? Hahaha... Wei, my best buddy, the sai lo of the bride

all in - the Grace PJ gang, hehe

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This Christmas brings back many memories, marks many milestones and sees the possibilities of many new things, hehe. I have wishes and desires, but they are in the main control of the One above. I want some things to change, I want some others to happen before my eyes. I can never run from my sister who will foresee things before it happens. True enough, now that it has come to past, I cannot deny that feelings anymore. What needs to be done now is to make sure that if it really happens, THIS IS WHAT I REALLY WANT, AND WILL WANT FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE!

With that, an additional reminder is about the promise I made to myself on my birthday last year. Although I am constantly tempted to go against my conscience, I cannot do so for the fact that the sign of the promise I made is hooked to my fingers for as long as I leave it there, haha. It has constantly been a motivation for me to remain faithful to the promise I made to myself. I may wish, think and ponder on it, but until the Lord gives a green light, I have to remain silent.

I am willing to wait for it, because I know that if it is truly from the Lord, I will be blessed beyond words (many people have testified to that anyway, so I just know it *winkz*)

FOR NOW, ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS YOU!!