A NOTE FOR LIFE!!

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Found this very interesting msn nick :p

Indeed, it is not about finding or waiting for the right and perfect person because we all fall short of the glory of God, and are not perfect (or rather will not be perfect)… but whether or not we are perfect outwardly, it does not matter… or rather it should not matter because if we say that we are followers of Christ, we should learn to adopt His attitude of looking beyond what meets the eye. For the Bible says that man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.

Similarly, the key to success is not finding the right job (for the workaholics) or the right person (for those looking for friendship or a companion); it is learning to love the job you have or the person you found. It is learning to ACCEPT, be satisfied and contented with what we already have. Appreciate the inward quality, not the outward beauty, because charm is deceptive, and beauty does not last therefore your beauty should not come from outward adornment…instead it should be of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight.

确定爱上人的八个方法。。。

1) 当你正在忙时， 却把手记开着， 等着他的电话。。 你已经爱上他了。。。。。。

2) 如果你喜欢和他两个人单独漫步。。 你已经爱上他了。。。。。。

3) 当你和他在一起时，你会假装不注意他， 但当他离开你的视线时, 你会急着寻找他, 你已经爱上他了。。。。。。

4) 当他受伤或生病时， 你会很关心他， 替他着急。。 你已经爱上他了。。。。。。

5) 当他和别人要好时， 你会感到吃味。。。 你已经爱上他了。。。。。。

6) 当他把脸贴近你时， 你会感到脸红， 心跳加速。。你已经爱上他了。。。。。。

7) 当你看到他那甜美的笑时， 你的嘴角会扬起一丝得意的笑。。你已经爱上他了。。。。。。

8) 当你看到这篇文章时， 心里想到某个人。。那么你肯定已经爱上他了。。。。。。

Something someone sent to me... Tell me what you think? ;)

It's the Most Wonderful Time of the Year

“It's the most wonderful time of the year.

There'll be much mistletoeing and hearts will be glowing

When loved ones are near;

It's the most wonderful time of the year.”


Give me understanding, I ask...

Puisi Sempena Hari OKU......

BERIKAN PELUANG ITU...

Kami dilabel
Insan kurang upaya
Lalu
Keupayaan kami
Yang masih tersisa
Bagai dilupakan.

Kurang bukan bererti tiada
Sempurna belum menjanjikan kesempurnaan
Sudah memang adat
Yang sempurna membantu yang kurang
Kerana yang kurang pun
Harus terus meniti hidup
Ingin turut merasa
Nikmat kesenangan
Nikmat kesejahteraan
Nikmat kejayaan.

Kekurangan itu hanya zahir
Yang lain sempurna
Akal waras cekal
Semangat keras kental
Minda luas terbuka
Hati puas menanti
Siap siaga
Memberikan yang terbaik
Positif
Inovatif
Pro-aktif.

Kekurangan bukan pagar besi
Yang menghalang diri
Menjadi maju berdikari.

Lihatlah pada
Kelebihan
Kemahiran
Intelek
Nilai-nilai murni
Yang membentuk sahsiah peribadi insan
Yang punya rasa dan hati.

Lontarkan jauh-jauh
Prasangka
Ragu
Sangsi
Yang bagaikan
Api dalam sekam
Membakar dalam diam
Hingga realiti
Rentung hangus
Tidak bernilai lagi.

Berikan peluang itu
Yakinlah pada kemampuan kami
Akan kami buktikan
Sepenuh daya dan iltizam
Menyempurnakan tugas dan tanggungjawab
Menyumbang cara kami
Ke arah merealisasikan
Wawasan para pemimpin
Agar tanah air tercinta
Menjadi cemerlang, gemilang, terbilang
Dan maju menjelang 2020.

Semoga kami
Bukan lagi
Insan kurang upaya
Yang tercicir dan terpinggir
Dari arus pembangunan pesat
Di alaf ICT serba canggih.

Kuala Lumpur
21 Mei, 2005

Selamat Hari OKU (4 Dec)

Zahari Hashim

Benarkah semua ini? Apakah golongan OKU pernah diberi peluang yang setara dengan orang-orang bukan OKU? Apakah stigma “OKU” ini akan menjadi label kami untuk selama-lamanya? Apakah kesalahan atau dosa kami sehingga “dijatuhkan” hukuman (stigma) sebegini?

人生就是这样。。 时常自以为聪明。。 说话从不经大脑!! 这颗心。。 再次被刺语割伤!! 缺少。。 不代表完全没有。。

残障的我们。。 也是人。。也一样有感受。。 残障不是残废。。 残障不代表没有用。。 我们要的是机会！！

你是否能明白这一切？ 我们的需要， 我们的要求。。 甚至我们的感受！！ 你要的是我们的表现。。 你要的是我们的“成绩”。。 想想看。。 没有机会怎么会有成就？

Latest addiction xP

Help!! Help my addiction, haha… Where did I get this from? How did I get addicted? Arrgghh!! I have a short memory and really cant remember how I got to know of this song, but it somehow became “a special item.”. Here's the video. Also the song+lyrics version.

1) 春暖的花开带走冬天的感伤
Chun nuan de hua kai dai zou dong tian de gan shang

微风吹来浪漫的气息
Wei feng chui lai lang man de qi xi

每一首情歌忽然充满意义
Mei yi shou qing ge hu ran chong man yi yi

我就在此刻突然见到你
Wo jiu zai ci ke tu ran jian dao ni

春暖的花香带走冬天的饥寒
Chun nuan de hua xiang dai zou dong tian de ji han

微风吹来意外的爱情
Wei feng chui lai yi wai de ai qing

鸟儿的高歌拉近我们距离
Niao er de gao ge la jin wo men ju li

我就在此刻突然爱上你
Wo jiu zai ci ke tu ran ai shang ni

听我说
Ting wo shuo

手牵手 跟我一起走
Shou qian shou Gen wo yi qi zou

创造幸福的生活
Chuang zhao xing fu de sheng huo

昨天你来不及
Zuo tian ni lai bu ji

明天就会可惜
Ming tian jiu hui ke xi

今天嫁给我好吗
Jin tian jia gei wo hao ma

JOLIN IN THE HOUSE

DT(David Tao) IN THE HOUSE

OUR LOVE IN THE HOUSE

2) 夏日的热情打动春天的懒散
Xia ri de ri qing da dong chun tian de lan shan

阳光照耀美满的家庭
Yang guang zhao yang mei man de jia ting

每一首情歌都会勾起回忆
Mei yi shou qing ge dou hui gou qi hui yi

想当年我是怎么认识你
Xiang dang nian wo shi zen me ren shi ni

冬天的忧伤结束秋天的孤单
Dong tian de you shang jie shu qiu tian de gu dan

微风吹来苦辣的思念
Wei feng chui lai ku la de si nian

鸟儿的高歌唱着不要别离
Niao er de gao ge chang zhe bu yao bie li

此刻我多么想要拥抱你
Ci ke wo duo me xiang yao yong bao ni

听我说
Ting wo shuo

手牵手 跟我一起走
Shou qian shou gen wo yi qi zou

过着安定的生活
Guo zhe an ding de sheng huo

昨天你来不及
Zuo tian ni lai bu ji

明天就会可惜
Ming tian jiu hui ke xi

今天你要嫁给我
Jin tian ni yao jia gei wo

听我说
Ting wo shuo
手牵手 我们一起

Shou qian shou wo men yi qi zou
把你一生交给我

Ba ni yi sheng jiao gei wo
昨天不要回头

Zuo tian bu yao hui tou
明天要到白首

Ming tian yao dao bai shou
今天你要嫁给我
Jin tian ni yao jia gei wo

Rap: 听着礼堂的钟声
Ting zhe li tang de zhong sheng

我们在上帝和亲友面前见证
Wo men zai shang di he qin you mian qian jian zheng

这对男女生就要结为夫妻
Zhe dui nan nv sheng jiu yao jie wei fu qi

要忘了这一切是多么的神圣
Bu yao wang le zhe yi qie shi duo mo the shen sheng

你愿意生死苦乐永远和她在一起
Ni yuan yi sheng si ku le yong yuan he ta zai yi qi

爱惜她 尊重她
Ai xi ta zun zhong ta

安慰她 保护着她
An wei ta bao hu zhe ta

两人同时建立起美满的家庭
Liang ren tong shi jian li qi mei man the jia ting

你愿意这样做吗
Ni yuan yi zhe yang zuo ma

Yes I do!

听我说
Ting wo shuo

手牵手 一路到尽头
Shou qian shou yi lu dao jin tou

把你一生交给我
Ba ni yi sheng jiao gei wo

昨天已是过去
Zuo tian yi shi guo qu

明天更多回忆
Ming tian geng duo hui yi

今天你要嫁给我
Jin tian ni yao jia gei wo

I feel so old...

“Selamat pagi, kak. Akak nak gi mana? Mari saya tahankan pintu lif.”, was the help offered by a young boy who was the cleaner at my ofis. Hmm… looks like I have to come to terms with the fact that it’s no longer I who calls people aunty, uncle, kak or abang, haha. It is the other way around now. Haih. I feel so old xP but of course, in the office itself, I still am the 2nd youngest, and get to call other older women “kak.” Kekeke

But I guess advancing in age isn’t at all a bad thing. As we grow older, we get to face different stages of life, encounter different experiences, meeting different people from all walks of life. This year’s birthday was a simple yet very meaningful one to me as it was somewhat different from the previous years ;) I got to spend this year with a “special addition”, hehe　(I requested that he join us for dinner ;p). But of course, other than spending time with loved ones and friends, it is about His love, mercy & grace that He has shown unconditionally.

It is about living life for His glory. It is about decisions in life that I make based on His guidance and love. It is fast approaching 2 yrs that I make a spiritual transition, and with God’s help, I want to maintain that =D friends come and go along the way. All I am glad is that some were there for a SEASON, others for a REASON, and the rest for a LIFETIME. Thanx especially to my family: my parents for their many years of love and care, and my siblings for all the support, encouragements and not forgetting the help that you all have endlessly given.

Thanx also to my cg members, especially my beloved CG leader Connor, who have always been there for me, whether to cheer me up or to lend a helping hand. It will never go unnoticed. Thanx for loving and accepting me for who I am =) also to 2 of them who have left the cell to be with their other half in spiritual support, and they are none other than Nichole Lim and Evie. Keep on being a contagious Christian no matter where you are, ok?

Last but not least, to the whole group at Mines ICT: 认识你们是我最大的福分。。 谢谢你们那么热心的接受我成为你们的一分子。。 要特别谢谢那位曾经借电动轮椅给我的冠廷。。 还有借房间给我的琳荔。。如果没有房间， 我就不可能去那边玩了。。 如果没有轮椅我就是失去了自由， 哈哈。。

Of course, this is specially dedicated to the latest addition :”> Thanx, dear… 谢谢你不断的鼓励和支持我。。谢谢你让我看见生活上的美满。。It’s just the beginning of a new year :p

Great singers, great talent...

I don’t think it’s coincidence that I bumped into 2 of our very own talented people from DUMC. I stumbled upon a video with the song All To Jesus I Surrender by our dear Patrick Leong (with Jacklyn Victor). Unintentionally, Juwita Suwito’s Breathe Again You Tube came on when I was browsing for a cartoon animation. She’s got great voice, really ;) the tune was so soothing I cant help but googled for the lyrics immediately, haha.

Besides I won't say much. All I can say is I, personally, am very proud to have such talented people in my church. God bless them, haha. Well, enjoy. At least I enjoyed hearing them sing ;)

BREATHE AGAIN by Juwita Suwito

Have you ever wondered how it feels when it’s all over
Wondered how it feels when you just have to start anew
Never knowing where you’re going
When you face a brand new day
It used to be that way
Now I just close my eyes and say

** I just want to breathe again
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little, cry a little
Live a little more
I just wanna face the day
Forget about the woes of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little, try a little more
I’ll breath again

Starting out again is never easy
Disappointments come and go but life still moves on
With a bit of luck, it’s a brand new start
That might just work my way
No need to walk away
Don’t want to live on life’s replay

## Things will work out fine
If you can find the courage to look past the night
To see the break of dawn

Significant!! So significant!! And at the right time some more, haha :D

Forgive & Forget??

As easy as it may sound, can you do both? You can forgive, but can you really forget?

In the first place, why forgive? Because something not right happened. Why forget? Because we don’t want that very thing to weigh us down. Because we should be looking ahead, not backwards and dwell in the past. Because the Bible tells us so. Because God tells us so.

But the question is, can we forgive? Yes, we can forgive. Now, honestly. Can we forget? Ahah!! Some may find it hard to answer this second part of the question. I have to admit, I can forgive, but I find it very hard to forget. Not once, not twice. But many times. These past few days, the message of FORGIVENESS – FORGIVE & FORGET keeps on repeating itself, and I guess it was no coincidence that I stumbled upon a few histories. The hurts have healed, but the scars remain forever. I may have forgiven, but I can’t bring myself to delete all that has happened. I may have forgiven, but no matter how hard I try to forget, the scars has already been imprinted so how else can it be removed without creating further damage?

As I look through my archives and chats history, past unpleasant incidences flooded my memory bank. How I was hurt by friends I thought was genuine, how I was betrayed by friends I thought I could trust. How I was stabbed in the back by friends who buttered their words till I fall prey to their schemes. I grew up and was given spiritual guidance in a local church. Therefore I knew what the Bible says about forgiveness. But really, forgiving and forgetting is a totally different story altogether. Likewise for a wound and a scar. In life, something that has been done cannot be undone. Life is not like a computer where you can edit an error, and replace that which was wrong. Neither is life like a computer where you can hit the delete button, and poof!, it is deleted. Only by his grace, heh.

Forgive, & forget? Friends... friends...

I BELONG TO YOU by Rueben Morgan

Open arms
Welcome me close to Your heart
And there I long to stay
Mercy falls
Cleansing my life in Your blood
Whiter than the snow

** I belong to You
Jesus my first love
You’re everything I’m living for
You’re the joy I know
Treasure I hold dear
I burn for You
My eternal love

Take my life
Join me forever with You
Make our hearts as one
Perfect love
Driving away all my fears
Freedom I’ve found

## Jesus, my eternal love
Jesus, my eternal love
Jesus, my eternal love

你是否能明白？

一位坐在轮椅上的残障人士和一位能跑能跳的非残障有什么共同点呢？也许我应该问 “这两群人是否能了解对方？”

那位能跑能跳的非残障是否能完全明白那位坐在轮椅上的残障朋友吗？他的需要， 他的感受， 甚至他的自尊心。。

虽然他们是靠着那辆轮椅来过生活，这不代表他们是废物。。 轮椅有轮椅的精彩啊！！ 如果你的想法只有 “恐惧，忧虑 和 疑惑”而不敢踏出人世，那不是会成为家人的负担吗？难道你要等到被逼的时候才开始学？ 那时， 不会太迟了吗？

人生有生有死。。 难道一个小宝贝不会成长吗？ 难道一个上了年纪的老人家不会去世吗？这只不过是你曾经问过我的一个问题。。 是你自己希望看见我独立起来， 是你自己曾经提议送我去美门残障中心住一住， 学一学他们的独立生活。。 是你自己曾经在朋友面前叫我学他们的独立。。 那， 现在呢？

我最讨厌的就是你曾经很爱把我和惠玲做比较。。 我不是讨厌惠玲， 反而要谢谢她让我看见世界上是绝对没有 “不可能” 这 3 个字。。 但， 我想说的是， 那时你只会称赞她的优点，公开我的缺点。。 那时， 她做到的，我还在学习当中。。 现在， 我也一样做到了。。 但你偏偏不在乎我的能力！！ 送我去爱，关怀之家都是一样的原因吧？我全心学会了这些， 除了为我自己好， 还为了谁呢？ 都是为了你们长老以后不必担心我， 不必为我烦恼。。 但， 你们是否能明白这一切？

这最后一段是给我心目中的特别人物：

在我伤心失望的那一刻， 我叫你不必 call 我， 但我知道你都是为了关心我才来了那一通电话。 谢谢你一直以来的鼓励和支持。。我的心事说完了， 眼泪哭干了， 都一样睡不着。。 haih...

Can dreams come alive?

“What is your future plan?” I knew this would come sooner or later. I have, in fact, been thinking of the next step. With a few options in hand, I am contemplating on each possibility. Can a dream that’s fire has been put off, a dead dream, come alive again after so long being left in the “to sort later” stack?

I may have dreamed and planned to be this and that, but why has it not been accomplished? Is it barriers & restrictions, or incapability & inferiority? Today, I want to get that passion and fire burning again, not because I have no other resorts, but because I want to have something that I can look back and be proud of.

Thanx dear, for that reminder ;) I know dreams CAN come alive if we push forth. If you can, I can too!!

p/s: ooh, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Wei!! This is one of the friendships that I have no regrets of. I may have gone ahead according to the path He has led me, but you are one of the frens that I will keep dearly in my heart. Thanx for everything!! All the best to u too… Cheers…

Do You Believe It?

I can read your mind, and I know your story
I see what you're going through
It's an uphill climb, and I'm feeling sorry
But I know it will come to you

Don't surrender, coz you can win
In this thing called love

* When you want it the most, there's no easy way out
When you're ready to go, and your heart's left in doubt
Don't give up on your faith, love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is

When you question me, for a simple answer
I don't know what to say, no
But it's plain to see, if you stick together
You're gonna find a way

So don't surrender, coz you can win
In this thing called love

* When you want it the most, there's no easy way out
When you're ready to go, and your heart's left in doubt
Don't give up on your faith, love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is

** When life is empty, with no tomorrow
And loneliness starts to call
Baby, don't worry, forget your sorrow
'Coz love's gonna conquer it all, all

Yes, I believe in this thing called love ;) I have believed in it and have held on to it for 8 years, and will continue to hold on to it. Yet, if love does not work out the way you want it to, I don't believe in one's decision to end life just because that one person failed you. For goodness' sake, there are many more out there who are worth your love and care, sweat and blood! God did not just create one miserable opposite sex that you have to mourn over the loss of that one miserable soul who dumped you. Haha. (or even stoop so low to beg him/her to come back to you)

Why do people choose to do stupid things (or even things that will cause them to lose their morale) just because things don't go their way? Excuse me!! Grow up!! If you believe in love enough to stay strong while waiting for Mr. or Ms. Right, no matter how long they take to appear, then love will have a chance to find its way to you. Otherwise, what right do you have to blame love (or worse still blame God) that you are not given a chance, and are the only one left? How can love give you a chance, when you don't even give yourself a second chance?

Someone called me tonight. Shared with me the news of the “successful”passing of a friend. Shocked beyond words, for this was not his first attempt. Is anyone to be blamed for his death? He himself? His ex? Or the people around him for not paying close attention to what he was doing to end his life? Only God can tell! If I was in his shoes, what will I do? Let me assure you, that I will not be so st***d to do something like that ;) because I believe in this thing called LOVE!! And this, I dedicate to all my friends and family out there: I LOVE YOU ALL *muaks*

My Rainbow...

Often times I have mentioned about how much I wanted to see a rainbow, be it physically or in the spiritual realm. I am grateful for the 2 separate occasions that I had an opportunity to see a real rainbow, from which He taught me a few lessons.

The rainbow that I have always wanted to see has appeared in a very special way. I have nothing else to demand of God, but to thank Him for blessing me with such a blessing, haha… I pray that it will get better from the way it already is with each passing day :)

You know who you are ;) Thanx for everything, ya? Jesus loves you & so do I!! *hug hug*

To the Land of Strawberries & Teas...

After a year and four months, Light House finally had our very own cell retreat to the Land of Strawberries & Teas – Cameron Highlands. With a number of 12 almost-regular members, we headed off to spend the night at Peter’s house in Ipoh before heading off to CH the next morning.

It was really a total difference in terms of the company of friends, and the spirit of togetherness here with Light House. 12 of us went, which was quite a good number :) 3 of whom were quite new members. It was because of this retreat that broke the ice between one another, and it was good!

Sharing session really brought out the truth in us. Shared our hearts just about anything as far as the cell is concerned. I announced my decision too :D

Nothing else much to say... let’s just leave it to the pictures to tell the story (but unfortunately the camera woman still needs to do some adjusments to them... will upload it as soon as she sends us the link, or can even view it at my multiply some time later ;)

Actions Speak Louder Than Words...

“Don’t worry Elaine. One may not be a Christian now. (S)he may not be ready to follow your faith, but sooner or later, when (s)he sees your heart, and how you selflessly give of yourself, I believe a ‘miracle’ will happen.” These were the very words of Kenji when I shared some “specific incidences” with him over lunch yesterday.

Yes, I know that reflects a slight truth. But that is not all. There are a handful of other factors, and I know for sure that I was, and still is, a little worried where these other factors are concerned. It is not about him, but about them. Will they accept this idea of “actions speak louder than words” or are they stubborn enough to double enforce certain “rules & regulations”?

“actions speak louder than words” ... Thanks for this revelation, Kenji :)

Lessons To Learn From...

1) NEVER take a relationship (or rather, your other half) for granted. You will never know when it is too late to even appreciate them.

2) A relationship involves 2 persons. Therefore, two-way communication is very, I repeat, VERY important. If only one party speaks all the time, the other party will soon get restless and eventually want out!!

3) Humility, dignity, respect and trust PLUS a give-and-take attitude is a package that comes with a relationship. If one does not learn the art of give-and-take, instead thinks of him or herself all the time, then he or she should do a self check before progressing with the relationship and hurting the other party in the course of time.

4) Honesty is the best policy. No matter how hard the situation may be, speak your heart and tell the truth. First hand truth is better than second hand story. Respect your partner by giving him/her first hand truth rather than for him/her to find it out from an outsider.

5) Guys dislike their girls to be too dependent on them (the guy) for everything, let alone despise themselves (the girl). They prefer a more independent partner who can fend for herself in his absence, and one who takes her life seriously.

Thanks to this couple, both of whom are my friends, I was able to see and learn something new from the failure of their relationship. Of course, I also saw the true color of someone full of insecurity. Having heard both sides of the story, I would rather give the benefit of the doubt to someone whom I have known for almost half a decade rather than someone I only met less than a year. Their story also ended in less than a year.

Hey dude, you deserve someone better ;) “Kar yau!!”

* Note to self:
1) NEVER take a relationship (or rather, your other half) for granted.
2) Two-way communication is very, I repeat, VERY important.

Mixed feelings?

爱是恒久忍耐 又有恩慈
Ai shi heng jiu ren nai you you en ci
爱是不嫉妒
Ai shi bu ji du
爱是不自夸不张狂
Ai shi bu zi kua bu zhang kuang
不做害羞的事
Bu zuo hai xiu de shi
不求自己地益处 不轻易发怒
Bu qiu zi ji de yi chu bu jing yi fa nu
不计算人家的恶
Bu ji suan ren jia de e
不喜欢不义 只喜欢真理
Bu xi huan bu yi zhi xi huan zhen li


凡事包容凡事相信 凡事盼望
Fan shi bao rong fan shi xiang xin fan shi pan wang
凡事忍耐 凡事要忍耐
Fan shi ren nai fan shi yao ren nai
爱是永不止息
Ai shi yong bu zhi xi

Can I be honest with myself? Am I being honest at all in the first place? What was I feeling, what was I thinking when I was told of that news? I was scared… I was more afraid than jealous, really… But the Bible says in 1 John 4:8 that PERFECT LOVE CAST OUT ALL FEARS ;) If I choose to love, I should not fear!!

I choose not to envy (or be jealous)… I choose to believe, I choose to trust!! Most of all, I choose to LOVE!!

爱是不嫉妒… 所以我选择不嫉妒 :)

In My Alabaster Box...

VERSE 1:

I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

CHORUS:

Every long lost dream lead me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

VERSE 2:

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

CHORUS:

Every long lost dream lead me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

(solo)
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

(another solo)

This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

chords

Sometimes I really don’t know if what I did was right. But then again, I would never know if I did not try. Sometimes I am afraid, but other times I am curious to know how the story would end. Sometimes I ask simple questions, other times I debate for logic.

It is a wonder why the perception of humans could be solely based on what they see on the outside. Didn’t the Bible say that God Himself looks at the heart and not the outward appearance? What is the influential factor for this change?

Could I say what this song title say? :)

Absence Makes The Heart Grow Fonder...

Make a proper definition of this phrase. Tell me it really makes sense. What contributes to this phrase? Hmm…

From A Distance...

From a distance… Only from a distance … Was there a tinge of regret when I saw what was impossible to happen? what emotions were they when I looked into your eyes? Was I thankful for what I already have rather than yearning, longing and wishing for what I may never have? It was difficult, what about now?

515 days… You did the routine… So near, yet distance apart… But what can I say for the fact that the grass is greener on the other side :) thanx for the memories though… I wish you all the best!! Please do bless me as I bless you from the bottom of my heart!!

Stolen picture...

My picture was being stolen as somebody else’s display picture? :o

This I Promise You...

When the visions around you
Bring tears to your eyes
And all that surround you
Are secrets and lies

I'll be your strength
I'll give you hope
Keeping your faith when it's gone
The one you should call
Was standing here all along

** And I will take you in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
'Til the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

I've loved you forever
In lifetimes before
And I promise you never
Will you hurt anymore

I give you my word
I give you my heart
This is a battle we've won
And with this vow
Forever has now begun

** Just close your eyes
Each lovin' day
And know this feeling won't go away
'Til the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

Over and over I fall
When I hear you call
Without you in my life, baby
I just wouldn't be living at all

And I will take you in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
'Til the day my life is through
This I promise you, baby

** Just close your eyes
Each lovin' day
And know this feeling won't go away
Every word I say is true
This I promise you
Every word I say is true
This I promise you
I promise you

Yes, this I promise!! You know it is true :)

16th… A date to remember…

There is no need for special occasions to send a special wish to a special person like u. But I really just wanna say thanks for making ME feel so special :) I never regret even one day knowing u. I thank God for bringing u into my life. Thanx for always being there for me, thanx for always cheering me up, and for the way u unfailingly encouraged me.

Thank you!! It is a “number” I will never forget :)

LOVE DOESN'T NEED A REASON...

Lady: Why do you like me? Why do you love me?

Man: I can’t tell the reason, but I really like you…

Lady: You can’t even tell me the reason… How can you say you like me? How can you say you love me?

Man: I really don’t know the reason, but I can prove that I love you…

Lady: Proof? No! I want you to tell me the reason. My friend’s boyfriend can tell her why he loves her but not you.

Man: Ok,ok… Erm… Because you are beautiful, because your voice is sweet, because you are caring, because you are loving, because you are thoughtful, because of your smile , because of your every movements…

The lady felt very satisfied with the man’s answer. Unfortunately, a few days later, the lady met with an accident and went into the coma stage.

The guy then placed a letter by her side, and here is the content:

Darling,

Because of your sweet voice that I love you. Now can you talk? No! Therefore I cannot love you.

Because of your care and concern that I like you. Now that you cannot show them, I cannot love you. Because of your smile, because of your every movement that I love you. Now can you smile? Now can you move? No! Therefore I cannot love you.

If love needs a reason, like now, there is no reason for me to love you anymore.

Does love need a reason? NO!!

Therefore, I still love you. And love doesn’t need a reason.

Relationships are hard to handle, it may even seem impossible at times.

There will be many fights and many quarrels, many disagreements and many tears.The easiest thing would be to give up.But if we spent half the energy we use in fighting with each other, and spend that energy in fighting to keep the relationship strong, then that is love.

Remember, in a relationship, giving up is not the solution Disagreements, fights and quarrels will always be there. But you must always fight harder to stay together. Some fights are really worth fighting! SMILE!!

LEARN TO LOVE WITHOUT TAKING OR EXPECTING ANYTHING IN RETURN… LEARN TO LOVE, AND YOU WILL BE LOVED IN RETURN!!

YOU WILL NEVER KNOW WHAT LOVE IS UNTIL YOU START LOVING…!! YOU WILL NEVER KNOW HOW TO ACCEPT LOVE UNTIL YOU LEARN HOW TO GIVE OUT LOVE!!

LOVE ALL YOU CAN, WITH AS MUCH AS YOU HAVE, FOR AS LONG AS GOD GIVES YOU BREATH.

1 John 4:19 ~~> We love because He first loved us.

1 Corinthians 13:4-8...

爱是恒久忍耐 又有恩慈
Ai shi heng jiu ren nai you you en ci
爱是不嫉妒
Ai shi bu ji du
爱是不自夸不张狂
Ai shi bu zhi kua bu zhang kuang
不做害羞的事
Bu zuo hai xiu de shi
不求自己地益处 不轻易发怒
Bu qiu zi ji de yi chu bu jing yi fa nu
不计算人家的恶
Bu ji suan ren jia de e
不喜欢不义 只喜欢真理
Bu xi huan bu yi zhi xi huan zhen li

凡事包容凡事相信 凡事盼望
Fan shi bao yong fan shi xiang xin fan shi pan wang
凡事忍耐 凡事要忍耐
Fan shi ren nai fan shi yao ren nai
爱是永不止息
Ai shi yong bu zhi xi

A song in mandarin to the translation of the Love passage from the Scriptures. We have been practicing it since a couple of weeks ago in preparation for the Charity Dinner, organized by Lovely Disabled Home. Similar to that of Beautiful Gate, Lovely Disabled Home was set up in November 2005 by just an ordinary inmate of BG, who is now a director of a centre of his own.

On an unrelated matter, it really feels great to be back home to my own cozy room, and to be able to go online again rather than sleep as early as 9 p.m. :o haha

PLAYING LIFE’S GAME…

Sometimes decisions in life can affect our feelings; other times our feelings can affect our decisions. At one point, I was determined to fulfill my decisions. But on the other hand, I was hesitant that it could actually become a reality. Heart to heart talk can sometimes stir up mixed feelings. Truly I was at a junction of dilemma again as Evie and Debbie chatted about their ups and downs last night.

What is it that I truly want? What if I said yes, what if I said no? What if I’m ready? What if I’m not? When I was ready, the situation was at a stand still. Yet when I thought that I may not be ready after all, there were indications that things were on the right track. Haih, what an irony. The inter-zone bowling competition is next Friday, am I up for it? Not that I will be playing. The question is am I ready to face my “challenges”. Am I ready to face something (and perhaps someone) knowing that I may be at risk of losing it?

Do I really have the self-sacrificing Melancholy traits that people say they see in me? True. Love is not self-seeking. And because I wanted others to be happy, I gave up my own for their sake? Well, I guess I have given in way too much. Three years ago, I gave in. Now, I find myself giving in again. Perhaps it is time I learnt to think a little more for myself rather than putting others on priority and end up hurting myself in the process. I’m tired. When will this game end?

“Don’t worry and fret over what’s not happening; cherish that which has taken place.”

25 years and counting…

Last Sunday marks the silver year for my parents!! It may have long past the actual date, but it is better late than never. Better than having them look back and recall their 25th anniversary in the hospital with me, haha. The dinner was held at Kelana Seafood Centre, with my other two ET siblings and I being the organizer. My sister was the overall event manager (cum emcee), my brother the film producer of their life’s story and myself as the receptionist.

The receptionist and her assistant, the rest are just the side models… Hahaha :p

My sis, as the emcee of the nite…

Cell members, relatives, and a handful of close friends from church were there to witness this occasion.

My mom, her eldest brother and wife…

Pictures paint a thousand words. And with too much to say about the whole event, I’ll just let the pictures tell them for me, hehe *winkz*

The “cell group” table…


The in laws, hehehe…

The “bride’s” family…

Uncle Tony and Auntie Connie, the husband-and-wife worship team…

Renewal of vows…

Exchanging of rings…

That special ring from him to her *winkz*

Sweet *winkz*

Our very own BSB band from Grace PJ: The Bible Shop Boys: Tony, Gus and Eddy (L to R) [they came in quietly, made themselves comfortable on stage and started performing - a surprise arrangement by Auntie Connie Chong *winkz*]

Now, let's dance the night away, haha…

Kids really learn what they see the adults do, haha…


Mr & Mrs Simon Teo with Mr & Mrs Mogan :p

Pei Wern, my sis & I…


With Pastor Richard & Pastor Maryanne…

With Ps Steven Young and his sister, Ms. Connie Young… Haha

The Cell Group gang…

The Teng familly…

A good of friend of 11 yrs :)

Presenting the “bride & the groom”, hahaha…


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