Can dreams come alive?

“What is your future plan?” I knew this would come sooner or later. I have, in fact, been thinking of the next step. With a few options in hand, I am contemplating on each possibility. Can a dream that’s fire has been put off, a dead dream, come alive again after so long being left in the “to sort later” stack?

I may have dreamed and planned to be this and that, but why has it not been accomplished? Is it barriers & restrictions, or incapability & inferiority? Today, I want to get that passion and fire burning again, not because I have no other resorts, but because I want to have something that I can look back and be proud of.

Thanx dear, for that reminder ;) I know dreams CAN come alive if we push forth. If you can, I can too!!

p/s: ooh, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Wei!! This is one of the friendships that I have no regrets of. I may have gone ahead according to the path He has led me, but you are one of the frens that I will keep dearly in my heart. Thanx for everything!! All the best to u too… Cheers…

Do You Believe It?

I can read your mind, and I know your story
I see what you're going through
It's an uphill climb, and I'm feeling sorry
But I know it will come to you

Don't surrender, coz you can win
In this thing called love

* When you want it the most, there's no easy way out
When you're ready to go, and your heart's left in doubt
Don't give up on your faith, love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is

When you question me, for a simple answer
I don't know what to say, no
But it's plain to see, if you stick together
You're gonna find a way

So don't surrender, coz you can win
In this thing called love

* When you want it the most, there's no easy way out
When you're ready to go, and your heart's left in doubt
Don't give up on your faith, love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is

** When life is empty, with no tomorrow
And loneliness starts to call
Baby, don't worry, forget your sorrow
'Coz love's gonna conquer it all, all

Yes, I believe in this thing called love ;) I have believed in it and have held on to it for 8 years, and will continue to hold on to it. Yet, if love does not work out the way you want it to, I don't believe in one's decision to end life just because that one person failed you. For goodness' sake, there are many more out there who are worth your love and care, sweat and blood! God did not just create one miserable opposite sex that you have to mourn over the loss of that one miserable soul who dumped you. Haha. (or even stoop so low to beg him/her to come back to you)

Why do people choose to do stupid things (or even things that will cause them to lose their morale) just because things don't go their way? Excuse me!! Grow up!! If you believe in love enough to stay strong while waiting for Mr. or Ms. Right, no matter how long they take to appear, then love will have a chance to find its way to you. Otherwise, what right do you have to blame love (or worse still blame God) that you are not given a chance, and are the only one left? How can love give you a chance, when you don't even give yourself a second chance?

Someone called me tonight. Shared with me the news of the “successful”passing of a friend. Shocked beyond words, for this was not his first attempt. Is anyone to be blamed for his death? He himself? His ex? Or the people around him for not paying close attention to what he was doing to end his life? Only God can tell! If I was in his shoes, what will I do? Let me assure you, that I will not be so st***d to do something like that ;) because I believe in this thing called LOVE!! And this, I dedicate to all my friends and family out there: I LOVE YOU ALL *muaks*

My Rainbow...

Often times I have mentioned about how much I wanted to see a rainbow, be it physically or in the spiritual realm. I am grateful for the 2 separate occasions that I had an opportunity to see a real rainbow, from which He taught me a few lessons.

The rainbow that I have always wanted to see has appeared in a very special way. I have nothing else to demand of God, but to thank Him for blessing me with such a blessing, haha… I pray that it will get better from the way it already is with each passing day :)

You know who you are ;) Thanx for everything, ya? Jesus loves you & so do I!! *hug hug*

To the Land of Strawberries & Teas...

After a year and four months, Light House finally had our very own cell retreat to the Land of Strawberries & Teas – Cameron Highlands. With a number of 12 almost-regular members, we headed off to spend the night at Peter’s house in Ipoh before heading off to CH the next morning.

It was really a total difference in terms of the company of friends, and the spirit of togetherness here with Light House. 12 of us went, which was quite a good number :) 3 of whom were quite new members. It was because of this retreat that broke the ice between one another, and it was good!

Sharing session really brought out the truth in us. Shared our hearts just about anything as far as the cell is concerned. I announced my decision too :D

Nothing else much to say... let’s just leave it to the pictures to tell the story (but unfortunately the camera woman still needs to do some adjusments to them... will upload it as soon as she sends us the link, or can even view it at my multiply some time later ;)

Actions Speak Louder Than Words...

“Don’t worry Elaine. One may not be a Christian now. (S)he may not be ready to follow your faith, but sooner or later, when (s)he sees your heart, and how you selflessly give of yourself, I believe a ‘miracle’ will happen.” These were the very words of Kenji when I shared some “specific incidences” with him over lunch yesterday.

Yes, I know that reflects a slight truth. But that is not all. There are a handful of other factors, and I know for sure that I was, and still is, a little worried where these other factors are concerned. It is not about him, but about them. Will they accept this idea of “actions speak louder than words” or are they stubborn enough to double enforce certain “rules & regulations”?

“actions speak louder than words” ... Thanks for this revelation, Kenji :)

Lessons To Learn From...

1) NEVER take a relationship (or rather, your other half) for granted. You will never know when it is too late to even appreciate them.

2) A relationship involves 2 persons. Therefore, two-way communication is very, I repeat, VERY important. If only one party speaks all the time, the other party will soon get restless and eventually want out!!

3) Humility, dignity, respect and trust PLUS a give-and-take attitude is a package that comes with a relationship. If one does not learn the art of give-and-take, instead thinks of him or herself all the time, then he or she should do a self check before progressing with the relationship and hurting the other party in the course of time.

4) Honesty is the best policy. No matter how hard the situation may be, speak your heart and tell the truth. First hand truth is better than second hand story. Respect your partner by giving him/her first hand truth rather than for him/her to find it out from an outsider.

5) Guys dislike their girls to be too dependent on them (the guy) for everything, let alone despise themselves (the girl). They prefer a more independent partner who can fend for herself in his absence, and one who takes her life seriously.

Thanks to this couple, both of whom are my friends, I was able to see and learn something new from the failure of their relationship. Of course, I also saw the true color of someone full of insecurity. Having heard both sides of the story, I would rather give the benefit of the doubt to someone whom I have known for almost half a decade rather than someone I only met less than a year. Their story also ended in less than a year.

Hey dude, you deserve someone better ;) “Kar yau!!”

* Note to self:
1) NEVER take a relationship (or rather, your other half) for granted.
2) Two-way communication is very, I repeat, VERY important.

Mixed feelings?

爱是恒久忍耐 又有恩慈
Ai shi heng jiu ren nai you you en ci
爱是不嫉妒
Ai shi bu ji du
爱是不自夸不张狂
Ai shi bu zi kua bu zhang kuang
不做害羞的事
Bu zuo hai xiu de shi
不求自己地益处 不轻易发怒
Bu qiu zi ji de yi chu bu jing yi fa nu
不计算人家的恶
Bu ji suan ren jia de e
不喜欢不义 只喜欢真理
Bu xi huan bu yi zhi xi huan zhen li


凡事包容凡事相信 凡事盼望
Fan shi bao rong fan shi xiang xin fan shi pan wang
凡事忍耐 凡事要忍耐
Fan shi ren nai fan shi yao ren nai
爱是永不止息
Ai shi yong bu zhi xi

Can I be honest with myself? Am I being honest at all in the first place? What was I feeling, what was I thinking when I was told of that news? I was scared… I was more afraid than jealous, really… But the Bible says in 1 John 4:8 that PERFECT LOVE CAST OUT ALL FEARS ;) If I choose to love, I should not fear!!

I choose not to envy (or be jealous)… I choose to believe, I choose to trust!! Most of all, I choose to LOVE!!

爱是不嫉妒… 所以我选择不嫉妒 :)